Kind of makes you want to go out more, huh, Romulo?

You are right buddy. I think I have been a estranger to the world outside. So after speaking with my good friend Emma, I have decided to keep plans to go to Europe a week from today. I just hope I can make the long jurney, London, Zurich and Barcelona in one try.

I will leave London open. Who know maybe by then I get back that adventure spirit I used to have and finnaly spend 2 day in a city thatI love and I have not visit since 1998.

So thanks for the note and thanks for the wonderful day in SOBE

Whatever you decide

Buddy, your message in your note sounded to business like, you are trying to get a message to me that I know. I can not help but being hard on myself for allowing things to get to me. Then again being hard on myself, is me working against myself. Therefore, I just going to acknowledge that I have been giving it my best and keep moving in the direction that I have chosen for myself.

Now, I can tell you that you were more effective with the motivational of today. I remember how in the past I was always looking for outside factors to determine my happyness. Now days I can be in hell but still being able to laugh and share good moments with my friends. A few minutes, the thought that I induced this on me came to my mind. Yes I accept responsibility because I could have avoided it. Yes thoughts of what happens last xmas and how happy I was with so little made me realize how much I had probably was the reason why I did not stop what is happening now. Just like last xmas, I am realizing how much I have. How important I have become to the people that I have made a differences in their life. I have also realize how others can still hurt even thought I am not in my best to defend myself nor in any conditions to roll up with the punshes they are giving me.

I am not going to question that nor I will judge what is good and what is evil. Happines to me is this, to have so little but still feel I have so much. I thank you for it.

Was that all right, Master?

Buddy, you called me master and some how all humans have a problem with such title. But if all I need to do is to accept this title to be able to feel like the master of my own destiny and feel that I have control as well as to take responsibility where I found myself at this moment, so be it. As your master I will work harder on keep positive thoughts and realease good energy out into the Universe, you are bound to give meall the good that I ask. So know I know. I am not justifying anything to anyone. My reality is proof on what I believe. Only those that are able to notice that are the one that seek my company and make place for me in their life. These are the same people that without me asking has been there were I need to talk or just out fustration needed the security of their presences in my life. So as a benevolent Master, I thank you for that.

Consider carefully and thoughtfully what you are willing to accept. For whatever it is, you will most certainly have

I hear you loud and clear. I knew I can count on you. Therefore, here I go. I will offer all the goods that I know I can bring them and ask in return all that made me the person that I have chosen to be and the path that I have decided to follow.

Thanks buddy.

Don't let the dazzling heights you aspire to, Romulo, scare you from getting started.

Buddy, Thanks for your words of encouragement. Last night while in the phone with my dear friend, he reminds me how important is not to dewl on what is happening or in the circustance in which I find myself.

Yes I am guilty for letting it get me to this level of fustration. Yes since I have gone independent almost everyone has taken advantage of me. That does not mean I will change my way and therefore, not to give my trust any more. But some how I found myself with not tolerance to how fleaky everyone has been. It is like when I lost my dear friend Mark all the chance for me to find people that real were gone with him. I have endure worst but each time someone is not being true or try to take advantage of me, reminds me of what I lost.

All I wanted was to do what I do best. They are always trying to force me to be a permanent employee. It is only in certain projects and certain role that a bring real value. I can not be used a technical hired hand to keep building on a design or idea that neither brings vakue nor is done following the highes standard whcih are the only means to be successful.

Friday, has been the worst of all days but some how you do show me how you balance yourself out. I grateful for the people you have put in my path. The love and caring that they have shown me is unvaluable. You always manage to do that and some how I am able to see that so at the end I look at the positive.

I thank you for all. I know that you will bring to me the permanent position where I bring more value. I am shooting for big blue. They have the chance to develop with me the finest Siebel Analytics practice if all they are saying in that ad is true.

I find difficult to keep going if my work is not bring value. Money does not get me out of bed any more. Doing what I love and sharing my knowledge so that at the end client can enjoy the benefits of an application that they can enhance on their own is what makes me hapy. My Mark is gone and my friend is right. Please let him have peace that I will try not to missing as I go through lies and false promises. Because at the end we will prevail like we have always being able to manage.

Grateful more than ever for all your gifts and expect you to let only good things in which I can do my best work to come my way.

Turn me ON, Romulo

Buddy, you asked me for and since we have this partnership in which I ask and you experience what it is to be this crazy latino at time. I will not going to let you down. I have 3 good pipelines. One is west coast, other one is Midwest and the other is the in the middle of the plains. The west coast went cheap on me but they acknowledge my value and went through a route that you know I can not refuse most of the time, the challenge. The midwest comes from out of no where a recruiter in Miami of all places. He accepted the rate and I could feel I can trust the guy. The other one, I got late at night from my fellow consultant from Michigan that is now working in LA. He is refering me to this recruiter. All client are well know and I know for a fact that they are in the same position Whirlpool was when they came to me.

The west coast seems like chanllenge since we have 2 consulting firm and a client that I do not think is taking ownership. Just the fact that there is that many people and they are coming to get me tells me that this people are lost. My friend that got me in Siebel worked at that client while I was working in Mexico. He said that I can call him today at 3:00 PM to find more about what kind of mess this people are building here when that project should have been completed at least a year ago.

You message is loud and clear. I was guilty in several ocasion on just focusing in what was not working in my life. I remember these nice ladys that work in the supermarket, how with their smile and kindness remind me to change my thoughts. I thanked them for it, they were very gratefull.

I know he most probably would read this note. I hope he sees the correlation of your message and what I wanted him to be aware with our little incident. If I go to the West Coast, the thought of runing into him when he goes to OC was through my mind at all time. We will be less than an hour drive from each other. I want you to be awared of it. Also if I go to the Midwest, I know you will be visiting one or both city in the near future. I saw your profile park there one night last week. Whatever happens, I stand behind my word of honoring you and respecting you. I will treat you and love you like the dear friend that you have become to me. I hope you can see me like that one day.

Buddy, this is for you, because you never left my side. I had moments of weakness but I am learning not to be too hard on myself. What worries me is that when this happens a year ago, I remember being so sure that nothing could harm me because what I have tried to send out there is good energy. This time even though I know that what I have been given out is good energy. Nevertheless, I had my doubts which I never did before. I think it is because back then I was ready at any time to sell my soul and go with Big Blue or someone similar in oder to survive. This time I knew that could not take that option. Because I know I would sabotage myself in the interview. I can not seem too be able to lie or at least keep all details to myself any more. I can not be that consultant, I was once.

Thanks for all your are giving me. Making the crossing of the Atlantic seems like a big chanllenge as well with new projects starting so soon. I guess what I would do is what I used to do in my young age. Go to Europe for the weekend to celabrate my dear friend birthday and comeback to work on Monday. I did then, I can do it now. I have more grey hair now than before but my friend deserve everything good that you through her way.

how the physical manifestations and experiences of one's life hinge so much on their day dreams.

Buddy, here I am burning the midnight oil. I could not stop working and researching Oracles website after a friend left my place last night. Then I saw your email and my mind when on a trip in which I review my past and examine my present. I have to tell you that you are using a vocabulary that is new to me. I had to look up the word hinge in order to make sense and verified that you were talking of what I thought you were talking to me.

I remember those dreams I had back in Houston when I was working in that Oil company and I first met Kevin. I wanted to show to my father and the world that I was worth of the little love I was given. I dreamed of being someone in demand who one day will got to work in Venezuela but under an American company; I dream of companies fighting over me and paying high prices for my services; I dreamed I was going to travel the world looking for the next mount Everets; I dreamed I was going to be considered in my field as a respectatble guro in my area of expertise. The most incredible thing is that i got to do all that. I remember one time on my way back from a get together at the house of the VP in charge of Asia-Pac on what was called North Sydney. We were crosing the Harbor bridge and Sydney could not be more beautiful that night. I got my head out of the car, almost my whole upper buddy and said out load to everyone "I am the king of the World"

I will not go into specific what I have made me change my dreams. i will just describe what I consider now days a good dream. I dream of being among people who love me and value my precense in their life, just like this past weekend in Mexico. I dream of working at a client, together client team and me uncovering the secrects of Siebel Analytics. At the same time, I want to see how the team is showing me how much are their learning from me as I will always tell them when how much I learn from them. I dream I could come to care for somebody. To give my love without any expectation in return. I am not going to lie to you. That last experience in Boston a month ago, left in my heart and mind the posibility that I could care deeply for this person. Sometimes, I get scare because the same thoughts I had back in Houston come into my mind in which I make a promise to thise person of showing the world and all its wonders. I did that before and I do not want to do that any more. I just want endless night like that night we spend together in which one kiss was all I needed to give it all I got.

Those are my dreams lately. My values have changed. I am happy with what I value now days. All those dreams has come already. I am hopping I keep having them over and over again. because nothing fills my heart with more joy like the warm welcome in Mexico and what some of my friends in the USA showed me before I left; or working in Whirlpool, when together we were uncovering the secrects of Analytics; finally that weekend in Boston; my friend was so loving and caring and then that final night for which I missed my flight. I want all that over and over.

Yes I have been dreaming of all this for some time. I want them with my whole heart.

Romulo, it's easier to fall in love when you're busy

Buddy, I guess none knows me better than you do. You words make a lot of sense to me.

I always tell people that I perform my best when I am in an environment that is very busy and demanding. It is like when I sky. I have more control and ski my best when I go as fast as I can. It is in my nature to push myself all the tima outside the confort zone.

Now I am taking your words in the context of everything I love and I have passion in life for. I have noticed that no everyone feels confortable having a person like me as a partner. I remember back in 2002 when I went to visit Emma in Barcelona, she was thinking the same way about herself. Then a year later she surprised me with the news of having met El Tio. I remember I was too protective of my dear friend at the beginning. But once she brought him over to Miami for me to meet him every one fell in love with the guy.

Each time I see El Tio, the more love I feel for him. It is hard not to love the guy. He is honest, loving and sweet. I told my friend Emma once that she got good taste in Cars as well as in men.

So with this in mind, I thank you for your words and I will keep my heart open to every opportunity that comes my way. It could be another challenge at work or maybe meeting a person that could feel confortable having a crazy latino around. In any ways, it is always nice to know that you are out there watching over me. Thanks

Assistance-Program designed to subtly prepare you for something even better.

I do agree with you buddy. I remember I used to tell the mother of my little brother that when things seem not to be going in one's life is because something really good is around the conner coming your way. I guess I figured then that is the way you balance yourselve out.

Thanks for the note.

to change absolutely everything, is think differently

Buddy, that I know. I would never change this weekend in Mexico for anything in life. I would never change the fact that I am a total different person that I was before. That I can not be that consultant that travel around the world, making that much money but not leaving anything behind for which he can feel free proud.

Yes, I like to have a client right now. Yes, I have been thinking that the kind of client that I would like to have again is another Wirlpool. That is what I have been thinking all along since I left Detroit. I could not continue in the Detroit project. It was like working in another consulting firm or Siebel for that matter. Therefore, I am honest to recruiters, staffing company and consulting firm when I tell them that if the client is not in the same frame of mind like Whirlpool was, there is little value I can bring to a project. The best case was CGI in Boston. I was honest to the guy. But he and his firm had in mind to staff 6 consultant in the project. No way, we needed half of that from client staf to be successful in first phase and show value. I remember him telling me that he think working with a company with that frame of mind, him and I were able to change things around and be successfull. I think I heard that before from the same firm in Canada. No wonder they asked Siebel not to send me back.

I know what it takes to be successful at this. I know that requires to follow a methodology and for client to take ownership of project. To have or perform less than what I just mentioned is asking for trouble and setting myself for failure.

I am throughing out there all the good energy. I recall the circustance in which I got Whirlpool. I keep telling myself that another Whirlpool will show up. I know there are more Whirlpools than these other kind of cases for which I want to stay away. I know I just need to find the way to get the middle man out of the way. Cleint in Boston wanted me and felt confortable with me as I did with them. It was the interest of CGI to staffed 8 consultants. Where do they get this idea that they need 8. What methodology are they following? I can recall all my sources and what I based my road map. Now where does CGI comes with that number and how or what start schemas to implement first?

I was not judging you if you ever read this. I try as carefull as I could to make a point. But like I told the my buddy "when the student is ready, the teacher will apear" I have not problem having a superficial relationship with you. I would not make the channel in which we met responsible for it. Because to me it seems what you want and I would not and have not right to change that. But in the future, I think is best if we stay away from comparing one's life with the otherone's. You were right in telling me that I am lucky. I feel and I am lucky. I just did not like the context of your statement and I was honest communicating that to you. But you turned it around and thought I was judging. So less stay way from the cause of my reaction and you thinking I judge you because I do not. I care less what you do. Honestly, I have not answer not I will answer your note because you missed completly the point and I am at the end of the rope. If you decide not to speak to me ever again. At least it would be refreshing since this time is you and not me the one that comes to such conclusion. This will tell me that I have learned my lesson. I can keep going from now on with my mind clear that I was indeferent to what someone thought or did to me. That I offer my love uncondictional and I found in return ideferences or taken the wrong way or what ever you want to call it but one thing I know it is not love in return but that is not the point because I gave mine no matter what.

I do want to change things. I want good energy coming to me. I want people who make contribution in my life as I make in theirs. I miss Mark. I want that kind of people to come my way again. I want another Whirlpool. I want to make valuable contributions to projects as well as people life. Guess what I want the same in return. I want the kind of frame like the one I had in which we could spend the whole night disucssing a subject not matter is the subject was me and a short coming that needed to fix. that is a contribution. Because it was on a Sunday afternoom more than 3 years ago, that I was given the key to open every door of the Universe and the only one present who thought I was being read by my friends is a person that I never thought he was at the same level of these friends. Never undesrtood why he was part of that group.

Buddy, you know this is me telling it like it is but still with my heart full of love. I know you know that.

The Daily Motivator - For the best

Buddy, you could not be more right. I missed my flight on Monday morning. Then AA for the first time in 10 years, could not load my luggage. I did not take personally any of them. Missing the flight and then AA not being able to load my luggage were my false. Some how I refuse to spend more time that is necessary in an airport. Funny how that was the why Emma used to be and I was the way she is now.

The flight felt longger too. I guess not being traveling for a while does that to me. This make me think of the TransAtlantic crossing. I would love for my dear friend Gaby to be able to come with me. But it would be in another occasion that I would have my two ladies for myself.

Wow, this was the first time that I see from the airplane the approaching to the Mexican Gulf Coast. I got the same feeling I used to get on my first years in Houston when we used to go for xmas to Venezuela. Then the city was as beautiful as that afrternoon 2 xmas ago when I came to spend xmas with what I consider now more than ever my family.

Thanks buddy, I needed to be among family - I needed the warm and security that they provide. Thanks for this from the bottom of my heart.

There will always be people, Romulo, who think you're a target, who wish you'd be satisfied, or who want you to control you.

Buddy, I guess you read my email in which I wrote comments for which Denver can feel that I am attcaking him. I also reply to one of his email in which I am telling him something that I heard which is when the student is ready the teacher will appear.

If I would have to go with the emotions that his comments and the way that at time he behave toward me, I have to be honest that they are not plesent. According to all I have been reading, listening and watching, this is a signal that the energy he is projecting is not good. I think this is the reason why I have try unsuccessfully to stay away. Because in reality, I do not want to attract that kind of energy. But some how I can not keep my distance. I call this my learning experience which I have given a lot of thoughts since I wrote those comments in the email about NYC. If I am able to focus on give all the positive to this matter regardless of the emotions that this person enduce on me with that kind of behaviour and comments, I can honestly say that I am walking in the path in which I want to take my life.

But at time it is hard for me not to believe that this person is abusing with this kind of behaviour. I have noticed as well that this most of the time happens when someone enters my life. That was one of the reason why I did not say any thing before about what happened in Boston. But I do remember a conversation in which I was told that nothing would make that person happy than to hear that I have found someone who I can care about it.

I still think that this person allow fear to drive his life. You closing thought said that a good sign that this person choose to be near. That is another statement that I have my doubts. Since I have been the one coming back and accept this person's terms for a friendship which limits contact through email only. If I am consider a friend, I would think as I friend he would allow all channel to be open. Therefore, minimize the miss understing that seems to get us in trouble. I said fear drive him because of that. Because he fears considering me a friend when he does not see me as such. I do not think I am being consider a friend that one can introduce to this person people in Texas.

But buddy, at the end I am keeping my word of given all my love uncondictional. I would be firm if I notice abuse and do what you would want me to do which is to inform of the abuse and this time keep my distance forever like I have done with my family and other people that were once part of my life. I acknowledge the fact that you are bring it the subject as a good sign and I hope this person believe ince and for all that you are talking to him. Maybe is Grandmon pushing for this and you keeping me comming back so I do learn my lesson.

Decide for yourself

The Universe is talking. So I recommend you listen carefull. Because he or she just reafirm me that I am going in the right direction in terms of my business and life overall. Since it is a well known fact, that I apply every idea a found worth trying in all aspect of my life.

Remember this is full of love and I stand by what I wrote to you "when the student is ready, the teacher would appear" Is up to you to take all the good that I am throughing out there with not condictions of expectation. I do not believe what you have sent my way is based out of love. I think is more out of fear. But then again that is my opinion and you do not have to accept it. Remember like any of my other thoughts this one is based out of love. Which is what I promised you when I said that I will always honor you and respect you.

I am to you buddy, thanks for being there and let me know that I am going in the right direction. Because I might not have a project and things might not look promising but it is all because of th quote and motivational which is something I learned to value in my life.

Wow - you were not kidding with your note yesterday

But I show you my appreciation and how grateful then as I am having those feelings right now. First the day started by enjoy the small simple things in life. I have only being in a Wal-Mart only once before, but going with my carioca friend and putting our MP3 ons was just incredible. Then I started to get all those calls about open positions. I could not handle cell, email and lan line all going on at the same time.

Then that wonderful news from my dear friend who has been reading all this time found out that I was going to his city and that I will pay my respect to la jefecita, that he asked me to ask for his unborn child and wife. I am asking now like I will ask when I am in front of her again on Sat. Please let her have the beauty of her Mon, the brains and soul of his father. As well as, I am anxious to recieve the pictures he would say he would send me and telling me that mother and child are doing great.

Then my carioca friend was moved by this that he thanked me for allowing him to be my friend when is I who is forever grateful.

As night fell, I drove to FLL to reconnect with a dear friend that I have not seemed in almost a year. I was hunger for the piece and positive energy that always come my way when I am in his presents. Then driving down wanted to stop at Carioca friend and give him a movie he lend me plus an incredible library I came accross that I want to share with him.

Now it is late and I am tired. But I was moved by emails from my Babe in SOBE. He had done such an incredible job in going over not one but two of my websites in order to help me improve them. I can tell that love had motivated this dear friend to go this far for me.

To be honest, I am not concerned about Emma and Denver. My dear Emma is being the Virgo that she is, that she is trying to make everything perfect for El Tio and my visit to Mexico. When she does not have to do a thing, because you know pretty well that what got me so positive and happy is my going there and being around her and the beautiful people she has brought into my life.

With Denver, I know he has a good heart. I know trying to learn about me by just reading my notes, specially with my accent, is not going to give him the clear picture of who I am. He has to let go of the fear because he knows pretty well that he is made out of love. I know he would get it and know he will know that I mean not harm. becasue through these years he has come to learn another reality through interacting with my craziness and made changes in his life that reflect so. Like they say in conversations with God, we are all going to the same place and the target is so big that does not matter if I take the East and he taske the west. I just ask for him to be kind and take my note with not harm like he learn to take the one in which I was attacking him. Because this one is not different than those other. It is as full of love like the other one.

Thanks for the day - wow

when you act as if your greatest dreams have already come true

Buddy, how I can not be gratefull. I am going to see my people in Mexico who are like family to me. Just driving this morning, I realized the incredible relationhsip that I has built over the years with my friends. Just the act to stay in a work on multimedia technology and spend the time together, or simple going to Walmart and do some crazy shopping together, or havimg breakfast in David's Cafe and just be with each other.

Just this morning I realize how much I have changed. The lady in the cash register was laughing and jocking with me. Just last week the people from the carshop and the insurance company seem to enjoying my company.

I am bless. Because just tonight, I was going back in memory lane with my friend Emilio and talk about Mark. How lost I was those days; how unworthy of anything I felt then; then he just came into my life and unconditional show me that he care. He made me feel worthy. He was a beautiful soul. I have not come to terms with his departure since I have not look for someone to replace him and that it was how Emilio and I started to talk about him. He was telling me about this Brazilian woman that is book until end of days but he could get her for me.

None can replace that love I felt. I still remember when he told me "Romulo, you are a real person, that show real feelings; I like that in you" Mark you were brave, loving and kind. I will always carry you in my heart.

Thanks buddy and take care of my boy for me ok ;-)

"Yes, you can still have it all, no matter what others in your life might think, say or do."

I used to the think that chasing a life that is always pushing me outside my confort zone and a meaningfull relationship with another human being was impossible. I used to think that we have to give up somethings in order to persuit what we value most in life. Despite the fact that I feel old to make the crossing of the Atlantics, I still enjoy skiing as fast as I can and feeling the rush of adrenaline through my body. Most people never gets the contractdiction that I might be at times but if that one person does, it would be wonderful.

So I will keep up on chasing the next mount Everets to conquer which is what fuel me with the knowledge that one day I would be able to share my whole being with another person. Then I would not think of myself as one that was meant to walk alone in life. So with this in mind, I am letting you know that I want to move forward on this. I would not mind going up there instead of coming to SOBE. I love visiting New England speacially in Fall.

P.S. Thanks for the beautiful morning in SOBE. Your friend w...

When you play your life out in the palm of my hand?

Interested thoughts you bring to me this morning. My answer to the first one is no, there is not such things as mistake at any time one's life. My believe is that we are all learning through experience which is the only way the soul gets to learn. It is always a new learning experience how can we say it is a mistake when we are learning? I know at time we can be frustrated and said such thing.

Now your closing statements are very interesting. I learned through friends a year ago the concept that we can have several soul mate. Spiritual beings like us, who live forever, has a pretty good chance of having multiple soul partner through multiple life experiences. It is the logical conclusion. But we think of partner, we must used the concept literally. Must people think it means the same thing as life partner or your significant other. In my case, I have indentified one that it is my closest friend. I know, she will come back from her fabulous vacation in Los Cabos and remember that she has a needed friend in Miami. I was just kidding on this.

Buddy, thanks for everything and thank you for this past weekend. It was totally different from the previous one. I was so lonely and lost then but now I know I have my people (Boston and SOBE) who keep bringing blessings into my life.

Next Saturday - God willing I will be in Mexico City

Buddy, makes senses for me to go to Mexico City. Nor only I am dying to see Emma, Gaby and Eltio but I can pay my respect like I did the last time I stayed in the same hotel. I know that each time I stay in Lomas Verdes with Emma, we hardly have time. In my last visit in march, i wanted to sist Emma Senior and have my favorite tacos and we did not have time for either.

But I love going to Mexico. It reminds me of a time when I used to have a family and country. Now my country is this one and my family is all over the world. But I got thank you and it is one of the main reason why I think I should go and pay my respect because what I experience today it was like the good old days. Friends getting together for dinner and chatting, no point in fixing miss thing computer. That is a mess. But you gave me the opportunity to offer my old laptop with not interest taken in both side but the desire to help one another. Just like that weekend I did not have power after the hurrican or like that New Years Eve. It is a good feeling. I remember walking toward the GYM feeling incredible because of it. So I will go and see my two ladys on Friday and on Saturday my jefecita. Thanks buddy

don't ever settle for less than what you really, really want

Buddy, I guess you are right. All my life I have settle for less thinking I am not deserving of much. I have settle for the little love people can offer me. I have settle for projects that were not the one I was after. That is all change. I could have taken any project by now but the true is that another Whirlpool has not shown and that is what I want. I could have been in a relationship and I tried unsuccessfully to get in to 2 that were not exactly the best for me.

It is time I recognize that I deserve better. It is time to acknowledge that I am as good as every one elese and better than most. Not more settling just for the fact to have a pay check or someone to count on when things get rough.

This is me buddy, taking a stand and asking what is rightful mine. I deserve to be in project where I can make a contribution, where I bring value to the client and in term bringing rewarding satisfaction to myself for making that contribution. I deserve a partner that sees in me the devine holly trinity and expect from me nothing but my unconditional love as I expect the same for that person.

a reflection of what lies within

Buddy, I am here because of all the experiences I have lived in my life. Some of then were very hard to go through, but some how I keep them close to my heart. Othere were plesant reminders of how wonderful this experience can be. If I have to live those years again, I would not have them any other way.

I am as good as every one else and better than most. I am happy to be here and being able to share with all this wonders. Thanks buddy.

The way forward

Buddy, I get the message - Thanks for picking up at moment like this when one can find difficult to practice what I preach - Good to always get a message refirming me that you always there watching over me and fullfilling all my desires. So lets make things interesting, lets get my brain to work in helping a client implement Analytics the right way - That always make me feel good because my primary purpose in every implementation is to bring value.

the illusions in your life - good, bad and ugly - thrive on attention

Buddy, I know what you are trying to say but at time is not simple to achieve it. For instance, I think I might be getting the cellutis again. My friend Emilio try to persuate me I was not while having breakfast with me. But yesterday, I could notice the redness and sourness in the area. This morning as I was getting up, I was telling myself that it was all an illusion which was getting stronger the day before because I was given too much attention.

To be honest, at this time I can not afford to get t his. I feel like too many bad things in a row are happening to me. Then I think about the things I have through before and tell myself I strong enough to go through anything that might come my way. Then I think of that important lesson in Arizona. The Universe always try to remain in harmony by keeping the balance on what we percieve as good or bad. Then I say to myself, a lot of good things might be just around the corner on their way to come to me then.

I do miss my friend Mark. It is hard to look for someone to replace him, not in my heart but in his duties around my apt. I feel at times someone can give me a hug and tell me things will be ok. Emma is a good friend that keeps my spirit high but I need to let her enjoy her time off in Mexico. I made a promise to go and visit the Virgin on that Sat when she departs for Spain and I stay by myself in Mexico. Most likely Gaby will be busy in th emorning so I can do like that last time I stay un the Marriott in that beautiful day in which I saw Mexico city so beautiful and I went to pay my respects and that promise I made a year before when I remember that I was working in the country for a month and I did not go once to see her. That was the time you show me the way you work. You always find the perfect solution for things. Therefores, I will not give too much thoughs of what might be happening and remember that morning when you show me you wonders in Mexico City.

Ok buddy is between you and me

Since Emmas is the one that sort listen to me talking about what is going on in my life because I will ot call what I do complaining. Now it is your time to hear me. I just got word from the body shop and to put a new top for my car is going to be 2,000 Dollars. Now my question is the following: This is the third time since I moved to SOBE that this has happened to me. I think you remember the first time what during xmas time back 1997.

I am not going to say that the one that did this is evil. I think he has not evolved enough and needs light to guide him. I hope me taking this third time this way does not disrupt that process for him. But my question is th efollowing, are you trying to tell me that I should quit on convertibels? are you trying to tell me that I should quit having a car after all I do not drive or need a car much plus all my claim has been either this or people hitting me and never leaving a note.

My answer is that I enjoy driving this car. Today when I was going over the cause way, I think I was doing 100 Miles per hour, I was not wearing a shirt and I could hear the wind and enginen making that noise of high speed. Then I could feel how this car stick to the road, giving absolute control over the whole experience.

I think I got my answer. Regardless of any thing, I will keep this car. This experience is too wonderfull to live without it. Thanks buddy, you did good ;-)

Whose day shall we make today

Ok buddy, I know that you and I are one. You are experiencing through me what it is to be Romulo, the human and most of the time not easy to take Romulo. I am you because I have the power to create, just like you made me in your image. So what day shall we make?

I said lets go for one in whihc you get to experience the little thing whihc I am starting to find ficinating in life and most of my life I over look them. I also say lets make it challenge and create things. I want to close deals that are in the pipeline so I can get back to where I really feel in my element, a high pace environment in which there is always a new challenge, a new problem to solve, a new opportunity to learn.

I believe, you and I would be happy with that kind of a day. You will get to experience every thing that makes Romulo this complex and sometime biggest contradiction to most people. I get to do what I love, to feel the rush and achieve fullfillment by applying my brains and exercising my buddy.

Thanks Buddy, you have made my day.

Wow, was that you, Romulo?!

Buddy, thanks for your note, I know it was not secret for you that this weekend I felt a little lost. I am saying lost becuase feeling down or depress is not in my vocabulary any longer. You know my reasons for feeling this way. I did all I could to bring myself back again and I can say I did. But at times I felt a needed a hug or hear my friend Emma's voice.

The good thing is that yes at time I called on you and thanked you like I am doing it now for every thing I have. I know that everything is there for me. Just liked I learned the true meaning of that quote from Barbara S. "A the time of commitment the Universe conspires to assist you"

Thanks again for everything, I will keep on going this way because it is like the quote from Wiston C. "I am a optimist because it seems to be the only choice we get..." No exactly his own words but you get my message. I know that my thoughts become things so I will always try to make them good one.

Once again thanks buddy - now I through out the the though for him to come and visit from Boston. He did not respond to the message but in my last one I told him not to feel responsible but I was honest how he made me feel therefore I want the chance to have that feeling again so he is welcome in SOBE. I am counting on him to take me on this one. At the end, would SOBE be a good choice for weekend retreact during the cold winter. Never mind that New England looks so beautiful when snows but it is SOBE and me after all. A little push from you is very welcome.

Your own magic

Some how I think you send this one just for me. Yes someone tried to break into my car and tore the top. Yes, I was told it was going to cost 2,000 Dollars to fix. But some how, I kept a good spirit while I was in the dealer working and eating at the same time. Then when I stop in the electronic store to return something that was not significant. This little baby was smiling at me. I guess El Tio will have his laptop, just like Emma proposed when she came in March. Good computer, 1GByte of Ram and Pentium M full loaded.

Buddy, I can not have it any other way. I have to have darknest in order to appreciate the light. One experience is in relation to another one. I have never had a problem with it. It gives me my references point to discover what feels good and what feel less good but at the end still good.

Now, if Emma would call. I do not want to interrup her vacation in Los Cabos. But today, I thought of her so many times. I hope I can make it to Mexico in 2 weeks. I want to eat Tacos Al Pastor and see Gaby as well. Emma would have enough of me for her real birthday. That is if she has not fixed me in with one of her new friends she just told me she met not to long ago. There we go ago. Blind dates set by Emma and El Tio. There are harmless at the end, any ways.

Does that ever happen to you?

You know buddy, it happens to me all the time. Sometimes, I forget that a condiction that I was told about back in 1986, when people were not supposed to live for more than 2 years back them, totally forget about it. That is just one case of me being in the same situation like you.

Now on a good note, two friends that I love deeply just thank me for the movie I gave them. I was not looking for gratification but in the way this two beautiful souls express their gratitute made me feel so good for sharing with them all the good things that comes my way. Their comments were so deep in gratitute which let me to believe together we will encourage each other to create our own Universe and be the beings that you had in mind for us to be from the beginning of times.

I know that the one I bought the book and movie thanked me that same night. But I have to hear it like I hear these two. I know he can create the Miracle that I would love for him to create by Oct. He just had to believe it deeply with all he got. Just like he had changed his life for good and now he is the best example of good citizen, he needs to use all that strength on this one. Because we all need him with us.

Thanks for these wonderful presents and for letting me be the channel to communicate this truth obout ourselves.

The Secret" - in American or European DVD formats!

Buddy, I have run into a few of those old soul in this experience. I have always admire that quality in them. I am not worring much now days. Nevertheless, I have my moments as you can see from last week. But at the end, you always come to the rescude and send me a message through whatever channel that seems will be ok.

I have distributed the movie to a few. I gave original to that friend in SOBE I told you about. At the beginning, I black mail him with the Music I got in P Town. But I really wanted him to watch. It did make me feel good to see. With regard to the rest, I just hope the do not wait until they hit rock botton to look for enlightment. I will make copy for my people in Mexico, NC and Spain. Well, you know me, I preach this so much that I give copy to almost every one I run into.

We have an obligation to share the good things in life. My friend who I still miss but little by little and learning to move on taught me that. In the good note, I was able to find someone to do the job. I know he would not be him but I got a good feeling when we chat on the phone as I told him that I conduct business thinking that we are all good therefore, I have not problem given them a trust account with a good balance. It is up to people to either make withdraws or deposit more.

Thanks for being there for me buddy.

I kind of see it like this...

Buddy, I could not agree with you more. I watched movie "The Secret" and I was moved by the testimony of the people in it.

I have distributed the movie among my clossest friends. I hope they take the opportunity to se once more that we are creators here and not victims of circustances like we used to think.

It is like I have told friends all along, you will only get to the surface when you hit rock botton. So I thank you for being there and always providing me with a word of encouragement. I am loving this experience that is Romulo.