THE DAILY MOTIVATOR
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Life's treasures
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The good things in your life are infinitely more enjoyable when you avoid becoming dependent on them. If you see yourself as desperately needing something, the fear of losing it prevents you from getting full benefit from it.
Many of life's frustrations come from being unable to fully enjoy the good things that are already right in front of you. The desire to hold on tightly to the things you have can make those things virtually worthless.
Security is not attained by hiding away from life. The most enduring form of security is found in knowing that you can deal successfully and positively with whatever may happen.
Life's treasures become useless when they remain locked inside a vault of your own making. What good is it to have anything of value if you must live in fear of losing it?
Instead, take the treasure that is your life out into the world and enjoy it. Focus on the possibilities and not on the fears.
The more you think you need, the more those needs will hold you back. The more you choose to give and to live, the more good things you'll find coming your way.
Ralph Marston
Ok, buddy, here I am again. I know it has been long. I have wanted to write to you for the longgest time. You have been busy writing to me all this time that I felt it was not fair you doing all the talking and I was listen not responding to you at all. What would people would think? This through away that old idea that we pray and try to communicate with you with not answer or hope that you got our message. In our case the roles were reverse. Every day, your messages were clearer and clearer. I was just reading and paying attention to the other ways you choose to communicate with me and do what I do best, I think. I just do that.
It is not a mistery what have been going on in my life to you at least. To the people closest to me either. At least to the ones that care about me and take personaly what happens to me at all.
I do not think this was a test. I think like I think of every thing else. This was a way for me of knowing how far can go and how long can endure.
I hope you do not think that at any time I procastinated, felt sorry for myself or look at the future worthless. I think that despite all of it, I was optimistic and I always able to laugh at things. I think I even make my closest friend laugh at time despite that they felt things on their own skin.
The message today says all. What really brought me to acknowledge the lesson which I was looking for it all this time was the fact that I came back to the same place 2 years ago. I was not surprise that the guy remember me. After all, I was kind and thankfull to him for how consider he was of me during that time in Seattle. I was knid of resentfull to him for the way he was with me on that last email. Then I figure he was just listening to other ideas which was not really descibing me. At the time, I said to myself if he only knew what that other person wanted to pull to him and I stand my ground and I said that was not the way I conducted business.
At least I got the chance to tell him that today. It seems things has been working out for him since he open a new office in Norther California. I had to admit that whenever I got one of his target emails, I have never replied and went back to that time when he was so rute and that whole situation after Microsoft.
But that was as bad as it went. Never wish him bad. Probably thought that only people that act that way gets ahead of business when I heard of him opening a new office. But today I heard that he never got paid by that other guy. I do not know if that is the truth or he was pulling that on me so his associate can hesitate on my qualifications. Some how the way things end up, I believe he might not have gotten paid.
Now I remember how he was the only one to call me that first weekend it took me 24 hours to get back to Miami. I was stuck in Houston. Funny how this city seems so unknown to me and Paris seems so familiar. Thirteen years there and when I got the chance to go back, I remember I called myself the venezuelan from Houston.
So we are not full circle and some how I feel old habbits or for lack of better word adictions coming back.
I might be coming back in circle for the time before Seattle but I do not feel the time after Seattle coming back. This is a new beginning. I needed to come to full circle so I can experience for myself anf then take the right approach or like my friend Jose says find a balnce on my new perspective.
Do not know if he would ever know that we came close so many times after that weekedn last Oct in Boston. On of them was even it was it used to be his home town or it is part time home town now. I loved the mountains there and it could be colder that any place I have been ski before but I will not live there. Not even Barcelona which was a choice of my own after the Netherland was push to me in deciving way.
But the answer is not. I will not go bad to that. I moved on and that person could never even consider that a stop while waiting for the bus. It was never seem like that on his side. But like the rest, I wish him well. Maybe we will run into each other again like I did to day with this guy. I have to admit that some how I sort of knew it was the same guy of Microsoft. I even admit playing fool at the beginning. I was not even surprise he remember. I acted that way because it seems like a big think to his associate. Now to think of it of course is a big thing. How many consultant does this guy go through in order to be running a successfull staffing bussiness. Then again this individuo he introduce me too is not easy to forget in a bad way. Maybe I will play the fool with this other one and pretended I do not remember. then again that would be my ego which is not the same situation that happens today. Since I try to keep my ego in check and I play not games, I will be like he asked me to be if we were to run into each other that last weekend in Oct in Boston. Any ways, I know from experience that runing into me is more or a traumatic experience for the other person than me. I guess is that present he commented about it almost 2 years ago before I learned of his now 10 years relationship with Dallas. Which brings me to one question, what was Kevin or Tony checking my profile for? I barely survive that one. It was wird. - Lets leave that one for another night - ok buddy.
But the lesson is now clear and I thank you. Like I thank you for the people you have brought to my life who were with me all this time and did not just pretend to be a friend.
Wicked is humble and will never wanted to put you through this situation. I will write more often. Nevertheless, you know that you are always in my thoughts and I always communicating to you.
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