Best to assume they are, if you get my drift.
All bow, The Universe
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I love being so smart, Romulo, don't you?
Buddy, I accept your remark about being smart. I think every one is. I also believe I became a better person and consultant the moment relaize that I do not know every thing.
Do I need to test if the people with whom I hang out are enlightened or not? My only answer to that is that I try to share every thing that comes my way with every one. All the material I find that is helping me to continue my jurney I share it with every one. I also share my interpretation with every one and aks for them. Nevertheless, I try to keep in mind that the way I see the world is different from the way everyone else sees it. Yes I can be guilty at time of trying to impose my value but then again I try to learn from the experience and try not to do it again.
Now I heard in on of the material that made it my way that is an act of love to tell the person who victimize us of what they have done. I do agree with that statement and I encourage everyone else to do it. I try at all time to take the feed back a friend is giving me. My reasons for it is that a friend wants good for you so in a way they are helping me be a better person.
Now my only quest is to make my crossing through someone's life path a positive experience. But your note comes on a day in which I feel like you are truely speaking to me. So here we go with what I have decided to do. I have decided not to engage in any conversation with regards to the events. I avoided it last night and this morning. Yes I still believe is an act of love to tell people exactly what they have done and how I feel. My only answer is that our target is so big that none is going to miss it. Yes some people would take longer to get there andother will do it faster. Now I am responsible being time for it. But I will not engaged in conversations that for the sake of helping someone would make things worst. The way I am thinking if I am to be blame for a storm that blew a piece of equipment up, I guess my feed back will not be heard. I rather work on me and learn my lesson once and for all so that this does not repeact again.
I am coming home with tha purpose. To work on this issue I have. I asked my Mother on an xmas eve morning that I can not be in the same space with her because in the best way piossible I have asked her to avoid making comments or act in any way that could make this friend that was staying over because he needed a place to stay to feel like I felt when once in my life I needed the same favor. You can remember at that time I felt like I needed to pay forward for finding someone who extended such kiness. I have to admit that I was treated most of the time like I was picked up from the streets and was clear that I was not to forget that even when I started paying my share of rent. But I have to admit that I am gratefull because at the very least I had a roof over my head. Yes a lot of people could not understand why I did what I did with my mother. Maybe because they have not gone through the experience like I did back in Houston. I could not let another human beaing go through the same thing.
But like I did back then that I learned my lesson about picking up every one who needed a place to stay because I needed to pay forward for that favor regardless of how I was treated. I need to learn that friend should not be put in a pedestal. A good friend a little over a year ago told me that he does not want a friend to do that to him. Yes I have been guilty of doing that over and over. I remember a year ago discussing that with friends and finding out that I do that in a way for people to accept me. Funny, I have told people who accuses me of come up vain that only someone who knows me superficially can do that. Because how can one explains me having to do such thing for people to accept me. If it was because I think I put people in a pedestal in order to be accepted. Like just being me is not good enough for that.
For the second time in my life I felt like Houston. I remember that friend in Houston I had him in a pedestal. I remember running into his sister last year in DC and how sweet she was with me and how I was glad to see her. She felt the same way I felt while she was living with her brother and one time told that in an way she felt guilty later and call me th efollowing day to apologize. All through the conversation I was putting her brother in a pedestal reason why she could not hold it any more and let every thing out. Now I have to learn my lesson so that it does not repeat again. That was what I mean when I was on my way to the airport today. That is why I said I need to go home and work on putting my life back together and made the changes necessarry so that I growth from this. I know they will on time learn their lesson to. Because our target is so big that we are not going to miss it. For me to do an act of love in this case will not do any good to them. If they still think I have the power to creat a thunderstorm which can casue an appliance that I have never used to die. Would they listen to how I felt I was treated?
Vuddy this is me answering you and acknowledge your message. I thank you for it and ask of you to help me grow from this experience and put behind me the need to fight for conditional love. You helped me back in Oct, I know you will come through again.
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