why does it feel like xmas?

Be led by joy, Romulo. It's the whole point.
The Universe
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Remember, Romulo, before this entire adventure began, you once asked me to remind you of this? You asked that I time it right before the floodgates opened, so that you could stay grounded. You were studying at the prestigious Time~Space University... in the Ph.D program... on a Hula-Hoop scholarship... "Go Illuminators!!"

OK buddy, you are right. I do not feel grounded. I have not been feeling grounded for a while. I know my life has never been a walk in the park. I have not regrets about that. Nice to see an email from my friend Emma trying to lift my spirit and remind me that we all have xmas inside of us. But it does not feel like xmas. It doe not fell like joy is in th air and only goodness comes out of people.

I have been thinking a lot about him lately. I think the reason is because we were so close for a day or two and none of us did any thing to try to see one another. It is better this way but I can not help thinking of him.

Also I am making my mind about getting a real job. I can not keep going as independ if I keep running into company that are not honest or client' s team members that do not appreciate me giving them all my knowledge.

I do want to feel like xmas. Even on the worst of my time before, I have never had a feeling like I am felling now. Like xmas was stolen from me. I know when I am on my way to Boston. I will feel xmas. When I am on my way to Europe, I will feel like xmas.