Wow, Romulo, everything's been so working in your favor lately, huh?

Buddy, I know you know this but the effects to be without a client are going to be felt until the second week of Nov.

No complains here, I accept the outcome cause this is the path I have chosen for me. I need to thank you for this client. I asked you for another Whirlpool and you brought an improove version of the old one. This reafirm to me that I should have no dispair. That you were with me at all times.

Now, if you help me figure out and fix that other part of my life. Then I would be sayinng whoooooo.

It hurts either way. Loosing or winning are one and the same in this paradox. Just help me a give me the courage to walk away and let them be. I think that is best for all.

Thanks for this client - you were there all this time

Romulo, you've changed absolutely everything

Buddy, if I have changed, it is because it cames from within me to do it. I hope you like the changed me because I loving it more and more with the passing of the days.

Time and space my be something that I might not have a completly grasp of it. But I like the fact that I am inventing many things at each time in each space that my reality takes me.

The day did not started good. But I was able to turn it around. The whole process took lots of energy and I was tired by the time I got to my room and order something to eat. I was all day thinking that I have not shown sign to any one of my where abouts or how I was doing. I know you know who I had in mind in specifc. It was nice to know my hola note was answer in way that show me this person had me in mind all day as well. Knowing that it would be only because of a extremely busy day this person asked me how was going with client.

Some how the fact that I seem history repeating itself when it comes to client and the whole numbers of events that occured today, brings confort that I will be able to repeat history and build a trust account with this client like I did with Whirlpool. I have asked you many time in the last months for another Whirlpool to show up. You did as you said you will always do obey my desires.

I also was very happy that another trust account is also going to a healthy balance. I will do what ever is in my power to keep that account going deeper and deeper in the positive level. Past events which I called them mistakes then but were necessary for me to learn more about myself, to accept me and accept others. So I will probably see more of those moments come out. The one that give me the impression that I am superficial entity crossing one's path. In almost 2 weeks there is a trip schedule to NYC for which I am happy for both party and wish them save jurney. I might sound content which I am but only one person could tell I wish things were different. This is a good example of time and space buddy. For another time and space, my content would translate to infinite happiness. But remember this, for this definition of time and space, I am content with not regrets and not negative feeling toward any one. My love is extended to all now. Please remember that as well as the happines that the note brought to me knowing that trust account is going positive.

The reason eternity is so hard for most to grasp

Buddy, you bring a good point. I was just tell me my friend Emma that I learned from my trip to Europe not only true acceptance a love that infenitely unconditional. But also that I was affraid and thought I was not able to do something that was kind of second nature to me. Flying between Europe and American was a common thing as me going and coming from any client in the USA. Yes I have learned that I am affraid of flying. But I think is not being affraid of something any more. It is in not really know any more what is like. Therefore, I procastine on the unknown that will be coming bigger and more frighting as I keep avoiding to learn again what it was like.

Maybe because we have experience time as we know it so far and space as we have found it so far. That the big unknown that we knew and it was second nature to us when we were Gods that one day or space decided to have a human experince. Then we do not see what is out there in front of us. I told her try as much as you can to do it once again. Then you will discover what was second nature to you and crave for it at all times was abandon by you or forgoten for a while. But once you do that first step in experience it again, you will know how much you were missing it.

Romulo... I'm still here

Buddy, believe me, I know you are still here with me. Emma yesterday made a comment which is very true and I was 100% in agreement with her. It says in Spanish Dios aprieta pero no haorca. The fact that you sent this message today is very important and relavent to Emma's comments and how my situation was or still is at some degree.

I do claim responsibility for everything because it was my doing and none else. The moment I claim responsibility that is the moment that I am inpowering myself to take action and change things around. I would denie that a part of me wanted to go throuh the whole thing. It is when you think you do not have anything in the world when you discover the wonderful life that is all around you. Old friend and newone show me how much they do care for me. How much value they bring into my life. I might not be the same consultant in terms of my bank account to that consultant I was 10 years ago but I am a richer consultant now. Look all I got which did not take money nor power to get.

Thanks buddy - for being here.

is appreciating that age is so very meaningless

Buddy, I used to head celabrating my birthday because I could not deal with so much attention. Problem back then is that I used to think love was given on conditional bases. Now I understand why this last birthday was so special. Nor only because I spent it with the two most incredible people on Earth. Also because I got so many notes in which friends wrote beautiful messages telling me how much they appreciate me being in their life.

I can remembre that a few days before my birthday someone almost made me cry with a beautiful statement. It was the fact that this person was letting me know how much he likes this Romulo than the one I used to be 10 years ago, which he never got to meet. But I was moved by that nice comment.

But the truth is that this new Romulo does not look for recognition nor approval. This Romulo thinks and believe on giving love at all times. Regardless, if I get love in return. I just feel I need to overflow the Universe with as much love as I can give.

Now I understand why this birthday was so special and incredible. Now I know why I did not feel unconfortable with all the attentions and emails. I used to hate to think I was getting a year older. My vanity could not handle that. Now I get more compliments than before when I was a lot younger and less grey hair. I think my inner bauty is startung to develop. I thank you for it.

Yeah, Romulo, like a fish takes to water.

Buddy, you are so funny. I have heard the same phrase but in Spanish. This is the first time I hear it in English.

Do I want fame and all that money? Funny ten years ago I wanted all that to proof people that were given me a little bit of love that I worth it. Now days, I can see the trace of that old Romulo. Friend Emma was abel to see that. She says that my competitive nature push me to do such thing, to try to become the center of atention, to make someone see that I worth a little love when that person has been in love for the past eight years with someone else.

Now days, I just want to do what makes me happy and what brings value to others. I have discovered that is my true nature. Yesterday, while talking to Emma, the thought that Romulo of 6 years ago was coming back scared me. Glad my friend was able to tell me that not, I was not that one any more.

Now I would not mind the fame and the money as long as I do the things that makes me happy and brings value to others. Fame and money would the result from what I love doing and the value I bring but will not be he objective that push me to do those things. I guess that is what I need to have clear. They are bias product of doing what I love.

Thanks buddy - now I feel much better - if I can only fix that other part of me that is so competitive and persues things even when it is wrong to do so. Then I can say I have become the person that I dreamed to become some day.

the most powerful power tool ever

Buddy, It is true what you are saying - But it is also true that to reprogram ourselves to use this powerful tool effectively is not easy. Neverthless, thanks for the encouraging words. I will try harder each time.

Buddy - I am going to through the ball at your court

Which one do you think I below? of the many groups of people that you mention in your note today, I know I below to one. Now I have noticed you been a little over the negative side. Now my question is why or is it me the one that seems your comments that way. I love the email you sent me yesterday. It made me feel good. But just mentioning the other groups an dthe fact that some miss on the opportunity or choose not to gor for i, sounds negative on my end. Hubs, I think I told you what group a belong to. But I learned to accept people that see things different than me. So cheer up, I am in London after a wonderful time with the 2 people that I love th emost.

This is me buddy - Telling you that I am on your side ;-)

Do you have any idea of how much each one of them loves you?

Come buddy, you are on my side. Have you noticed the ecards and email I got yesterday. The messages of hope and love my people gave me. Plus you know how wonderful coming to visit my friend Emma and her husband who I call out of love El Tio has been.

In moments when things do not seem to go my way. In times of trial and difficulty is when I see the lights around me. It is when I notice how rich I am, how proud I am of the life that I have been living. This time around has been more poverful than any of the one I have gone through before. This time I around I was with my family in Mexico and Spain. They protected me and the made me feel safe so I can recharge for the battle.

Now do you remember our deal. It is September 14th. I have not heard or received an email from my buddy in DC. I want hos doughter to be as beautiful as her Mom, with the noble heart of his fathers and the intelligence of both of them. I want the mother to be alright and as beautiful and sweet as the night of her wedding. Remember that buddy, that is me asking for my dear friend.

To my Jefecita, I know you heard me in Mexico and I know you are with them now. Please, I implore you for the well being of mother and daughter. This is a good friend and a beautiful soul. I know that you and him selected me to take that message to Mexico city. You knew I could have never passed taking such a noble job. I told him that you like flowers and whe he and his wife go to you to introduce you their daugther; they will remember to bring you flower.

This is me asking you and know that you have heard me. Please let everything be alright. Thanks

Hey, once you're "rich," Romulo, what will you do? If you get my drift

Buddy, I already know that I am rich. Just look at the people you have put in my path. None can be this rich. So with this note I say thank you. I have got to get ready. Emma has a all day plan for the day my family claims I was born.

Thanks buddy.

If you say so, Romulo. If you say so.

Buddy, I can not help but think that you are telling me this in order to let me know how much the power of my thoughts have in the Universe. I also notice that people usually answer this way when they know they do not want to continue the argument.

Please do not give up on me. I like to have you around and the though of you given up is not one that I will be able to take or accept. You are being appreciated buddy. Keep up with me, things are looking up and now is when you need to take the credit for you constant support.

Always your friend

Wicked....

Romulo, I'm literally counting the days 'till our new business is ready! Whoohoo!

Buddy, This is what I like about you - You tell it like it is - Without feel any regrets or thinking anynone can take for a vaine person.

This weekend was one of the best I have had in a long time. Emma and El Tio were telling me that they were kind of nervous with my visist and the Poland, never seem to remember his name, since we some how did not click the day of their wedding. But I was sad when they came to say good bye last. Specially, Elizabeth who I got to dance that wonderful night we went to that dance club by the sea.

Now where El Tio and Emma took me to lunch today was just incredible. It was high end, high class area that I some how missed last time I was here. We had a wonderful time just the three of us. I can not help but love this people with all I got.

I am thinking very seriously in taking my business here. Nor only I have been with people I love but I seem to be very popular here. El Tio told me the nick name he gave me because of the number of people crusing me every where we go but then again they got me drunk during lunch. This time we started with Cerveza and then Sangria that was out of this world.

Thanks buddy, thanks for everything and thanks for given me this people.

Get back in the saddle and ride on, as fast as you can

No kidding - Wow - My friend Emma was right - Coming to Europe through London is the worst - For a little time, I could remember thos days when I used to land and go through terminal 2 - My driver would be waiting for me to have a cigarret with me. He used to like me. We could talk just about any thing. There was this brief moment that I could recall those days. But the mess that I encounter. I have to enter the country when I was not supposed to then they allow only one carry on. You know how much of a nerd I am now days. I travel with all sort of gagets.

But buddy, you can always count on me to get in that saddle as soon as you can say it. I think it was cute how you end your note.

So for every one - It seems I survive this crossing. I will keep on making it each time. The old Romulo of years ago who worked in London is not coming back but the one that was able to do the crossing and venture around the world still within me.

making those whacky finger horns over your head in your photos.

You are so funny. But yes I am aware of my friend in the unseen world. I also know that what I get to see if the tip fo th eiceberg.

Now, I hope you read this one. Making the long trip to Europe is not easy for me now days. I have became more scare of flying in my old age. But I am ready as I could be. Full of crazy thoughts that goes through my mind but the one I have not being able to get at all off, is you. Yes I am guilty that since we last chatted on Monday evening I launched a direct attack on you. But why can we call this an attack. I just express how I feel about someone that I met a feew weeks ago that I am looking forward to meet again and get to know that person better. You and I have know each other for so long. At the 3 quarters of the way I can tell you were always making me believe from the distance and through this media that something can develop from this. The number of fights we have had about this subject are endless. I do not want to fight any more. I do acknowledge this thing that someone connects me to you and won't allow me to venture far. But for my sake and your sake, I made a commitment this last time to really become a friend. To respect your relationship of 8 years which even to this days I admire and think it is a beautiful one because of the way you act when you are with him. I can give my love and friendship without any conditions or expectations. But it is obvious that by keeping it this casual you are either showing me that I am a threat to your relationship or you do not really see me as friend. There has been time in the last couple of month that I really needed a true friend. One that can pick up the phone and give a message of hope and care. I got emails or chats through the other media.

Thoughts cross my mind when I remember one time you went to Dallas and you mention knowing me. Was that done to making jelouse and make him appreciate you more or was I really view like the potential friend I could become and one day being introduce to him.

To tell you the truth I do not know what to think of the whole thing. Was I really being offered a friendship or am I threat to your commitment and relationship with Dallas. I could not be seem like a friend because friend offer in any way they can confort or just the attention to be heard. So I must be consider like as a threat then. Which brings to mind the thought that we my run into each other again and you probably want to pull another DC on me. Is that all I am good for it. That is the part that makes me the most sad. Nor only the thing that scares me the most since I have been offered a gig in Southern California and your constant trip to OC means for me to hide and not being able to really sit down like good friends over coffee without you trying to go beyound of what good friends are supposed to do in such occasions.

It hurts me to attack you. It hurst me that when I am over analyzing a situation with regards to Boston. I get my friend not being supportived or discourage me by saying I was being taking as a casual hook up. I made a promise to honor your and honor your feelings as I am here honoring mine. This is how I feel betray by someone that offered me a friendship and at the moement when I could not handel fleakiness that is what I have been offered. The years knowing you and big part of those years being fed the idea of an illusion that was not meant to be. Then agreen to friendship that has terms and it is not free to express the true love between friends.

Sorry, I could not help on thinking about all this. Trips like the one I am about to take has that effect on me. But I will cross the Atlantic one more time alone for the sixth year when before I used to do with someone that was not even good company to help carry the lugage or do a simple transaction on foreigner ATM. But I am sorry if I hurt you with my attacks. I was hurt for the conditions imposed to a friendship in which I was given my love with out condition even hopping some day I can be introduced to Dallas.

For you buddy, I am sorry I went this route. I had this burning inside all night long as the time to make that crossing that you know gets me this way come closer. But I do appreciate you being on my side kepping me going like good friend always do to each other.

ase don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about

Funny how you said this, call me crazy but I think what you are saying to me is true. All things in my life might not be working or are the way I wish them to be. But I can hear the trumpets and hrons that you are talking in your email.

It is amazing what you have been teaching me this time around. I take fool responsibility that is me who ask for this and enduce this on myself. At the end of the day, I am enjoying this. The experiences are helping me to build my character. I am also seem in the darkness all the light that I have around me. I thank you for it. This is from the bottom of my heart.

No. We're talking bigger than snappy, new Ringtones, Romulo. Way

Buddy, I do believe in your words. I feel like I needed to go through what I am going through. I learning so much about me and the people around me that I feel I could not learn any other way.

I know my time in the sun is just around the conner. But I needed this like I am often looking back at those time in which I tested myself anf found that I learned so much and recognize the abundance that is available for all of us.

I would not change any thing if you ask me. The email that Boston sent me with regards my plans to come for a visit is a proof of that. I can tell now that my crossing path and that wonderful night we spend together had more meaning that just two persons crossing path and never see each other again. I have been appreciated and I have been desired. It has been long since the last time someone made me feel that way.

With this buddy, I am telling you how much I appreciate all that you have given me and how grateful I am that you are continuing given me all I ask for.

Life reflects back 060901

This is a good message buddy, thanks. Now you are giving me a push to keep going. I was just discussing this with my Carioca friend 2 nights ago. He is such a beautiful soul that he truely worries and care for me. I do not know what I have done to deserve this but from deep within my heart I thank you for all that you have given me. For the pleasent surprise visit of a dear friend yesterday. For the Carioca and all that is around me because in moments as dark as this one, I can always see the light that is always around me.

Think about me, Romulo... xo

Buddy, if there is someone who is always in my thoughts, that would be you. I can not help but think that your answer sounded insecure. The way you said "At least that's what I think"

To be honest, I care less what people think of me now days. I have been thinking lately like I usually do when I find myself in the same situation I am in right now. That there are two ways of look at my decision to go independent. If one look at my bank account back when I was in Siebel, that person might say - are you crazy!!! - But doing what I love without having to lie or keeping the truth from client, being honest with myself and the world out there, it is a amazing experience. No having that judge on top of me all the time, feels like paradise.

This is me telling you that I am ok - that I still wish another Whirpool eager to learn and uncovering the secrets of these wonderful application with me, is all I want - plus that person in Boston ;-)

Always thinking of you buddy

Wicked