There are victories of the soul and spirit. Sometimes, even if you lose, you win

Buddy, the message is loud and clear - Thanks - I needed this.

Did you know that by simply thinking of someone, you can often cause them to think of you

Your message comes at a time in which I finished reading Lost in Space and now I am watching the secret. All this time, I have been reading and listen to the power of our thoughts. I remember one time when I was a child that my mother sent me to bed as a punishment for something I was wrongly accuse. I remember that night thinking so much about the injustices against me that I wanted in my thought to make her see of that. I remember she woke up and came to check for me in my room in the middle of the night. She sounded like she was nerves. Then I thought that Iwas able to enter in her dreams and this cause her to do what she just did, to come in to my room and check if I was alright after we all have gone to bed hours before.

Well being the most powerful law for which you rule yourself. I will do my best to master the art to have happy thoughts. Because at the end of it what I want to put out there is positive energy.

Just Before They Became Legends

Buddy, I am not going to lie to you. The news hit me hard. Eventhought, I have prepared myself for such thing and I have a view of the whole event which is exactly what it says in Coversation with God. It made me sad to hear he will not be coming back every other Friday.

I wrote down the phone number my friend from Boston gave me so I can call an inquire. But I said to myself as the hours were passing and 10 PM was apporaching what is the used. He the one who gave me his love and taught me how to be more acceptance of people is gone. As the hours passed, I was feeling scare of being alone. I needed someone to hold me and let me cry or just feel the confort of a human body holding me. Then around 6:00 PM, Babe called me to see how I was doing. Around 8:30 PM, I went to do some groceries. Then by 10:30 PM my other guy from SOBE called to check on me.

I have got tell you. You have put good people in my path. Just like you put him, my friend in Boston called my people in SOBE and let them know of the news and that I will probably be moved by. I thank you for put them in my path like you did with him.

Now after no being able to sleep just like that first time he called me to say good bye. I am wating for a better time to call my friend Emma. Some how I felt like I needed to speak to her and that is why I was able to go on all night without being scare but always thinking of him and hopping I would see him one more time and that he departed the way he wanted with the dignity that a beautiful soul such as him deserves.

Thanks for cheer me up - All I want you is for you to take care of my friend and let him know that I missing him. But I know he is in a better place.

Oh my, was I having a good day...

Buddy, I truely believe your words. I also aware of what you are doing. In a day like today, a message was received, in which you involved a dear friend; then you send this email. I will put my word in a way that you will see I get your message and for the one that has departed and the one that delivered the message to see that I love them both and I truely gratefull for our life crossing path.

For the one that is gone, you not only brought love into my life but taught me to accept people the way they are. In a different time, we would not have being friend. But I thanked the UNiverse for bringing you into my life in one of my darkest moments. You told me one why you love me and were extra special with me among all your clients. Because you told me that I was real. To me you were the symbol to what the word real means. I will missed you but I know you have to move on so I am content with your departure. I will keep you in my mind and heart and honor our time together. Fairwell good friend, you gave me so much and I try to share what you give me with every one I encountered. I will try to do that always in memory of you. Until we see each other again for which I am sure it will happen.

To the one that delivery the message, what I told you yesterday after my arrival in MIA is true. I full of joy each time I get to spend time with you and I am sad each time we have to depart. Today's events and your envolvement in them together with the message from the Universe, happens for a reason. I would not elaborate and tell you what you need to make of all these. You are entitle to your own experience and define things the way you see them. I just grateful that you were chosen to delivery the message. Also to tell you that the time between the moment I get to spend time with you and the one in which I have to say good bye, it is an explosion of feeling, experiences, finding, etc that make you so especial in my life. Through you, I am learning more about myself. Our moment together good or bad ones, laughing or finding; I will always treasure them because that is how I learning more about myself.

And to you buddy, thanks for putting this people in my path and always been there with a messgae of encouragement.

If I could make just two wishes

Buddy, I do believe in your two wishes and I also believe in your closer statement. Do you know whay I do believe in you specially so much in this message today. Because, I was an idea when you thought of me. You wanted to epxerience life as a human through me. Just like you are experience life as human with any body else. Through me you are getting Romulo the experience, Romulo the Complex, Romulo that is always after a challenge, Romulo that always looking for the next Mount Everest to conquer, Romulo that seek knowlege, Romulo that does not believe in Labels, Romulo that is too independent, etc.

I know you like having this experience as much I enjoy having them each day. I get a kick out of it when I learn something new about myself or when I able to turn a bad situation in to a good one. That is when I know that you made me to your image. Or when a moment moved me so much that I can only describining it by crying which I learned late in life. But the jurney has be in credible and would not have it any other way.

I thanks you for thought of me therefore I am here. I true agree it was a great idea. I bet some people might not think the same but there is a number out there that think you did good. I am telling you - you did good in thought of them too - Every one even the ones that think I was not a good idea. They have help shape who I am not which I am loving it more by the passing of the days and I discover more about me through the people I get to meet each day.

So I thanks you buddy for the nice thought of me.

Not so fast 060719

As I read today's motivational, I could not help but think in this affair that it has been going on for almost 3 years with not chance that we will ever be able to be together. Then as with the passing of the days and then months I can feel the feeling growing stronger.

I could have been in Detroit for this week. I dismissed IBM too quckly. Then I was told the Gods must be protecting us. I said the Gods must be crazy.

Charming chat that went on for a few minutes but I can feel my feeling growing stronger and stronger.

So buddy, I can take refuse in your words of wsidom from Today's Motivational. Maybe it was not meant to be for this life time. But just having this feeling within me, is enough for me to keep me going and knowing that I could care for someone again.

Not so fast 060719

As I read today's motivational, I could not help but think in this affair that it has been going on for almost 3 years with not chance that we will ever be able to be together. Then as with the passing of the days and then months I can feel the feeling growing stronger.

I could have been in Detroit for this week. I dismissed IBM too quckly. Then I was told the Gods must be protecting us. I said the Gods must be crazy.

Charming chat that went on for a few minutes but I can feel my feeling growing stronger and stronger.

So buddy, I can take refuse in your words of wsidom from Today's Motivational. Maybe it was not meant to be for this life time. But just having this feeling within me, is enough for me to keep me going and knowing that I could care for someone again.

Not so fast 060719

As I read today's motivational, I could not help but think in this affair that it has been going on for almost 3 years with not chance that we will ever be able to be together. Then as with the passing of the days and then months I can feel the feeling growing stronger.

I could have been in Detroit for this week. I dismissed IBM too quckly. Then I was told the Gods must be protecting us. I said the God must be crazy.

Charming chat that went on for a few minutes but I can feel my feeling growing stronger and stronger.

So buddy, I can take refuse in your words of wsidom from Today's Motivational. Maybe it was not meant to be for this life time. But just having this feeling within me, is enough for me to keep me going and knowing that I could care for someone again.

Well, it's Monday for me too, you know.

Buddy, I would jhave always thugh that for a being like you Monday would be the usual like it is for every body. Long ago, I stopped seem this day like a day that would make me full of thoughts of enciaty. I look at it as a day fill with opportunities and challenge to proove myself and you know how I love that.

Yes at times is hard to know what is going own and if we have complet control of things. I still believe we do. Even for my dear friend in Sitges who I think is going ahead and allow crazy thoughts to come into that powerful brains of hers is having another Monday.

I woke up with the positive though that I would get the green light for Boston. Now I read motivational and some how I feel you are telling me Boston might not be the best thing for me.

All through out this weekend I came up to the realization that in a personal level I can not have that person that I want by my side. Now in a porfessional level that project that I feel is the next Wirlpool might not be the one for me.

But some how I do believe what you are telling me in your notes. That person has been some how related to my life for the last 3 years and another Burger King or Whirlpool always makes it to me some how. I rest in peace knowing that only positive thoughts are coming to my mind and that I am not affraid. I just need to find the way to tap into all that is available to me so I can reach and take advantage of what is coming my way.

Now if you will get pepa to get this as well - I will be in content.

of all the emails that are blocked these days...

Buddy, you are right. You can not have a better timing to make me realize this. Because the unexpected email of a dear friend and my little brother together with yours is proved of what you are telling me.

So I will keep on going doing what I do best which is to reinvent myself and take on every opportunity to proove to myself that I in control in building my own reality. That the set backs are just lessons for me to learn and grow so I can take on bigger challenges in life.

Now I see why the mile high city came out so often as a possible project site. You were not challenging me but teaching me to learn more about myself and others. I thank you for it.

They chose to know you because it would make them more

Buddy, I do not know if what you said is true but one things I am sure. You statement comes at the right time. Just last night, I decided to write thoughts that were in my mind for a while. I was not trying to put blame or hold any one responsible. I was just doing what I do best which is over analysing on things for which two people have been involved with me in the last year.

It might be true what you are saying since one of those 2 persons has acknowledge in the past and sort repeacted your statement to me. But this is a process in which they are not the only one learning. I am learning a lot from me through then. Some how last night all those thoughts were making sense in discovering why I am the way I am.

I have not seem or read a response, not that I was expecting one. I sort imagen if there is to be a response which there might be since I have not checked all my emails account. It might one in which the person strikes back. This was not an attack from my part. It was an attemp to know myself better and finding meaning for some of my behaviour and actions.

Nevertheless, at the end of the day, I am glad you are listening as well as there for me in this road of discovering that I call my life.

I think it was easier this way

Sometimes the thought cross my mind where was I that I was not in the Village Station that evening in Dalls back 1998. Going down in memory lane, I remember the first half of the year I spend it working in 3 projects and dividing my time between Miami, Caracas and Jamaica. Then I took another job with another consulting firm based out Chicago but the office I reported to was NYC. Therefore, I spend the whole summer working in NYC in which I dislike the city and its people. Then I was send to London where I was very happy and came back from that assignment in time for Thanksgiving.

I was in love back them. We took our first ski vacation in Europe that winter. Then, client paid for him to travel to NYC one weekend. We went to see Miss Saigon that time. I paid a lot for tickets but I had to do it. There was another story that happens years before in Houston involving the same play and me being dumped. Then My brother had this crazy idea to chrising his kid in Caracas. He wanted to visist Caracas and my family as weel who they were fun of him btw. So we flew on a Friday morning in late summer and came back from Caracas on Sunday aroudn noom. I remember he helped pack for London since my plane was schedule for the same day that afternoon. He joined me in London a week later. It was my birthday present to him and we used tickets that I purchased to go to Paris but since there was an hurricane going through Miami while I was in meetings in New Jersey and the chrising in Venezuela we had to cancel trip to Paris. I remember as well that July 4th he met me in San Fracisco. My flight out of JFK and his out MIA were delayed due to you know how SFA can be.

Funny how I remember all that for that year, it is because at times I wonder if I ever would have had the chance to be the one in the Village Station as you coming in looking for a bathroom that night instead of him. Last time I was in Dallas was on business back in 1996. I remember he was not used to me traveling for work so he gave me one of those scenes. I think that was the last time he ever took me to the airport. Last time he picked me up in an airport was when I was coming just for the weekend from Sidney. The things that one does for love, flying round trip from the other conner of the world to spend the weekend together. It is not use to run the scenario of the village station and me in stead of him. I was as much in love and devoted to him as you are to him now.

Neverthless, I noticed how last night neither this morning you said good bye. Neverthless, deep down I wish you a wonderful trip. I think what you are doing by finally being able to share time together in the city where you grew up is wonderful. It shows one more time how much you have came around from the man I met again that cold night in NYC and told me he was flying back the same day as me to South Florida to catch a cruise with his ex and family. How confuse I was a year ago trying to make sense who really was your lover when you told me you were not single. Finally, I remember telling you that you were going to pay for taking the cruise last year even thought he was indeferent to you going on that trip that morning in DC. Maybe that was the reason for your behaviour that Sunday while you were passing through South Florida on your way back from the cruise.

Remember this is me talking to him in case you ever read this but I truely wishe you safe jurney. I was preparing all night to sound happy for you but I guess this was a better way to handel things.

There is simply no price that would seem too great

Buddy, working late hours and burning the midnight oil, it is easy for one to forget where we are going and where we stand. Certanly, a message like yours brings my spirit up.

Sometimes, I ask myself when my ship would come to port. Today for the first time, I sort regret dismissing IBM to quick. No sure it is because I need to make myself busy or because I learned we could have meet there or at least be in the same city.

You kept challenging me on an idea that you know it will not work. Now why don't just you erase the whole thing from memory. It would make things easy for every one.

But I get the message, I know that this is another lesson that I need to learn. There is not pain that last 100 years nor there is a body capable of resist such pain for so long. This would past like so many things before and so much more to come. Just bare with me, at times the pain is hard to bare but I will make it like I done before. Glad to know you are keeping me company in the early hours of the morning.

The magic of a chosen perspective

Buddy, I could not agree with you more on this one but I have never gone through the situation before reasons why it scares me. Once I challenged you and you challenged me back. I remember going nuts for the reason of you are listening to me. Now you are challenging me again and I like to know why.

If it is regarding my business you know that I have learned to out that into perspective. But do you really think we would be able to have coffee like friends do. The other person is too quick answering such question. Now in my case, it is hard to answer the question when I do not really know the outcome. If we were able before to do just that coffee and a friendly conversation. I would have said yes I can do that. But only time I tried that and the outcome of it was far from my mind. I end up loosing my flight and going in a rollercoster right of emotions.

What happen to those challenges you used to sent my way. They were easy to put into perspective.

Neverthless, if it is for me and my business to go to the mile high city. I will take on the challenge hoping my heart do not suffer much at the end. Too old for such altitude and I have a weak heart when it comes to such city.

disappointments have little to do with circumstance and everything to do with perspective

Buddy, I could not agree more with you on this statement. If we are to be creators of our own reality, then disapointement could not be produced by outside circustances but only from our perception of things.

I once learned that the native American when they first Christopher Columbous armada of ship, they could not see them. They could noticed the pertumbance in the water but they could not see the ships. It was pretty simple the reason why they could not see them. They have never seem a ship in their lifes.

So at the end, life is what we make of it and should accpet that is not the circustances that affect us but the way we percieve them.

Thanks buddy. This helps on things I am experiencing at this moment.

'just a disbelief in limits...'

Buddy, I believe in your words. I also believe when someone is really going through his/her darkest days and there is not possible solution vissible where this person is standing, that is when they are willing to believe in the infinite power that is always available to them to call for at any time.

I remember saying to a person who was very important in my life once, to never set limits on me. That the ski and the infinite Universe are my limits. I still believe in those words. So I trust things are already in montion for the miracles that deep down in my heart I want them to happen. Because I know that we just need to let a higher power take control in order to resolve the matter in the only perfect way that is possible.

I still think we creators that work together in creating a better reality. So I hope that friend that called me tonight to help him with a technical problem involving his computer and camara is aware of you talking to him.

how influential you've been, nor to how many

Buddy, you know how to bring one's spirit up. I think it would not be fair for me to take 100% responsibility for this. The people you have put in my path has been eaqually responsible for shape the person that I am today.

If my light had shined through those dark hours is because a friend encourage me with his love. Or another one had changed her flight schedule in order to stay with me that Memorial Weekend and bring my confidence level up.

I thank you for putting this people in my path. I will continue to honor thir presences in my life by putting out there positive energy for all of us to benefit from. This is my way to thank them all for their love and support.

This is my trying to get closer to and come home once again.