If you could live this life over, Romulo, would you still want there to be the same challenges?
Loaded question, huh?
Yeah, you cherry-picked each and every one. And you knew exactly what you were doing.
In awe of you - The Universe
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Kind of like you were at Macy's, on rollerblades, Romulo.
Buddy, You know pretty well I would not have it any other way. That was our agreement, remember? So you are reminding me of the choices I have made, I can also remind you that I have risen to the ocasion and call into you for your commitment to assit me which you have always giving me with not condictions. So here I am giving you my thanks and gratitute for them.
Yes you know what was going on in my mind when I had my first smoke today. Thanks buddy, I needed it. Now we need to get going on the next assignment. I have to give you credit for what you have sent my way. Now I have expressed them and you what I want. The first that crosses the finish line, that is the one I will go for.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
Wicked Jan 29, 2007
Buddy, I forgot to give you thanks for your note last night. It was very clever of you to hide it in the fortunen cooki from the Chnise take out that my Carioca friend and I had last last night.
It was a very pleasent time we expend together. I told him many things and by now he has a view of the great schema of how I view my reality.
I have only told one person and that would be him why I included in at least two the movies I made last year the satalite picture of a hurricane approaching the coasts of Florida. Only, him who is taking time off can belive what that wonderful night we sexpend together talking and joking all night long represented to me. It was my last night after I came back to my home town after that horrible hurricane passed through. I remember I could not bare to see the distructions and how the life of people that I love was being affected. Nevertheless, I treasure that time together.
if you ever read this. I want you to know that I learned from you at least two important lessons you taught me by setting an perfect example for me to understand the idea:
1. That friend should not be put in a pedestal
2. How much aboundance there is in the Universe of every thing we need to make us happy. By you sharing half of what you owned that Friday night in Nov proved me that an act of love and compansion toward a friend it worst sharing the 80 Dollars that was all that you possesed under you name that week demostarted that there is more where that come from reason why you splited in half with me.
I saw that Saturday morning whe you were the first person I confesed my involvedment in a relationship that I was not to proud to admit because of how unconventional and the fact that I live in Miami and the other one in Denver with a stop in Dallas. I saw them how your eyes were capable to express pure unconditional love.
I love you and please make some little time to see me before you leave. I will understand if you are not up to the meeting. But I will love to tell you how important and valuable you crossing path in my life is to me. My buddy know that I asking him for you everytime and I am always making sure he/she is conspiring to assist you in all. You just have to have happy thoughts and ask for all. Love you Romulo
P.S. Buddy I am attcahing your message from last night in the form of a photo for all to see how you are constantly by myside providing me all I ask you for me. Thanks for such noble job.
Jan 29, 2007 - The Universe
Did you know, Romulo, that the average person looks 793.7% more attractive when they smile? Not to mention healthier, wiser, slimmer, richer, and cooler.
They do.
And smiles "become things" too - The Universe
Let's ROCK, Gorgeous!
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Add your saunter to the equation, Romulo... and you best be careful where you walk that puppy.
Yes buddy I know what you meant - They say so in the secret and this book that I read once "Many Life Many Masters"
I have set the power presentation that my aunt sent me as my screen server so that I will remember that. My affimation is that the ideal job or project where I can bring value to my clients and feel rewarded for a job well done is already mine and I thank you for delivering it to me.
They do.
And smiles "become things" too - The Universe
Let's ROCK, Gorgeous!
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Add your saunter to the equation, Romulo... and you best be careful where you walk that puppy.
Yes buddy I know what you meant - They say so in the secret and this book that I read once "Many Life Many Masters"
I have set the power presentation that my aunt sent me as my screen server so that I will remember that. My affimation is that the ideal job or project where I can bring value to my clients and feel rewarded for a job well done is already mine and I thank you for delivering it to me.
Friday, January 26, 2007
The Universe - Jan 26, 2007
How could it be difficult, challenging or hard, Romulo, when so many others have done it?
You know, anything. For instance, to partners that will work with meas partners.
Don't you love good news? The Universe
"I am profoundly imbued with a sense of awakening because of your veil lifting. I was lost, but now I am found!"
Lost in Space - A Modern Classic!
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Of course, Romulo, they probably didn't think it was difficult, challenging or hard.
Buddy, that is the same thing I was telling him when he called to say good bye. I know he got the message because of the way that thanks sounded to me. But there was a lesson in there for me to. I am glad that you conspired in assisting us to see each other lesson.
I can say from my point of view that it was what I needed to feel back again the same Romulo in my own town. I was able to look back at the one lesson that started it all and realize there was not reason and I am glad I have not had signs of the resentment I used to hold for what he was or represented in my life. But in reality he was the lesson that started me in this Jurney that I found myself. I m who I am now because of it. Then I was able to relate to a lesson that just happened recently and I was still gling around in circle looking for what I fail to learn or apply from previous one. Prasising somaone and raised to the highest place that one can erroneusly created for a fellow human being, force the other party building in this way resement.
I fail this time just like he failed with the one who called me, by forcing him into an space that he does not feel welcome.
I am glad how we left thing things. We the promice of me teaching him how to ski in Chile i think the parth of your message when you are talking about a partner. You were think of him and me sharing the incredible rush that is to come down a slope at incrdible speed and feel the win in your face as you can here you skies cutting into the ice like a pair of ice sculture utincels or tools.
Thanks buddy for checking on me and be near in case I need you.
You know, anything. For instance, to partners that will work with meas partners.
Don't you love good news? The Universe
"I am profoundly imbued with a sense of awakening because of your veil lifting. I was lost, but now I am found!"
Lost in Space - A Modern Classic!
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © http://rs6.net/tn.jsp?t=97x868bab.0.xppao9n6.etmmrsn6.81883&ts=S0228&p=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.tut.com ®
Of course, Romulo, they probably didn't think it was difficult, challenging or hard.
Buddy, that is the same thing I was telling him when he called to say good bye. I know he got the message because of the way that thanks sounded to me. But there was a lesson in there for me to. I am glad that you conspired in assisting us to see each other lesson.
I can say from my point of view that it was what I needed to feel back again the same Romulo in my own town. I was able to look back at the one lesson that started it all and realize there was not reason and I am glad I have not had signs of the resentment I used to hold for what he was or represented in my life. But in reality he was the lesson that started me in this Jurney that I found myself. I m who I am now because of it. Then I was able to relate to a lesson that just happened recently and I was still gling around in circle looking for what I fail to learn or apply from previous one. Prasising somaone and raised to the highest place that one can erroneusly created for a fellow human being, force the other party building in this way resement.
I fail this time just like he failed with the one who called me, by forcing him into an space that he does not feel welcome.
I am glad how we left thing things. We the promice of me teaching him how to ski in Chile i think the parth of your message when you are talking about a partner. You were think of him and me sharing the incredible rush that is to come down a slope at incrdible speed and feel the win in your face as you can here you skies cutting into the ice like a pair of ice sculture utincels or tools.
Thanks buddy for checking on me and be near in case I need you.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
The Universe - Jan 25, 2007
Permission, Romulo, is what you give yourself.
I give you everything else.
The Universe
And there's no need to dally, Romulo... your chariot awaits. Chariots, actually, your assistant here insisted you'd want one for every day of the week... Assistants, actually.
Buddy, I still rememeber what you wrote yesterday and how I have been feeling about my whole reality since I am back home. I told you them that I still believe in miracle. This one for one is the most important daily miracle that keeps recurring every day. To be able to have a direct and clear communication with you.
Now, the miracle that materialize last night when I called him back after he call me to say good bye is one that has major precedent in my life at this moment.
I know some who you were able to understan my message. By saying thank you at the end and me answering the way I did, speachless. It is a proof that you were able to make things out of the crazy things I say most of the time and for which people has been very open to express their dislike of me being that way. Most of them have expressed in ways of how much they dislike that in me that have accused me of doing it to hurt or anoying fellow human beings.
I was clear and frmed in PT when I told a dear friend that the last thing in my mind is to cause pain or disconfort on otheres. I even used my skli buddies as an example on how they are able to accept me after a week of having me 24x7. I can recall that time when they could not say good bye to me in Houston on this last time when Milton kept calling me to check on me. I am glad that dear friend has seemed the whole issue from this point of view and now he is a major player in helping grow in all aspect of my life.
But talking to you last night brought back memories of events that you did not or were not clear to you since you were so young. I sort of felt bad that you might have noticed a little resentment when I wastelling you that for the little love he was willing to give me I sacrify myself to the pointof putting my life in danger and he showin not sign of concern on his part. probably is that though that a father should lovehis son uncondictional and the song do as well toward the father. But in reality, I can see things more clear now since we talked. I acknowledge why I was not able to fullfill my part in my last trip to Venezuela.
He is my fathe for a reason. Like I told you those event in my life very crucial and impirtnat in molding the person that I am now. I was honest when I told you that I look back with nostalgy. They were hard years but I look at all I have beacsue of them and the things I experienced that make me keep them close to my heart.
But in reality I shouold not have and I do npt have for that matter resement to him since he is my father because that was the only way I could experienced those years. I might sound with resement at times but it is for me lacking acceptance that I was probably his lesson and that he did not assimilated at this time since I see the same things I wet through reapeating with you and him. But not accepting that fact in him does not justify me having any resement.
You see he was my lesson then and I strted this jurney where I find myself. Neverthless, so far in this jurney, I have been guilty of not beong able to pratice what I laerned back them. I still begging for the little love that some how I force an individual to give me by me showering him or her with praises and at times sacrifying myself. All beacsue clearly I want to be accepted at all cost. This put a lot of presure on the other party since they found themselve kind of obligated to accept me because of my behaviour when is clear that they dislike some of my behaviour when I am being me. This build resement of course and at some point they exploit like in this case of this 2 comments that I have in my blog which are not public because I respect they were written to me and not to you. But in i you can tell that for some time this person was not happy having around and thought at times to stop talking to me.
It is funny. I remember now that I said good bye in both occasion with the same prhase and thought "I need to go home to work in putting my life back together and look within me to see what is that I am doing that I keep having the same experience repeating over and over again. I was not angry even thought that is how I was approached in both times "are you still mad" Being mad was the least thing to cross my mind. This friend in PT can testify to the fact that I have a third for knoweldge so big that is more about learning than being mad.
In Both case I have to thank them for the contribution to my life and helping model the person that I am now and would be in the future by being my lesson. Since we live in the dimesnion where all is relative to soemthing else. I can only say that I might have been their lesson too. And I better respect the fact that they my have fail to learn it with me and keep on engaging on same behaviour, reason why you end up in Noth Caroline a few days back. I would be a hypocrate if I do not practice acceptance. By it is clear that being just me, intense, complex, loud, egocentry and so many more I have been told in the past is not accpetable reason why we should acknowledge that we come into each other life for a reason now we should probably depart since keep trying goes against our own nature.
I am glad the way you and I said good bye. You said thanks which now I know is beacuse you got the message. And me telling you to get read to go skiing with me this summer in Chile. So be ready for that trip 2nd week of July to 3rd week of Aug. I will teach you how to ski. You will see that in now time we will be raising each other down hill just like I dod with my ski buddies. So be ready for a week of skiing and anything else you want to do in Chile.
Love you both - Buddy for the anoucing that a miracle was coming and you for its deliverances.
I am home again - below is the link to my first production on this year which is the signal that I am coming back. I recomend you dowload it to PC instead of running it from site.
http://200612.analyticsdoneright.com/index_files/Lost_in_Space.pps
I give you everything else.
The Universe
And there's no need to dally, Romulo... your chariot awaits. Chariots, actually, your assistant here insisted you'd want one for every day of the week... Assistants, actually.
Buddy, I still rememeber what you wrote yesterday and how I have been feeling about my whole reality since I am back home. I told you them that I still believe in miracle. This one for one is the most important daily miracle that keeps recurring every day. To be able to have a direct and clear communication with you.
Now, the miracle that materialize last night when I called him back after he call me to say good bye is one that has major precedent in my life at this moment.
I know some who you were able to understan my message. By saying thank you at the end and me answering the way I did, speachless. It is a proof that you were able to make things out of the crazy things I say most of the time and for which people has been very open to express their dislike of me being that way. Most of them have expressed in ways of how much they dislike that in me that have accused me of doing it to hurt or anoying fellow human beings.
I was clear and frmed in PT when I told a dear friend that the last thing in my mind is to cause pain or disconfort on otheres. I even used my skli buddies as an example on how they are able to accept me after a week of having me 24x7. I can recall that time when they could not say good bye to me in Houston on this last time when Milton kept calling me to check on me. I am glad that dear friend has seemed the whole issue from this point of view and now he is a major player in helping grow in all aspect of my life.
But talking to you last night brought back memories of events that you did not or were not clear to you since you were so young. I sort of felt bad that you might have noticed a little resentment when I wastelling you that for the little love he was willing to give me I sacrify myself to the pointof putting my life in danger and he showin not sign of concern on his part. probably is that though that a father should lovehis son uncondictional and the song do as well toward the father. But in reality, I can see things more clear now since we talked. I acknowledge why I was not able to fullfill my part in my last trip to Venezuela.
He is my fathe for a reason. Like I told you those event in my life very crucial and impirtnat in molding the person that I am now. I was honest when I told you that I look back with nostalgy. They were hard years but I look at all I have beacsue of them and the things I experienced that make me keep them close to my heart.
But in reality I shouold not have and I do npt have for that matter resement to him since he is my father because that was the only way I could experienced those years. I might sound with resement at times but it is for me lacking acceptance that I was probably his lesson and that he did not assimilated at this time since I see the same things I wet through reapeating with you and him. But not accepting that fact in him does not justify me having any resement.
You see he was my lesson then and I strted this jurney where I find myself. Neverthless, so far in this jurney, I have been guilty of not beong able to pratice what I laerned back them. I still begging for the little love that some how I force an individual to give me by me showering him or her with praises and at times sacrifying myself. All beacsue clearly I want to be accepted at all cost. This put a lot of presure on the other party since they found themselve kind of obligated to accept me because of my behaviour when is clear that they dislike some of my behaviour when I am being me. This build resement of course and at some point they exploit like in this case of this 2 comments that I have in my blog which are not public because I respect they were written to me and not to you. But in i you can tell that for some time this person was not happy having around and thought at times to stop talking to me.
It is funny. I remember now that I said good bye in both occasion with the same prhase and thought "I need to go home to work in putting my life back together and look within me to see what is that I am doing that I keep having the same experience repeating over and over again. I was not angry even thought that is how I was approached in both times "are you still mad" Being mad was the least thing to cross my mind. This friend in PT can testify to the fact that I have a third for knoweldge so big that is more about learning than being mad.
In Both case I have to thank them for the contribution to my life and helping model the person that I am now and would be in the future by being my lesson. Since we live in the dimesnion where all is relative to soemthing else. I can only say that I might have been their lesson too. And I better respect the fact that they my have fail to learn it with me and keep on engaging on same behaviour, reason why you end up in Noth Caroline a few days back. I would be a hypocrate if I do not practice acceptance. By it is clear that being just me, intense, complex, loud, egocentry and so many more I have been told in the past is not accpetable reason why we should acknowledge that we come into each other life for a reason now we should probably depart since keep trying goes against our own nature.
I am glad the way you and I said good bye. You said thanks which now I know is beacuse you got the message. And me telling you to get read to go skiing with me this summer in Chile. So be ready for that trip 2nd week of July to 3rd week of Aug. I will teach you how to ski. You will see that in now time we will be raising each other down hill just like I dod with my ski buddies. So be ready for a week of skiing and anything else you want to do in Chile.
Love you both - Buddy for the anoucing that a miracle was coming and you for its deliverances.
I am home again - below is the link to my first production on this year which is the signal that I am coming back. I recomend you dowload it to PC instead of running it from site.
http://200612.analyticsdoneright.com/index_files/Lost_in_Space.pps
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
The Universe - Jan 24, 2007
You really don't have to try so hard, Romulo. That's why there's magic and miracles. Remember? Tallyho, The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® You do expect them, Romulo, right? Everyday, all the time, indoors and out?
You bet buddy, I believe in magic and miracles happening every day. This dialog that you and I have been having for a while is proof of it. I will follow your advice and not to try to hard. I just felt like out of place in my own town and like things were not moving.
Thanks for your advice and being there for me - Also thanks Rick for crossing path with me and giving me my Milton. I knew I could not go a whole year without seem my ski buddies, reason why I cross the country to meet them in Aspen.
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® You do expect them, Romulo, right? Everyday, all the time, indoors and out?
You bet buddy, I believe in magic and miracles happening every day. This dialog that you and I have been having for a while is proof of it. I will follow your advice and not to try to hard. I just felt like out of place in my own town and like things were not moving.
Thanks for your advice and being there for me - Also thanks Rick for crossing path with me and giving me my Milton. I knew I could not go a whole year without seem my ski buddies, reason why I cross the country to meet them in Aspen.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Thye Universe - Jan 23, 2007
OK, can you keep a secret, Romulo? Let me tell you what happens... There'll be trumpets, fanfare, and parades. Happy tears, giggles, and hugs. Shrieks of joy, fits of laughter, and reunions with best friends. There will be quiet, reflection, and revelations. Ah-ha's! No-way's! And, of course, You-have-to-be-kidding's!Eventually followed by a deep, often surprising, longing for what will by then be viewed as the dream-life you led. You could plot it on a chart. The point, Romulo, of course, is that you are now living that dream-life.
The Universe
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Happily, Romulo, the longing is typically followed by more reunions, Cheetos, and whatever else your heart desires.
Buddy, some how I feel like I am in a stay of inertia. I recognize that is al my doing but I do not think I have made any progress in the first weeks of this year. Home does not feel like home, yet. My friends even feel the same way, like I have not been here.
A thought has come a few time in which I think that this might be the end of it for me. Just like that beautiful soul did in Mexico City more than 3 years ago.
I came back from last trip with practically not strength on my left hand. Could it be than I am having some sort of neural problem for loossing the strength on this particular side of my body? Maybe which I think it might be the reason, it is the stroing antibiotics I am taking? Planning to see Dr today about it.
But whatever it is that might be coming my way, you know I will always look at the positive side. Just make thing to move because thi stay of not moving it is not me what so ever
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Happily, Romulo, the longing is typically followed by more reunions, Cheetos, and whatever else your heart desires.
Buddy, some how I feel like I am in a stay of inertia. I recognize that is al my doing but I do not think I have made any progress in the first weeks of this year. Home does not feel like home, yet. My friends even feel the same way, like I have not been here.
A thought has come a few time in which I think that this might be the end of it for me. Just like that beautiful soul did in Mexico City more than 3 years ago.
I came back from last trip with practically not strength on my left hand. Could it be than I am having some sort of neural problem for loossing the strength on this particular side of my body? Maybe which I think it might be the reason, it is the stroing antibiotics I am taking? Planning to see Dr today about it.
But whatever it is that might be coming my way, you know I will always look at the positive side. Just make thing to move because thi stay of not moving it is not me what so ever
Monday, January 22, 2007
The Universe - Jan 22, 2007
Would you believe, Romulo, that there is nothing about your life today, not even what hurts, that you won't eventually appreciate, with happy tears running down your face?
Nothing.
Chokes me up just thinking about it - The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Romulo, your life is so rich right now.
Buddy, I can relate to what you are saying. Even in the worst time in my life, I have learned to appreciate those moment since I am living in a world where time and space is relative. Without them, I could not know or appreciate the happy moments.
I am just gladd to be home where is warm. I am a little sad to learn that a good friend died last Friday and that ayoung guy about my age who I met superficially died over the weekend. Both of a heart attack. I looked at death differently when I learned of the death of my dear friend Marc. But it was the presents of realness in my life and the love that he gave me uncondictionally that I missed. I know we will meet again. But I could not help to be sad for my dear friend Milton for his lost and this other guy who was practically my age.
I am not afraid of death. It is the surprise of the news and feeling sad for my dear friend who is always trying to make all of us happy when we ski together.
Yes I know my life is rich and that is what all the other where telling Milton about his friend. That he always try to gave him a rich life so he could not feel like he missed living one of the fullest life I known.
Thanks buddy - it is good to be home.
Nothing.
Chokes me up just thinking about it - The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Romulo, your life is so rich right now.
Buddy, I can relate to what you are saying. Even in the worst time in my life, I have learned to appreciate those moment since I am living in a world where time and space is relative. Without them, I could not know or appreciate the happy moments.
I am just gladd to be home where is warm. I am a little sad to learn that a good friend died last Friday and that ayoung guy about my age who I met superficially died over the weekend. Both of a heart attack. I looked at death differently when I learned of the death of my dear friend Marc. But it was the presents of realness in my life and the love that he gave me uncondictionally that I missed. I know we will meet again. But I could not help to be sad for my dear friend Milton for his lost and this other guy who was practically my age.
I am not afraid of death. It is the surprise of the news and feeling sad for my dear friend who is always trying to make all of us happy when we ski together.
Yes I know my life is rich and that is what all the other where telling Milton about his friend. That he always try to gave him a rich life so he could not feel like he missed living one of the fullest life I known.
Thanks buddy - it is good to be home.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
The Universe - Jan 18, 2007
Do you know what most people wish for, Romulo, when it comes to improving their own life?
More stuff. Especially abundance.Because they think having more stuff will contribute to their overall happiness.
But do you know what most people wish for when it comes to the lives of the ones they most love and cherish?Happiness, peace, creative work, fulfilling relationships.
Because they understand that once these things are in order, stuff, especially abundance, will automatically take care of itself.
One of these two things doesn't belong with the other... The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Oh, Romulo, you should see your face right now. Absolutely precious.
Buddy, I have never had this explain this way. You are absolutly right. But why the inconsistent when it comes to wishing for ourselves and the the ones we loved. I guess it is because we do not get it yet, like you said in your message.
Your message today no only has lots of wisdom but the power to lift any one's spirit. I hope people will get the same thing I am getting from it. Thanks buddy.
More stuff. Especially abundance.Because they think having more stuff will contribute to their overall happiness.
But do you know what most people wish for when it comes to the lives of the ones they most love and cherish?Happiness, peace, creative work, fulfilling relationships.
Because they understand that once these things are in order, stuff, especially abundance, will automatically take care of itself.
One of these two things doesn't belong with the other... The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Oh, Romulo, you should see your face right now. Absolutely precious.
Buddy, I have never had this explain this way. You are absolutly right. But why the inconsistent when it comes to wishing for ourselves and the the ones we loved. I guess it is because we do not get it yet, like you said in your message.
Your message today no only has lots of wisdom but the power to lift any one's spirit. I hope people will get the same thing I am getting from it. Thanks buddy.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Wicked Jan 16th 2007
Ok buddy, try to explain this to me. I could come here and try to be the other one who for more than a year thought about the role many time. But I did learn my lesson, I stood up and promise myself not to beg for the little bit of love at such high price I would have to pay for it. So I cross the country because when I talked to my Milton that night, I could not go another year not seem this incredible group of people.
Now this person came out of the blue and started hitting on me. I guess it was pride that made me agree to meet with this person. They were all going nuts for the look. I guess that was a bad start and reason why I end up going through what I went through.
I had a incredible time. Dinner and conversation were estimulating and enjoyable. But I could not possible call this person later tonight like I was asked. It is not the fact of playing the other one and when I made the commet with Denver. We were in agreement that at least in the case honesty and being true to oneself and others was at least observe. But being the other one when the one is young Mexican boy who is actually live on the building next to me, he is probably in this country looking for a better life and does not have his paper and he is working as waiter in SOBE and learning English.
He wants to come a visit this other person in L.A. but does not have the fund yet to afford the trip. I remember that night that my babe took me to Twilo for the first time because of my birthday. He approached me so happy to letting me know that he was my new neighbor. Now days he just say hello when we run into each other which made me ask this person if in any ways he learned of the physical atraction that encourage planning on meeting me tonight and not tell me all this until it was too late.
I see this kids and see some one innocent who want to have an illution. In my case, I might be looking for entratainment or some to conduct an estimulating conversation over dinner. It is not fair for me to measure myself up with this boy. Nor I would allow my ego to get on the way.
This other person not only can recall the last time I was being observed smoking in the balcony of my place in SOBE that weekend in which I was not only sick, but with a client that was using the possiblity of a law suite to force me to keep on flying to the Bay Area and on top of all run into my brother the next morning in MIA as I was going through security. He started to talk to me like 3 years since he last decided not to talk to me again did not remind me all that time that my family was the first one to teach me to beg for the little love someone might be willing to give me.
Then again buddy - this is me talking to you and asking you to help me keep the path that I have decided to travel since I first started to have fe in our relationship.
The Universe - Jan 16th 2007
Anger, Romulo, is a fabulous reminder that there are still a few things being misunderstood.
In all cases.
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Same for impatience, despair, broken hearts, and wearing high-waters, Romulo.
Good that you are bringing this topic buddy. I can tell you that I have been in situation in which anyone else would have shown sign of anger. I remember that in one situation I was asked if I was still angry. I remember my answers as it was yesterday. I said that I have a lot of things in my mind. That I needed to go back home and work on me. I was not angry. I was hurt but most important I was admiting my responsibility. It takes two to tango. Relationships is how we relate to onether. We do no live in the world of absolute like you do. We live in the world of the relative. Time and space is in relationship with something we can relate to. So if someone had a problem with me, it would be naive even hypocrite to think that I have nothing to do with it.
So I look at the whole thing like a lesson I need to learn. Because in the relative world of time and space, I am responsible for my half of any relationship. I do not get angry. I get quiet. Maybe because I am hurt. But the main reason is because I am analyzing and going over the events so I can learn my lesson.
I know there is not the perfect relationship out there. But I do not get in relationship to abuse or make people angry with me or wanted to fight with me. I want my crossing through someone life to be a positive experience. the last thing in my mind is to cause pain or disconfort to any one.
This is me trying to help myslef and help someone who is actually crying infront of me. Thanks buddy.
In all cases.
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Same for impatience, despair, broken hearts, and wearing high-waters, Romulo.
Good that you are bringing this topic buddy. I can tell you that I have been in situation in which anyone else would have shown sign of anger. I remember that in one situation I was asked if I was still angry. I remember my answers as it was yesterday. I said that I have a lot of things in my mind. That I needed to go back home and work on me. I was not angry. I was hurt but most important I was admiting my responsibility. It takes two to tango. Relationships is how we relate to onether. We do no live in the world of absolute like you do. We live in the world of the relative. Time and space is in relationship with something we can relate to. So if someone had a problem with me, it would be naive even hypocrite to think that I have nothing to do with it.
So I look at the whole thing like a lesson I need to learn. Because in the relative world of time and space, I am responsible for my half of any relationship. I do not get angry. I get quiet. Maybe because I am hurt. But the main reason is because I am analyzing and going over the events so I can learn my lesson.
I know there is not the perfect relationship out there. But I do not get in relationship to abuse or make people angry with me or wanted to fight with me. I want my crossing through someone life to be a positive experience. the last thing in my mind is to cause pain or disconfort to any one.
This is me trying to help myslef and help someone who is actually crying infront of me. Thanks buddy.
Monday, January 15, 2007
The Zohar - Jan 15th 2007
Look in the Mirror
The Zohar says the best years of Jacob's life were those spent living in exile in Egypt for 17 years.
The name of Egypt in Hebrew is mitzrayim. It also means narrow or problem. The Zohar is teaching us that Jacob was most alive when he was facing his problems and his garbage head on.
Our tendency is to want to get rid of problems, to solve them on the spot. But as Jacob is teaching us, our garbage is also our blessing. Pain and struggle lead us to seek more, to give more, and to reveal more. In fact, this is how most people take their first step onto the spiritual path.
The Zohar is not saying wallow in depression and feel sorry for yourself. That comes when we don't face our problems. But it is teaching us that when we confront our deepest fears and negative beliefs and behaviors, we uncover the spark of Light hiding beneath the harsh exterior of the circumstance. Kabbalists refer to it as revealing the concealed.
The longer we look at ourselves in the mirror, the faster our ugliness becomes beautiful.
It reminds me of a story my mother (and teacher) Karen Berg tells. It is of a man sitting in a field enjoying the sun when suddenly he is bitten on the hand by a lizard. As his hand starts to throb with pain, he walks to a nearby river and sticks his hand in to soak it. While sitting there, he notices a man drowning. He dives in, grabs hold of the man, and pulls him to shore.
"Thank you. You saved my life!" the man exclaims. "You should thank the lizard that bit my hand," the bitten man replied.
Many times chaos/challenges occur, and we should see them as opportunities to express the Light. So when we help others and they thank us, we can think, "Don't thank me. Thank the Light that I was allowed to reveal."
A problem is only a problem because we think it is. It's all how we look at it. This week we can see the blessing our pain is presenting us. We only need the courage to look.
All the best,
Yehuda
Buddy, I can relate to this. I remember going to bed right after we all hug and wish each other a happy New Year, that I was thinking why do things like this happens to me. I was not feeling sorry for myself but I was thinking in the last year and how I dragged people that I love into my drama. I took a resolution not to allow drama like this come again into my life. But I read this message from you and I remember this dear friend who left me a message on Friday in which he told me that it was not the best week of his life last week,
I remember leaving a message in his cell phone trying to encourage him to keep going and to look at every thing that come his way as a blessing. I know it is pretentious of me to compare his problems to mine. But what do we gain by feeling misarable instead of take responsibility for our life and feel more inpowered to change things around in our life.
Buddy, this is me thanking you for the good and the bad. I guess there is a lot of people out there not willing to keep going with me since I bring more misery than happiness. Love has always been a driving force for me. I apoligized to every one that I brought more misery than pleasure. It was not my intetions. It was love what I always wanted to give. Then again, I have noticed a problem with perception when it comes to me and me interactive with others. I promised to work on this and other of my short comings. Then again, I always tell people that I am a work in progress. Feed back is welcome, I do accept even the one that is given with resement and anger. Because it takes 2 to tango and the sooner I take my reponsibility the faster I will able to change things around or improove for the better.
The Zohar says the best years of Jacob's life were those spent living in exile in Egypt for 17 years.
The name of Egypt in Hebrew is mitzrayim. It also means narrow or problem. The Zohar is teaching us that Jacob was most alive when he was facing his problems and his garbage head on.
Our tendency is to want to get rid of problems, to solve them on the spot. But as Jacob is teaching us, our garbage is also our blessing. Pain and struggle lead us to seek more, to give more, and to reveal more. In fact, this is how most people take their first step onto the spiritual path.
The Zohar is not saying wallow in depression and feel sorry for yourself. That comes when we don't face our problems. But it is teaching us that when we confront our deepest fears and negative beliefs and behaviors, we uncover the spark of Light hiding beneath the harsh exterior of the circumstance. Kabbalists refer to it as revealing the concealed.
The longer we look at ourselves in the mirror, the faster our ugliness becomes beautiful.
It reminds me of a story my mother (and teacher) Karen Berg tells. It is of a man sitting in a field enjoying the sun when suddenly he is bitten on the hand by a lizard. As his hand starts to throb with pain, he walks to a nearby river and sticks his hand in to soak it. While sitting there, he notices a man drowning. He dives in, grabs hold of the man, and pulls him to shore.
"Thank you. You saved my life!" the man exclaims. "You should thank the lizard that bit my hand," the bitten man replied.
Many times chaos/challenges occur, and we should see them as opportunities to express the Light. So when we help others and they thank us, we can think, "Don't thank me. Thank the Light that I was allowed to reveal."
A problem is only a problem because we think it is. It's all how we look at it. This week we can see the blessing our pain is presenting us. We only need the courage to look.
All the best,
Yehuda
Buddy, I can relate to this. I remember going to bed right after we all hug and wish each other a happy New Year, that I was thinking why do things like this happens to me. I was not feeling sorry for myself but I was thinking in the last year and how I dragged people that I love into my drama. I took a resolution not to allow drama like this come again into my life. But I read this message from you and I remember this dear friend who left me a message on Friday in which he told me that it was not the best week of his life last week,
I remember leaving a message in his cell phone trying to encourage him to keep going and to look at every thing that come his way as a blessing. I know it is pretentious of me to compare his problems to mine. But what do we gain by feeling misarable instead of take responsibility for our life and feel more inpowered to change things around in our life.
Buddy, this is me thanking you for the good and the bad. I guess there is a lot of people out there not willing to keep going with me since I bring more misery than happiness. Love has always been a driving force for me. I apoligized to every one that I brought more misery than pleasure. It was not my intetions. It was love what I always wanted to give. Then again, I have noticed a problem with perception when it comes to me and me interactive with others. I promised to work on this and other of my short comings. Then again, I always tell people that I am a work in progress. Feed back is welcome, I do accept even the one that is given with resement and anger. Because it takes 2 to tango and the sooner I take my reponsibility the faster I will able to change things around or improove for the better.
Seven Deadly Sins
I have to admit - Your home State is beautiful and I have never seem so much money and fashion on diplay - Now I know why they call it the play ground of the rich and famous -I think the name it is appropiate for this event - They still asking me what are my reasons to be here - I have to admit that I went against Dr advice and only few know of it - I could not resits not to see them this year.
Only a few people can stand to be with me for long period of time and this group is one of them.
The Universe - Jan 15th, 2007
It's no accident, Romulo, that when you look closely into the eyes of another, the very first thing you see, is yourself.
That when you hold their hand, you can feel your own warmth.
And that when you give of yourself, you give to yourself.
Because, quite simply, both you, and they, are me.
Let's get it started, un-huh - The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Freaky, Romulo? Maybe. An accident? No.
Buddy, I remember the many times I have seem myself in someon's eyes. I can tell the the other way around has happened a few time.
Yes, I have also heard that we are all part of you. What I do not understand is why we are so different at times. I guess we are still learning from one another.
Thaks buddy
That when you hold their hand, you can feel your own warmth.
And that when you give of yourself, you give to yourself.
Because, quite simply, both you, and they, are me.
Let's get it started, un-huh - The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Freaky, Romulo? Maybe. An accident? No.
Buddy, I remember the many times I have seem myself in someon's eyes. I can tell the the other way around has happened a few time.
Yes, I have also heard that we are all part of you. What I do not understand is why we are so different at times. I guess we are still learning from one another.
Thaks buddy
Friday, January 12, 2007
Wicked Jan 12th 2007
To act as if you already know everything is to deny yourself
all the good things that are yet to be imagined and
discovered. Mystery gives life a depth and richness that you
would not want to be without.
It is true that I became a better counsultant when I was able to put in practice your message above from the motivational today. Actually, I was able to turn a negative situation in a positive opportunity when I discover that if I concentrate more in the lesson that was offered to me and th eopportunity for grow, the situation was more a welcome opportunity in my life.
I had a friend that once told me that he has never met someone so hungry for knowledge before metting me a few days ago. Knowledge is not a mean for control or gain a competitive advantage any more. Because I discover what is the worth of a good ideas if you are not able to share it and put it to good use.
I remember who this other friend and I used to dicuss strategies and ideas from work and our field of work. I went to her for every major challenge that Iwas going to face for her advice. Now I wonder what happen that we do not do that any more or when I offer a piece of information I find resitances . If I was able to see the value of your message and try to put it in practice in all aspects of my life. Why someone that I have in the highest of places gets so defensive when I suggets and idea like using the safe remove feature of Windows to remove external storage.
all the good things that are yet to be imagined and
discovered. Mystery gives life a depth and richness that you
would not want to be without.
It is true that I became a better counsultant when I was able to put in practice your message above from the motivational today. Actually, I was able to turn a negative situation in a positive opportunity when I discover that if I concentrate more in the lesson that was offered to me and th eopportunity for grow, the situation was more a welcome opportunity in my life.
I had a friend that once told me that he has never met someone so hungry for knowledge before metting me a few days ago. Knowledge is not a mean for control or gain a competitive advantage any more. Because I discover what is the worth of a good ideas if you are not able to share it and put it to good use.
I remember who this other friend and I used to dicuss strategies and ideas from work and our field of work. I went to her for every major challenge that Iwas going to face for her advice. Now I wonder what happen that we do not do that any more or when I offer a piece of information I find resitances . If I was able to see the value of your message and try to put it in practice in all aspects of my life. Why someone that I have in the highest of places gets so defensive when I suggets and idea like using the safe remove feature of Windows to remove external storage.
The Universe - Jan 12th 2007
Whoa! You mean we forgot to tell you about your 7th Supernatural power, Romulo?
Easy. You know what everyone else is thinking.
You really do. The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Well, actually, Romulo, everyone else knows what you're thinking, too. But maybe no one's told them yet.
You know buddy, I believe in what you are saying in this message. My comment that some how I had the feeling that she was going to come and look for me was taken like I I was acting out of malice. But all along was like I knew she was going to look for me here. Just like she felt the need to learn more how I was feeling. Even on the way to the airport, she asked me if I was mad. But being mad was far from what I was feeling then. Just like now, being mad is the last thing I could feel at this moment.
I hope she understand why I have to stay here for a while. I want to learn and I want to grow from the experience. It would do them some good if they finally get a chance to be more self center since I was a project that was putting to much expectations and presure on them. Now more than ever I acknowledge the damage I caused.
Easy. You know what everyone else is thinking.
You really do. The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Well, actually, Romulo, everyone else knows what you're thinking, too. But maybe no one's told them yet.
You know buddy, I believe in what you are saying in this message. My comment that some how I had the feeling that she was going to come and look for me was taken like I I was acting out of malice. But all along was like I knew she was going to look for me here. Just like she felt the need to learn more how I was feeling. Even on the way to the airport, she asked me if I was mad. But being mad was far from what I was feeling then. Just like now, being mad is the last thing I could feel at this moment.
I hope she understand why I have to stay here for a while. I want to learn and I want to grow from the experience. It would do them some good if they finally get a chance to be more self center since I was a project that was putting to much expectations and presure on them. Now more than ever I acknowledge the damage I caused.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
The Universe - Jan 11, 2007
Do you know what people who amass wealth, friends, and laughter have in common with those who don't?
Very often, Romulo, both look around at their lives and say, "Yeah, this is who I am. It must have been meant to be."
Must be a trick of the light.
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Rarely, Romulo, do they notice that their thoughts preceded their condition, because nothing is meant to be.
Buddy, I have to confense that reading your message leave me kind of the same place. In so many situation that I have been, when I look around and said this is who I am, I get a response of not being accepted some how.
It seems that I always come short whe is time to give a positive perseption of my presences. I always tell people that I learn more about myself through the yes of people who interact with me. I have been told that I am good taking critizim or feed back. Of course I will always take it like that specially if it is comming from a friend. Friends only want good things for you. This is how I always try to carry things from my end.
I rather stay here for a while. I am taking responsibility of the perception problem as well as to learn the lesson once and for all. I came home accepting responsibility but with many doubts in term of behaviour on the other side. I still have a few but at least now I acknowledge that it causes more harm to put so much expectations and so high up friends. I still remember the words of that good friend when he told me he did not want any of his friends to see him like a God. That he wanted a friend to be his eaqual. The way he communicated the message was so clear as well as the analogy used. It was very easy to accept it.
I can only said that right now I see that as the final sign that the lesson must be learned this time around. I hope you can and visit me here. Like I said here is where I talk to my buddy and do self analysis on events and situation that I go through which I always see them as a learning experience.
Outside from here I can not meet you just yet. Because I feel like the message I tried to communicate that night when I said for someone to seem me as a vain person only in stead of as a contradiction that I am, that person has known me only at superficial level and felt to look at signs that are so clear and easy to spot. That goes as well for that international project. I grew so much as person and spiritual being from that experience that just to think that the only thing I went through was the aftermath of that assigment is in significant compare to many things that contributed to such an amazing learning experience and I owned all to you.
As I was never angry, not even in the last 2 weeks. I am looking for my lesson and learning what I did wrong. I am observing and reading. I keep things to reading them in the near future because I know I will find things I miss the first time around because of emotions. Why feel hurt when you see the lesson another human being is learning and the contribution to his life this leasson is making. The situation turns to a positive experience.
Remember it helps more the other person if one does not hold anything back. So like I tell all the people I keep close to my heart: do not be a affraid to express how you are feeling or how you see yourself in relation to me. Because I use all this to learn and grow; therefore, I will always look at things from a positive angle.
I have in the side a video and some audio file. I have been falling sleep with the audio file just like I did the second time I was told I had what I have now. I have been selfcenter because I want to grow from this. I have to keep going to people to unload my drama. Beleive it or not, there was a time in my life in which I dependent only on myself to do that. I grew so much then.
So please do not take bad that I want to be selfcenter. This is a lesson that keeps coming to me because I do not finish learning it. If you want to know how I am doing, come and visit here. and write your thoughts. Because one thing I can asure you, you will be listen to. This is where I talk to him. This is a good place to be for now.
Very often, Romulo, both look around at their lives and say, "Yeah, this is who I am. It must have been meant to be."
Must be a trick of the light.
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Rarely, Romulo, do they notice that their thoughts preceded their condition, because nothing is meant to be.
Buddy, I have to confense that reading your message leave me kind of the same place. In so many situation that I have been, when I look around and said this is who I am, I get a response of not being accepted some how.
It seems that I always come short whe is time to give a positive perseption of my presences. I always tell people that I learn more about myself through the yes of people who interact with me. I have been told that I am good taking critizim or feed back. Of course I will always take it like that specially if it is comming from a friend. Friends only want good things for you. This is how I always try to carry things from my end.
I rather stay here for a while. I am taking responsibility of the perception problem as well as to learn the lesson once and for all. I came home accepting responsibility but with many doubts in term of behaviour on the other side. I still have a few but at least now I acknowledge that it causes more harm to put so much expectations and so high up friends. I still remember the words of that good friend when he told me he did not want any of his friends to see him like a God. That he wanted a friend to be his eaqual. The way he communicated the message was so clear as well as the analogy used. It was very easy to accept it.
I can only said that right now I see that as the final sign that the lesson must be learned this time around. I hope you can and visit me here. Like I said here is where I talk to my buddy and do self analysis on events and situation that I go through which I always see them as a learning experience.
Outside from here I can not meet you just yet. Because I feel like the message I tried to communicate that night when I said for someone to seem me as a vain person only in stead of as a contradiction that I am, that person has known me only at superficial level and felt to look at signs that are so clear and easy to spot. That goes as well for that international project. I grew so much as person and spiritual being from that experience that just to think that the only thing I went through was the aftermath of that assigment is in significant compare to many things that contributed to such an amazing learning experience and I owned all to you.
As I was never angry, not even in the last 2 weeks. I am looking for my lesson and learning what I did wrong. I am observing and reading. I keep things to reading them in the near future because I know I will find things I miss the first time around because of emotions. Why feel hurt when you see the lesson another human being is learning and the contribution to his life this leasson is making. The situation turns to a positive experience.
Remember it helps more the other person if one does not hold anything back. So like I tell all the people I keep close to my heart: do not be a affraid to express how you are feeling or how you see yourself in relation to me. Because I use all this to learn and grow; therefore, I will always look at things from a positive angle.
I have in the side a video and some audio file. I have been falling sleep with the audio file just like I did the second time I was told I had what I have now. I have been selfcenter because I want to grow from this. I have to keep going to people to unload my drama. Beleive it or not, there was a time in my life in which I dependent only on myself to do that. I grew so much then.
So please do not take bad that I want to be selfcenter. This is a lesson that keeps coming to me because I do not finish learning it. If you want to know how I am doing, come and visit here. and write your thoughts. Because one thing I can asure you, you will be listen to. This is where I talk to him. This is a good place to be for now.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
The Universe - Jan 10, 2007
THE DAILY MOTIVATOR
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Learn to love
+++++++++++++++++++
Learn to love the challenges, and you will grow stronger.
Learn to love putting forth effort, and you'll find yourself
becoming more capable and effective.
Learn to love making a positive contribution, and your life
will grow richer. Learn to love being around people who are
different than you, and you'll gain many valuable new
perspectives.
Learn to love discovering what you do not know, and your
knowledge will greatly expand. Learn to love truly
listening, and your wisdom will increase.
Learn to love giving, and your life will be blessed. Learn
to love being thankful, and you'll know real abundance.
Learn to love the ordinary moments, and you'll find each day
filled with warm golden treasures. Learn to love simply
being, and you'll rise to a whole new level of awareness.
Learn to love something about each day, and your days will
bring rich fulfillment. Learn to love, and you'll know how
to live.
Ralph Marston
Buddy, I think your message through the motivational is more powerful than the one from your email.
I do agree with what you said in your email. But the things you wrote about in motivational are things that I started implementing a few years back and I can honestly say that my life has turn for the better since I started this jurney.
I call it jurney because I also agree with th quote for today:
'The world of knowledge takes a crazy turn When teachers themselves are taught to learn.'
Bertolt Brecht - Doq895:10
It would be fullish of me to pretend that I have master all the good points that you mention in motivationa. Believe me, my friend who met me here a few days back would have a strong opinion with the one regarding listing. I wish she meets me here again. I beleive I have done a great deal of damage to her by putting her in a pedastal and force her to become first my father, my sister, my brother and my Mon. No wonder she has so much resement. The expectations are too much and her good spirit to always be there for a friend in need has contribute for me to abuse a beautiful relationship that a sherist so much.
I will not answer you last email. Because I can see clearly all the damage has done to you in it. I know you love me. I also know that you know I love you and sherist your present in my life as well as the people you have brought into it which have became my people. But it is not fair that I take from you, your chance to enjoy your life with the wonderful human being that you have chosen to be your partner and let you worry so much about me. Any one can tell you that if I put you high up there is because I consider you one of the smarest person I have ever met in my life who I started to come for advice and through the time force her to be my whole family.
If someone I have listened to in the last 10 years, that person would be you. Meet me her for a while. Read my thoughts and what I think the Universe is telling me. But do not try to make any sense of it from my point of view. But think what he or she is telling in stead that might applied to you. My two guys has both sent me email as soon as they were able to connect to check on me. See now I have 2 brothers who I would try as much as possible not to become a cross for them to bare. So please easy on the load that I have put in your shoulders and be more self center than to worry more for this cross. You are a beautiful soul and you should put yourself first and your happiness. I know your love is there which has kept me going through all this years. My love has grown stronger reason why I want you to meet me here for a while.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Learn to love
+++++++++++++++++++
Learn to love the challenges, and you will grow stronger.
Learn to love putting forth effort, and you'll find yourself
becoming more capable and effective.
Learn to love making a positive contribution, and your life
will grow richer. Learn to love being around people who are
different than you, and you'll gain many valuable new
perspectives.
Learn to love discovering what you do not know, and your
knowledge will greatly expand. Learn to love truly
listening, and your wisdom will increase.
Learn to love giving, and your life will be blessed. Learn
to love being thankful, and you'll know real abundance.
Learn to love the ordinary moments, and you'll find each day
filled with warm golden treasures. Learn to love simply
being, and you'll rise to a whole new level of awareness.
Learn to love something about each day, and your days will
bring rich fulfillment. Learn to love, and you'll know how
to live.
Ralph Marston
Buddy, I think your message through the motivational is more powerful than the one from your email.
I do agree with what you said in your email. But the things you wrote about in motivational are things that I started implementing a few years back and I can honestly say that my life has turn for the better since I started this jurney.
I call it jurney because I also agree with th quote for today:
'The world of knowledge takes a crazy turn When teachers themselves are taught to learn.'
Bertolt Brecht - Doq895:10
It would be fullish of me to pretend that I have master all the good points that you mention in motivationa. Believe me, my friend who met me here a few days back would have a strong opinion with the one regarding listing. I wish she meets me here again. I beleive I have done a great deal of damage to her by putting her in a pedastal and force her to become first my father, my sister, my brother and my Mon. No wonder she has so much resement. The expectations are too much and her good spirit to always be there for a friend in need has contribute for me to abuse a beautiful relationship that a sherist so much.
I will not answer you last email. Because I can see clearly all the damage has done to you in it. I know you love me. I also know that you know I love you and sherist your present in my life as well as the people you have brought into it which have became my people. But it is not fair that I take from you, your chance to enjoy your life with the wonderful human being that you have chosen to be your partner and let you worry so much about me. Any one can tell you that if I put you high up there is because I consider you one of the smarest person I have ever met in my life who I started to come for advice and through the time force her to be my whole family.
If someone I have listened to in the last 10 years, that person would be you. Meet me her for a while. Read my thoughts and what I think the Universe is telling me. But do not try to make any sense of it from my point of view. But think what he or she is telling in stead that might applied to you. My two guys has both sent me email as soon as they were able to connect to check on me. See now I have 2 brothers who I would try as much as possible not to become a cross for them to bare. So please easy on the load that I have put in your shoulders and be more self center than to worry more for this cross. You are a beautiful soul and you should put yourself first and your happiness. I know your love is there which has kept me going through all this years. My love has grown stronger reason why I want you to meet me here for a while.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
The Universe - Jan 9th 2007
Every life is heroic, Romulo.
And yours has certainly been no exception.
With deep gratitude from the bleachers - The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
And just wait, Romulo, until you partners that will work with meas partners!
Some how I had the feeling you will come here. I have my doubts since you never come here but this time I was certain that you will follow me here. I am glad you are here. Here is where I talk to him. Here is were I do my self examination and write how I feel about things. I used to do it via email until it was clear up to me that people should not have to endure what goes through my head those lonely nights I am by myself in some hotel room some where in this country. I do not blame any one for it. It is what I love doing and being myself sometimes from Sunday night to Thursday night is a by product of doing what I love doing for a living. Therefore, I do not blame any one. But lost of thoughts come to my mind. I then I put them down in here so I can talk to my buddy, The Universe, God, My Soul.
Yes Boston feels like a second home. I remember when I first worked there back in 2000. I remember I was going through my break up. Boston was just any other city where I travel to work. Then Malcolm shown me how beautiful the city is. Then my friendship with somone since the beginning challenged me but at the same time feed my never ending quest for knowledge invited me to visit and I get to me his wonderful friends, among them Rich, and had the most wonderful time together. Now every chance I get I go to that city. People might say I go mainly for Rich but I go also for Eddie as well as to enjoy such beautiful city that always seems to be wlecoming with open arms whenever I go there.
I remember a few months ago, I wanted to share that with you two and my invitation was taken the wrong way. I was told them that I got that first reaction because I put down one of you by saying you work in sales. I remember the first time that happens there was not way I could make you see that I was not try nor was my intetion to put down any one. I remember then saying that I love you to much to do such things. Eventhought, none would listen to me so then when I wanted to invite the two person I love so much to show the beautiful city that has become a second home I was taken the wrong way.
Mexico still home for me. I know my way aroun that city better than in Miami. Funny how I became to know that city better than any Chilango. It was when I took that assigment in that city. There is not point in me showing you why I did and how i did not meet your expectations since the night you needed me the most I fail you. I was falling sleep every where since getting used to the altitute and lack of oxigine took time. But I remember talking to my guy who skis so well and always welcome me with open arms. I told him how proud I was of my girlfriend. But to be honest, I gained more from that experience that you gain from my presents there. The city became my city. It was the first act on my part that was done base of love without any concerns that since my last international assignment in Australia, I promise myself never to venture outside the borders of my country. I also saw there one morning how the power of God works. I do not know understand why people say is a mystery since it was so clear the path he/she wanted me to follow.
I glad I got you here. because It was with what you wrote here that I saw what my wrong doing of putting you up there was doing to you. Now I can see why litlle by little as I was loosing one memeber of my real family I was putting on you more expectations by calling you my family. Until it came the time that you were the only one I came to every time I needed advice or someone to listen to me and my drama. When I said that I was your cross that you were baring, I was not joking. I was putting you up there even higher with each year that passes. I guess propostionaly the resement for me putting such expectations on you was building. That would be the only explanation for that first reaction to my invitation to Boston. I do not look down on any one that works on sales or maketing since those are the skills I am lacking for my business to be successful. I admire and recognize always intelect and great ideas. I became a better consultant when I acknowledge I do not know every thing nor I feel embarrase to say so.
I have to admit. That I push so much to be part of your family that I became the family member that every family wants to hide or feels not that proud of it. It is like they say in Spanish, after the third day of a house guess visiting; it smells worst that old fish. I was smelling like that since day one I got there. At the beginning I took comments and remarks like we were joking among ourselve. Then they started to bother me which means a bad feeling was traveling with them. Then when you first got so defensive because I was telling you to use the safe remove feature to answer to me the way you answered. Follow by what you said, about the appliance which I know you are one of the most inteligent woman I know do you realy think it was me who broke it. You two had a lot of resement built up. I am just glad that despit feeling so bad for all that was happening. I never hurt back or was misrespectful to you in your own home. I just needed to be left alone.
I was not jocking about the lesson. Beleive me, I have been in that situation so many time with friends and family. Therefore, it is a lesson that I have ot learned despit that I have been there so many time. But this time is different, this time involve you for who I care too much so this is it. This is the last time the Universe is asking me to learn not to put such expectations on people and treat them like Gods. I can go on and explain to you the roots of this but I have said it so many time that now it is hard for people to believe. But I tell you one thing, I got your email this morning following the one send by the blog with your comment. Early last night, my little borther sent me an email letter me know that he is dying to talk to me and that he is with his father, la barragana and her 2 sons some where in some mountain near Atlanta. My little borther hates to be in the same place with la barragana and her 2 song. I guess because they talk in a sarcastic way about him and always putting him down. They used to do the same thing with me. Antonio Rios listens to all the coments but does not do anything other than in a passive aggrresive way force you to be in that space if you want to share time with him. Come to think of it that was one of the main reason of my big fight with him 10 years ago. I suggested then for him to find a space where only him and Miguel Antonio can meet. He went crazy, insult me and told me that whoever wants to be with him has to meet him where he always would be (with his barragana) That he is old and he has not much left so I should respect his wishes and let him live his last years in peace. This is from a man who always lived his life the way he wanted without any concerns who he was taking within. He is well aware that Miguel Antonio does not enjoy to be in that space with him. I told him that is not love or any consideration from him. What do you think? My little brother still when because he wants to spend time with his father, he knows he does not have that many years left.
I glad you met me here.
And yours has certainly been no exception.
With deep gratitude from the bleachers - The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
And just wait, Romulo, until you partners that will work with meas partners!
Some how I had the feeling you will come here. I have my doubts since you never come here but this time I was certain that you will follow me here. I am glad you are here. Here is where I talk to him. Here is were I do my self examination and write how I feel about things. I used to do it via email until it was clear up to me that people should not have to endure what goes through my head those lonely nights I am by myself in some hotel room some where in this country. I do not blame any one for it. It is what I love doing and being myself sometimes from Sunday night to Thursday night is a by product of doing what I love doing for a living. Therefore, I do not blame any one. But lost of thoughts come to my mind. I then I put them down in here so I can talk to my buddy, The Universe, God, My Soul.
Yes Boston feels like a second home. I remember when I first worked there back in 2000. I remember I was going through my break up. Boston was just any other city where I travel to work. Then Malcolm shown me how beautiful the city is. Then my friendship with somone since the beginning challenged me but at the same time feed my never ending quest for knowledge invited me to visit and I get to me his wonderful friends, among them Rich, and had the most wonderful time together. Now every chance I get I go to that city. People might say I go mainly for Rich but I go also for Eddie as well as to enjoy such beautiful city that always seems to be wlecoming with open arms whenever I go there.
I remember a few months ago, I wanted to share that with you two and my invitation was taken the wrong way. I was told them that I got that first reaction because I put down one of you by saying you work in sales. I remember the first time that happens there was not way I could make you see that I was not try nor was my intetion to put down any one. I remember then saying that I love you to much to do such things. Eventhought, none would listen to me so then when I wanted to invite the two person I love so much to show the beautiful city that has become a second home I was taken the wrong way.
Mexico still home for me. I know my way aroun that city better than in Miami. Funny how I became to know that city better than any Chilango. It was when I took that assigment in that city. There is not point in me showing you why I did and how i did not meet your expectations since the night you needed me the most I fail you. I was falling sleep every where since getting used to the altitute and lack of oxigine took time. But I remember talking to my guy who skis so well and always welcome me with open arms. I told him how proud I was of my girlfriend. But to be honest, I gained more from that experience that you gain from my presents there. The city became my city. It was the first act on my part that was done base of love without any concerns that since my last international assignment in Australia, I promise myself never to venture outside the borders of my country. I also saw there one morning how the power of God works. I do not know understand why people say is a mystery since it was so clear the path he/she wanted me to follow.
I glad I got you here. because It was with what you wrote here that I saw what my wrong doing of putting you up there was doing to you. Now I can see why litlle by little as I was loosing one memeber of my real family I was putting on you more expectations by calling you my family. Until it came the time that you were the only one I came to every time I needed advice or someone to listen to me and my drama. When I said that I was your cross that you were baring, I was not joking. I was putting you up there even higher with each year that passes. I guess propostionaly the resement for me putting such expectations on you was building. That would be the only explanation for that first reaction to my invitation to Boston. I do not look down on any one that works on sales or maketing since those are the skills I am lacking for my business to be successful. I admire and recognize always intelect and great ideas. I became a better consultant when I acknowledge I do not know every thing nor I feel embarrase to say so.
I have to admit. That I push so much to be part of your family that I became the family member that every family wants to hide or feels not that proud of it. It is like they say in Spanish, after the third day of a house guess visiting; it smells worst that old fish. I was smelling like that since day one I got there. At the beginning I took comments and remarks like we were joking among ourselve. Then they started to bother me which means a bad feeling was traveling with them. Then when you first got so defensive because I was telling you to use the safe remove feature to answer to me the way you answered. Follow by what you said, about the appliance which I know you are one of the most inteligent woman I know do you realy think it was me who broke it. You two had a lot of resement built up. I am just glad that despit feeling so bad for all that was happening. I never hurt back or was misrespectful to you in your own home. I just needed to be left alone.
I was not jocking about the lesson. Beleive me, I have been in that situation so many time with friends and family. Therefore, it is a lesson that I have ot learned despit that I have been there so many time. But this time is different, this time involve you for who I care too much so this is it. This is the last time the Universe is asking me to learn not to put such expectations on people and treat them like Gods. I can go on and explain to you the roots of this but I have said it so many time that now it is hard for people to believe. But I tell you one thing, I got your email this morning following the one send by the blog with your comment. Early last night, my little borther sent me an email letter me know that he is dying to talk to me and that he is with his father, la barragana and her 2 sons some where in some mountain near Atlanta. My little borther hates to be in the same place with la barragana and her 2 song. I guess because they talk in a sarcastic way about him and always putting him down. They used to do the same thing with me. Antonio Rios listens to all the coments but does not do anything other than in a passive aggrresive way force you to be in that space if you want to share time with him. Come to think of it that was one of the main reason of my big fight with him 10 years ago. I suggested then for him to find a space where only him and Miguel Antonio can meet. He went crazy, insult me and told me that whoever wants to be with him has to meet him where he always would be (with his barragana) That he is old and he has not much left so I should respect his wishes and let him live his last years in peace. This is from a man who always lived his life the way he wanted without any concerns who he was taking within. He is well aware that Miguel Antonio does not enjoy to be in that space with him. I told him that is not love or any consideration from him. What do you think? My little brother still when because he wants to spend time with his father, he knows he does not have that many years left.
I glad you met me here.
Monday, January 08, 2007
The Universe - Jan 8th 2007
This is just your friendly, annual reminder, Romulo, that things can change so very, very fast.
Passport up to date? Shot card? Bank deposit slips in your possession at all times?
You're gonna love 2007- The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
And who is going to watch your business, Romulo, when you have to fly to the Oscars?
Buddy, I can not help myself and smile when I read usch a nice message. I do believe 2007 would be a great year. So many things happened in 2006 and the cruel reminder that there is a lesson I have not yet learned which I have to learn at all cost this time around.
But thanks for this message, I still feel lost in my home town and the desire to stay longger in Boston. But I need to start working in my own stuff. First thing in the agenda is to visit Dr. I think I will not spend the next few days in a hospital but have to take more antibiotics. I thank for that.
Passport up to date? Shot card? Bank deposit slips in your possession at all times?
You're gonna love 2007- The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
And who is going to watch your business, Romulo, when you have to fly to the Oscars?
Buddy, I can not help myself and smile when I read usch a nice message. I do believe 2007 would be a great year. So many things happened in 2006 and the cruel reminder that there is a lesson I have not yet learned which I have to learn at all cost this time around.
But thanks for this message, I still feel lost in my home town and the desire to stay longger in Boston. But I need to start working in my own stuff. First thing in the agenda is to visit Dr. I think I will not spend the next few days in a hospital but have to take more antibiotics. I thank for that.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Wicked Jan 6th 2007 - The Extra Mile
"The Extra Mile"
One of our teachers related a story to me recently about a student of hers who is using all the tools of Kabbalah but is still experiencing major chaos.
This student is facing the reality that her company is downsizing in the coming months and she might lose her job. Her question to the teacher was, basically, "What gives?"
It's a really good question, and one I know all Kabbalah students face at some point in their journey. Especially in the month of Capricorn. It's a time when we start to doubt that what we are doing is working. Basically, it's a time when the you-know-what really starts to stink.
And my answer is: breathe it in.
The tests are coming now because the Light wants us to work harder at finding it. The more we sweat and squirm, the greater the revelation will be.
Keep using the tools and getting comfortable in the uncomfortable zone. You never know how close you are to penetrating the darkness and tapping into the Light. And as experience shows us, the day we give up is usually the day the answers are ready to reveal themselves.
I know this isn't easy when you're receiving bad news from the doctor or overwhelmed with other difficult issues in your life. But this is all part of the game we signed up for in the endless world.
The strategy to this game is to accept the junk, really accept it and even be grateful for it. The faster you do, the quicker you'll reach the Lighter side.
This week, take stock of where your life is at right now. Know that the difficulties are there for a beneficial reason. Remember that the only mile that counts is the extra mile. Oh, and about that student who's stuck between a rock and a hard place: I told her that in her darkest moment, if she can find a way to give, and to give big, she can expect her life to change in unimaginable ways.
I look forward to hearing about her miracles, and yours as well.
All the best,
Yehuda
Funny, how I get this message from my friend in a time in which I feel defeated and lost in my own home town.
I came back from Europe defeated. This dear friend in Boston picked me up in airport and stayed with me all nigght keeping me company in my hotel room. That was an act of pure love which is a major characteristic of him.
Then feeling hungry and with the desire to see the city that feels like a second home to me, I went out of my room the next day. It was just a short visit to the financial center of Boston. But I stopped in a place to buy something for this other person that I have not words to describe our relationship. I can only say that each time we are together I feel like none has made me feel before. Even one touch and I can feel this sesantion all over my buddy. It is amazing how just with one touch I can feel such sensation all over my buddy. But I bought this present without any expectation of getting together on this visit to Boston.
To my surprise, the door bell of my hotel room rang at 3:00 AM. When I open the door I heard the comment "I thought you would be awake, sorry for being so late" for which I paid not too much attention and started kissing this person with the passion that always overcome me when we are together. Just like the last time I was in town, we slept together after what I call an experience that keeps getting better and better each time we see each other.
It was hard to leave Boston this time. I think part is because I do not know when would be the next time I would come back again. I did not say this to this person but I felt uncofortable not sayinh anything about it. Now, I am back home and I am feeling just like this note from my friend. I have to admit that a major part of me feeling this way is what I think I am feeling for this person but I am not sure of my feelings any more. I am not sure about a lot of things any more. Europe was an eye opening experience that reminded me of a lesson I have not yet finished learning in my life. Funny how that call from my little borther while I was in Boston refirm me the roots of this problem in me. I hope my experience would help him realize that the same thing is happening to him. That some how we both need to put a end to this believe in which we were brought up that love is given always to us under condiction in which we always have to sacrify ourselves. That should end up with us and not let it continue any more.
It was hard to leave Boston. I still do not know how to define my relationship with this person who is the main reason for me to visit the city so often. I do not if I want to. I just know that when we are together I feel like none has ever made me feel before.
So this is to you buddy, I want the light to come to me and eliminate all the darkness where I feel I have lost myself since my return from Europe. I want home to feel like my home. I like to be with this person once again in the near future. I would try to endure this feeling of lost and go the extra mile if you deliver the light once again.
One of our teachers related a story to me recently about a student of hers who is using all the tools of Kabbalah but is still experiencing major chaos.
This student is facing the reality that her company is downsizing in the coming months and she might lose her job. Her question to the teacher was, basically, "What gives?"
It's a really good question, and one I know all Kabbalah students face at some point in their journey. Especially in the month of Capricorn. It's a time when we start to doubt that what we are doing is working. Basically, it's a time when the you-know-what really starts to stink.
And my answer is: breathe it in.
The tests are coming now because the Light wants us to work harder at finding it. The more we sweat and squirm, the greater the revelation will be.
Keep using the tools and getting comfortable in the uncomfortable zone. You never know how close you are to penetrating the darkness and tapping into the Light. And as experience shows us, the day we give up is usually the day the answers are ready to reveal themselves.
I know this isn't easy when you're receiving bad news from the doctor or overwhelmed with other difficult issues in your life. But this is all part of the game we signed up for in the endless world.
The strategy to this game is to accept the junk, really accept it and even be grateful for it. The faster you do, the quicker you'll reach the Lighter side.
This week, take stock of where your life is at right now. Know that the difficulties are there for a beneficial reason. Remember that the only mile that counts is the extra mile. Oh, and about that student who's stuck between a rock and a hard place: I told her that in her darkest moment, if she can find a way to give, and to give big, she can expect her life to change in unimaginable ways.
I look forward to hearing about her miracles, and yours as well.
All the best,
Yehuda
Funny, how I get this message from my friend in a time in which I feel defeated and lost in my own home town.
I came back from Europe defeated. This dear friend in Boston picked me up in airport and stayed with me all nigght keeping me company in my hotel room. That was an act of pure love which is a major characteristic of him.
Then feeling hungry and with the desire to see the city that feels like a second home to me, I went out of my room the next day. It was just a short visit to the financial center of Boston. But I stopped in a place to buy something for this other person that I have not words to describe our relationship. I can only say that each time we are together I feel like none has made me feel before. Even one touch and I can feel this sesantion all over my buddy. It is amazing how just with one touch I can feel such sensation all over my buddy. But I bought this present without any expectation of getting together on this visit to Boston.
To my surprise, the door bell of my hotel room rang at 3:00 AM. When I open the door I heard the comment "I thought you would be awake, sorry for being so late" for which I paid not too much attention and started kissing this person with the passion that always overcome me when we are together. Just like the last time I was in town, we slept together after what I call an experience that keeps getting better and better each time we see each other.
It was hard to leave Boston this time. I think part is because I do not know when would be the next time I would come back again. I did not say this to this person but I felt uncofortable not sayinh anything about it. Now, I am back home and I am feeling just like this note from my friend. I have to admit that a major part of me feeling this way is what I think I am feeling for this person but I am not sure of my feelings any more. I am not sure about a lot of things any more. Europe was an eye opening experience that reminded me of a lesson I have not yet finished learning in my life. Funny how that call from my little borther while I was in Boston refirm me the roots of this problem in me. I hope my experience would help him realize that the same thing is happening to him. That some how we both need to put a end to this believe in which we were brought up that love is given always to us under condiction in which we always have to sacrify ourselves. That should end up with us and not let it continue any more.
It was hard to leave Boston. I still do not know how to define my relationship with this person who is the main reason for me to visit the city so often. I do not if I want to. I just know that when we are together I feel like none has ever made me feel before.
So this is to you buddy, I want the light to come to me and eliminate all the darkness where I feel I have lost myself since my return from Europe. I want home to feel like my home. I like to be with this person once again in the near future. I would try to endure this feeling of lost and go the extra mile if you deliver the light once again.
Friday, January 05, 2007
The Universe - Jan 5th, 2007
The more you trust folks, Romulo, the less they let you down.
Sounds like an oxymoron, but it's true.
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Oh yeah, Romulo? Believe me, had you not been as trusting as you already are, there's no telling what some of those rascals would have been up to by now.
Believe me buddy when I tell you that I always conduct business as well as my personal relationship base on trust. It is difficult for me to go back and trust someone after finding proof that they are not to be trust any more. Nevertheless, that does not discourage me for not keep given my trust when I engage in a new relationship.
It was good to talked to my little brother last night. I was able to see things more clear. Too bad that I think he is letting his father to abuse him in a passive aggresive way. I see now much clearly that Being brought up thinking that love is conditional, it is the root of all the problems I have decided to fix this year.
Thanks buddy, I keep on trusting but hard to give my trust again when someone abuses me. To tell you the truth, I do not know how to deal with that situation. Some help from you is appreciated.
Sounds like an oxymoron, but it's true.
The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
Oh yeah, Romulo? Believe me, had you not been as trusting as you already are, there's no telling what some of those rascals would have been up to by now.
Believe me buddy when I tell you that I always conduct business as well as my personal relationship base on trust. It is difficult for me to go back and trust someone after finding proof that they are not to be trust any more. Nevertheless, that does not discourage me for not keep given my trust when I engage in a new relationship.
It was good to talked to my little brother last night. I was able to see things more clear. Too bad that I think he is letting his father to abuse him in a passive aggresive way. I see now much clearly that Being brought up thinking that love is conditional, it is the root of all the problems I have decided to fix this year.
Thanks buddy, I keep on trusting but hard to give my trust again when someone abuses me. To tell you the truth, I do not know how to deal with that situation. Some help from you is appreciated.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
The Universe - Jan 4th 2007
If a bird who could fly, only wished for flight as it sat on a limb, before long it would be unable to fly.
Fly, Romulo, fly!
The Universe
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It's THE SECRET every tycoon, champion and achiever has used to become the legends they are, whether or not they even knew they were using it.
The Book, the CDs, the DVD - The Secret
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Same goes for anyone wishing anything, Romulo, if all they do is wish.
Buddy, that is a great advie and good analogy. I will be back in SOBE tomorrow Friday. My resolutin this year is to make those changes I have in my mind to do with regard career and personal life. I will definetly define gravity buddy. If any one ask, just tell them that they can see me up in the sky. I am tired to be after the little love people are willing to give with such high prize for me to pay. I like your motivational as well. I will always try to fight negativiness with a positive attitude, reason why I kept quiet and respected I was not in my home.
Thanks buddy.
Fly, Romulo, fly!
The Universe
We now have the hardback book and audio CD's!
It's THE SECRET every tycoon, champion and achiever has used to become the legends they are, whether or not they even knew they were using it.
The Book, the CDs, the DVD - The Secret
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © http://rs6.net/tn.jsp?t=bdl5f8bab.0.xppao9n6.etmmrsn6.81883&ts=S0219&p=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.tut.com ®
Same goes for anyone wishing anything, Romulo, if all they do is wish.
Buddy, that is a great advie and good analogy. I will be back in SOBE tomorrow Friday. My resolutin this year is to make those changes I have in my mind to do with regard career and personal life. I will definetly define gravity buddy. If any one ask, just tell them that they can see me up in the sky. I am tired to be after the little love people are willing to give with such high prize for me to pay. I like your motivational as well. I will always try to fight negativiness with a positive attitude, reason why I kept quiet and respected I was not in my home.
Thanks buddy.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
The Universe - Jan 3, 2007
The litmus test that will reveal whether or not those in your company are truly enlightened, Romulo, is whether or not they treat everyone else as if they, too, were enlightened.
Best to assume they are, if you get my drift.
All bow, The Universe
Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ® © www.tut.com ®
I love being so smart, Romulo, don't you?
Buddy, I accept your remark about being smart. I think every one is. I also believe I became a better person and consultant the moment relaize that I do not know every thing.
Best to assume they are, if you get my drift.
All bow, The Universe
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I love being so smart, Romulo, don't you?
Buddy, I accept your remark about being smart. I think every one is. I also believe I became a better person and consultant the moment relaize that I do not know every thing.
Do I need to test if the people with whom I hang out are enlightened or not? My only answer to that is that I try to share every thing that comes my way with every one. All the material I find that is helping me to continue my jurney I share it with every one. I also share my interpretation with every one and aks for them. Nevertheless, I try to keep in mind that the way I see the world is different from the way everyone else sees it. Yes I can be guilty at time of trying to impose my value but then again I try to learn from the experience and try not to do it again.
Now I heard in on of the material that made it my way that is an act of love to tell the person who victimize us of what they have done. I do agree with that statement and I encourage everyone else to do it. I try at all time to take the feed back a friend is giving me. My reasons for it is that a friend wants good for you so in a way they are helping me be a better person.
Now my only quest is to make my crossing through someone's life path a positive experience. But your note comes on a day in which I feel like you are truely speaking to me. So here we go with what I have decided to do. I have decided not to engage in any conversation with regards to the events. I avoided it last night and this morning. Yes I still believe is an act of love to tell people exactly what they have done and how I feel. My only answer is that our target is so big that none is going to miss it. Yes some people would take longer to get there andother will do it faster. Now I am responsible being time for it. But I will not engaged in conversations that for the sake of helping someone would make things worst. The way I am thinking if I am to be blame for a storm that blew a piece of equipment up, I guess my feed back will not be heard. I rather work on me and learn my lesson once and for all so that this does not repeact again.
I am coming home with tha purpose. To work on this issue I have. I asked my Mother on an xmas eve morning that I can not be in the same space with her because in the best way piossible I have asked her to avoid making comments or act in any way that could make this friend that was staying over because he needed a place to stay to feel like I felt when once in my life I needed the same favor. You can remember at that time I felt like I needed to pay forward for finding someone who extended such kiness. I have to admit that I was treated most of the time like I was picked up from the streets and was clear that I was not to forget that even when I started paying my share of rent. But I have to admit that I am gratefull because at the very least I had a roof over my head. Yes a lot of people could not understand why I did what I did with my mother. Maybe because they have not gone through the experience like I did back in Houston. I could not let another human beaing go through the same thing.
But like I did back then that I learned my lesson about picking up every one who needed a place to stay because I needed to pay forward for that favor regardless of how I was treated. I need to learn that friend should not be put in a pedestal. A good friend a little over a year ago told me that he does not want a friend to do that to him. Yes I have been guilty of doing that over and over. I remember a year ago discussing that with friends and finding out that I do that in a way for people to accept me. Funny, I have told people who accuses me of come up vain that only someone who knows me superficially can do that. Because how can one explains me having to do such thing for people to accept me. If it was because I think I put people in a pedestal in order to be accepted. Like just being me is not good enough for that.
For the second time in my life I felt like Houston. I remember that friend in Houston I had him in a pedestal. I remember running into his sister last year in DC and how sweet she was with me and how I was glad to see her. She felt the same way I felt while she was living with her brother and one time told that in an way she felt guilty later and call me th efollowing day to apologize. All through the conversation I was putting her brother in a pedestal reason why she could not hold it any more and let every thing out. Now I have to learn my lesson so that it does not repeat again. That was what I mean when I was on my way to the airport today. That is why I said I need to go home and work on putting my life back together and made the changes necessarry so that I growth from this. I know they will on time learn their lesson to. Because our target is so big that we are not going to miss it. For me to do an act of love in this case will not do any good to them. If they still think I have the power to creat a thunderstorm which can casue an appliance that I have never used to die. Would they listen to how I felt I was treated?
Vuddy this is me answering you and acknowledge your message. I thank you for it and ask of you to help me grow from this experience and put behind me the need to fight for conditional love. You helped me back in Oct, I know you will come through again.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Jan 02, 2007 - The Universe
Of course, Romulo, you probably could have done something else entirely with your life, something easier or more common, and have been even more successful than you are today. But then, you wouldn't become as successful as you are about to be.
Remember, you wanted it all? The Universe
Or, Romulo, were you just referring to the Cadbury Fruit & Nut Bar we were sharing? Either way, you are so on the right track.
Buddy, it is true that I wanted it all. It is also true that my concept of being successful has changed from when I was was a young consultant in my early 30's traveling around the world. Now days, one can say I am successfull because I care more for making a positive event my crossing path with another soul than keeping a high balance in my bank account. I care more for the people I have in my life that I accept me the way I am and always willing to help me become I bettter person.
Before I stared my last trip of 2006, I made the decision of maybe going back to be a satffed consultant for some firm. I figure that it is not fair for so many good people that I have the fortune to have in my life through so many of my missfortunes or better yet lessons in this life time. This came to my mind when I realized that one of the things that brings value to what I do for a living is to share my knowledge but when clients are not appreciative of it and take the opportunity I am giving them. It is difficult to wake up on Monday Mornings to take a flight some where. Nevertheless, the way you are ending your message, gives me hope to keep on going. Remember, I want clients that wants to implement Analytics the right way and discover its wonders as a team of people sicking knowledge and good wills to share knowledge.
Remember, you wanted it all? The Universe
Or, Romulo, were you just referring to the Cadbury Fruit & Nut Bar we were sharing? Either way, you are so on the right track.
Buddy, it is true that I wanted it all. It is also true that my concept of being successful has changed from when I was was a young consultant in my early 30's traveling around the world. Now days, one can say I am successfull because I care more for making a positive event my crossing path with another soul than keeping a high balance in my bank account. I care more for the people I have in my life that I accept me the way I am and always willing to help me become I bettter person.
Before I stared my last trip of 2006, I made the decision of maybe going back to be a satffed consultant for some firm. I figure that it is not fair for so many good people that I have the fortune to have in my life through so many of my missfortunes or better yet lessons in this life time. This came to my mind when I realized that one of the things that brings value to what I do for a living is to share my knowledge but when clients are not appreciative of it and take the opportunity I am giving them. It is difficult to wake up on Monday Mornings to take a flight some where. Nevertheless, the way you are ending your message, gives me hope to keep on going. Remember, I want clients that wants to implement Analytics the right way and discover its wonders as a team of people sicking knowledge and good wills to share knowledge.
Monday, January 01, 2007
Jan 1, 2006 - The Universe
If you could read all the minds that I read, Romulo, hear all the prayers that I hear, and beat all the hearts that I beat, I wonder if you'd even believe how often you're thought of, talked about, and fallen in love with...
2007 is payback time.
Sorry, Romulo, can't tell you everything I heard, without getting into wicked trouble from the proofreaders.
Buddy, I have to admit that is not so easy for me to believe in what you are saying. Then again, I do not have your powers to see in every one's heart. I know 2007 will be payback time since last night as my people were celabrating the new years and I was in bed because I got sick again, I though of all the things I have endure lately. I was kind of down but not feeling like a victim.
Yes I have people who love me and I thankful to you for putting them in my path. I felt bad because of getting sick and sort of ruin their time. But then again this is a group of extraordinary souls that you have put in my path. Here is the picture of my people and thank you again.
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