Jan 31, 2007 - The Universe

Talk about two ships silently passing in the night...
Romulo, even your own path crossing with a complete stranger, on a sidewalk, down the hall, or at Starbucks, on this holiest of adventures, amongst the billions now alive and the zillions who could have been, means so much more than most can even comprehend. Suffice it to say, however, that in such moments, these fellow adventurers are closer to you than a brother or a sister, no matter who they are.
You are the "King" of the world - The Universe

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You were talking about ships, right, Romulo?

Buddy, it took me a while to answer to you but you are touching a subject that is complex as well as sensitive.

I will say complex becuase in time and space all is relative to something. I came to the realization that every relationship is a test on how I am realating to other people. I do not regret any longger when a relationship fails or for some reason or other it stops. I try always to see what that relationship brought to my life in terms for learning experiences. If for some reason, it does not work any more and we stop communication or relationship does not go any furthere. It would only means that we learned what we were supposed to and went on with our life.

It is true when I said I learned more about myself through the interaction with others. I have also learned that most of the time when I learned something important through the eyes of one person. Some how something I end p taking a stand and the relationship stops. I have noticed that when I started praising what significants the presences of this other person in my live means, I turned to elevate him or her to a place where idols are kept. Somehow that is when things start going wrong and we stop going forward with the relationship. I am specualting that the reasons for this might be the level of expectaions that my comments might be bring to the other person which has as direct result the obligation to accept me despit the fact that is clear that my behaviour is not of the other person liking.

Buddy, the only thing I can tell you is that I learning some how to accept this. My decision to stay away is clear because is based on the fact that the other person can not stand me at times. I do not feel anger, I do not feel rejected or hurt. I learned to see this kind of situation for what it is a learning exprience. Therefore, I will not hurt back when the situation of ending the relationship turns to a situation in which is clear the abuse. Come to think of it, it has happened before. In those situations, I learned to thanks you for putting this people in my path and I always make references to what I learned from them and sherist that always.

So now you know, I was not talking about ships. I was talking to the many angels you have put in my path for which I thank them for their contribution to my life. In some case, it might be then the ones who do not accept me and in others is me the one who can not accept them. But with me not accepting them, it does not mean I want them to change for me. On the contrary, everyone should be happy and proud of who they are. I just do not share the same value system or see my reality in the same way.

I know, it is an act of love to tell who vitimizes us what he or she have done to us. But in my case, I am expecting them to analyze things the way I am doing now. It should be easy, I do not see why some one would not do it. Just the fact tthat I did not fight back should be a reason. I am not mad and that is not my reason for my distance or why I decided to stay in here in case someone wanted to communicate with me. I know I was not accepted and in this particular case my praising delayed the inavetable. I do apologize for it because now I see how much pressure that must have been for someone delayed stop talking to me for so long.

Remember in time and space all is relative to something we already have experience. If we do not see relationship as the opportunity to learn how we relate to others and see the ending of a relationship from the otherside, how the other person relates to us. We are just experiencing only half of what we are supposed to.

I do end this buddy with what I told my dear friend Mark when he called to say good bye "I thanked you for crossing path with me. Your presences in my life had a significant conrtibution to it. I know we will meet again. This is not a good bye." Somehow after I talked to him. I felt I did not do enough for a this good friend. He gave me Tuesdays with Morris. That is how I felt that week until you gave me the wonderful present in which I got the chance to really express to him how much he meant to me. Thanks for those last weeks you gave us. Please tell him I love him and I would be always gratefull for him crossing path with me.