Then they're going to ask, "Hey, Romulo, best buddy ol' pal, mind if I borrow your business?"

It's going to be bigger than you thought, you're going to be happier than you imagined, and your friends are all going to be like, "No-o-o-o way! That's so cool! How did you do it?"
Because, Romulo, all earthly manifestations appear larger in 'real' life than they do in one's mind. Way.
You are still visualizing . . . right?
The Universe

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Then they're going to ask, "Hey, Romulo, best buddy ol' pal, mind if I borrow your business?"


Buddy, yes I have viualized several times where I want my career to go. I know I will be very busy with this new partnership. But that would keep this brain of mind off trouble. Things have not been easy but that is why I have more love for what I have accomplished so far. I thank you and my closest friend for being there with me all this time. They have gone through all the things I have gone through. I could not ask for better people in my life. Thanks buddy.

Same for anything else you might fake

Sometimes, Romulo, the more joy you fake, the more joy you make.
Same for anything else you might fake.
Smiling upon you with infinite affection - The Universe

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I mean life changes you want to manifest, Romulo!

Buddy, this is where I gree with you that faking things is a good thing. Now I will try to fake that I feel 100 percent healthy today so I can make my trip back home. I had a hard time getting up this morning because of being under the weather. Client told me I do not ook good. I can feel fever warming up my budy and every part of my body hurts. So I will put this in practice to see if I can make th elong trip home and sleep on my own bed for once.

Thanks buddy - you have my infinite affection too.

Well, Romulo, as normal as anyone can be who possesses superpowers

Do you know what it sometimes means, Romulo, when you feel a bit bummed out and aren't sure why? When you catch yourself looking back over your shoulder and wondering? When you feel doubt, sense uncertainty, and experience fear? When you sometimes wonder what's taking so long?
It means you're normal.
Yeeeeeeee-haaaaaaaaaaaaaa! The Universe

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Well, Romulo, as normal as anyone can be who possesses superpowers, commands legions, and rearranges physical circumstances simply with thought.

Buddy, you know how to bring me up. So after all this time, I am normal. I thought the comments about me being intense and complex made me anusual to the majority of people out there. Well it is a good think that someone finds me perfect in Boston. Actually this person likes my complexity and welcome my intesity - Well travel person who do not seem to have a problem with me traveling so much. When it comes to intesity, well I think that person is equally responsible for how intense things get between us when we meet face to face. Talkig about intesity, I have never experiencce so much intense while being intimate with someone. I get the connection goes beyound the physical since we both agree that it was even better than the first time.

Kind of unde the weather now, I can feel the fever and my throat hurts. I just want to meke home and relax. See my people who seem to miss me and I miss then too. Glad that we agree on Boston before I leave for xmas skip trip in Spain and back again when I return from Spain. Now I just want to make it home buddy.

Some how after Boston last weekend, I can enter my home town this Friday like a Roman general, but the fact is that I feel like a God with all the powers you describe my thoughts have but at the same time the intesity of that encounter got me in touch with my mortality. Wow never before has it been this intense.

Think, think, and let go

Shiver me timbers, Romulo!!!
Holy Hannah! For just a moment there, I thought that time was real, that space was deep, and that manipulating circumstances and messing with the "hows" was the way to manifest life changes!!
Talk about insanity! . . . Chaos! . . . Doom!
Whatever you do, Romulo, on this spookiest day of the year and beyond, don't let it happen to you.
Think, think, and let go - The Universe
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Must have been the "apple" punch... Oh, hey, Romulo, nice costume!

Well buddy, I knwo that you can read my mind. Yes I had my moments in which I have let thins like that happen to me. I was just exchanging ideas on that same topic with Emma and Eddie. Some how I feel I learn my lesson. But I hate to say it in that way like I learned all the lesson with respect of this apsect of my life which is not true. I fell that the best way to experees the whole thing is as follows: I am closer today fo where I want to go or be than a year ago. How about that buddy. I can live with that definition and keep welcoming other opportunities to grow.

Hope Emma and Eddie would read this. Thanks for the custome, I am dress as a normal person today disgusing my complexity and intensity. Then again, I wear that custome all year long. That is why I call normal what people see om me as unnormal. It might be because a good number of people out there are what one would consider normal. Then again, I am as good as any one else and better than most. Tick or Trick buddy.

There will always be more reasons than you can even think of

Romulo, you will be happy to know that I have personally authorized the release of enough joy into the atmosphere of your shiny little planet for every man, woman and child, to last for eternity.
Yep. Did it just after it cooled from its molten mass phase.
Make hay - The Universe

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There will always be more reasons than you can even think of, Romulo, to be happier than sad. (Yeah, as if yet another Monday wasn't enough.)

Buddy, you know what my life has been in the last 4 months. Neverthless, all this time I have found many reason to be happy and gratefull for all I have. The people that are in my life. The one that takes me the way I am with all my false and short coming, with my complexity and intensity; gave me all the reason to be happy like I feel right now. The people you have put in my path make all worth it. I thank you with all my heart.


I have never seem Boston so beautiful and what we make there was poetry. I can wait to go again in December. Thanks for all buddy, I do not know how to thank you enough

Like that one, Romulo? Or dislike?

Having preferences doesn't mean you're judgmental, Romulo; whether they're likes or dislikes.
They just ensure that as the winds of divinity are blown through your heart, the melody is unlike any other.
So have them, Romulo. Have them BIG time.
The Universe

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Buddy - I am well know for being outspoken with regard to my oreferences. They are mine. I will never would try to impose them at someone nor betray them for any reason. I have been in situation in which people would approach me and betray their preferences just because of my looks. I have never support such thing. Some how I do not look at those situations as a compliment any more.

I lik that one - Everything coming from you buddy has been to my liking - even the hardest lessons in life, I learned to like them because of the teaching behind.

Cann't wait to be in Boston. I have been waiting for this again since July. My partner so it was along time. I guess good things are worth waiting for.

That was a good message - thanks

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>Apologize to an old soul, Romulo, and your gesture will be honored.
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>Apologize to a young soul and matters may become extremely complicated.
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>Apologize anyway.
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>And... well, sorry to be redundant, but you totally rock -
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>Happily, Romulo, hanging around afterwards is purely optional.
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As I read this message and look at the things that has happaned to me since my last trip home. I just have one thing to say to you buddy. Thanks.

News of this new gig in Boston was a sign for me to do just what you suggested in message. There was not need for apologies. I will not assume what was going though this person mind back then when I was asking for an answer about trip to Boston. I know what wwas going through mind. It was not a confortable feeling since i was asking for answers that none of us had back then.

The optional part of hanging around aftewards, that was you blessing Eddie's visit and me contacting this person directly about my incoming trip to Boston and us meeting again. Because that is how I feel, like hanging around so I get to know this person better. It is also a chance for this person to know that inside this exterior that you gave me which seems to get a lot of attention but not enough for any buddy to stick around for longer since the interior is too complex and itense. Everyone deserve a chance to find by themsleve if this cloths fit them or do not fit them which is one of the biggest lesson I learned in the past few weeks and I thank you for the chance to learn it.

So stick with me buddy - we will go places together

We went Cha-Cha in Twilo on Sat Oct 20, 2006 - feet hurt big time now - incredible tribal music

Yes buddy - you deserve my gratitute

Excusez-moi, Romulo, but celestial protocol usually involves either a nod, a wink, or at the very least an acknowledging sideways glance while peering over your sunglasses, whenever a life-changing miracle is performed on one's behalf.
And I'm quite sure you know exactly what I'm talking about.
Oh, you're welcome.
Anytime. Anytime at all.
The Universe
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They never cease, huh, Romulo? Especially not for you.

Yes buddy - It seems like it was a miracle the way things unfold yesterday morning. Ever since, I put in profile that I was going to be in Boston next weekend, which is something I never do. I did not get a response what so ever about my visit. Then with the good fortune that my friend Eddie was visiting for the weekend. He made me realize that I should try once more to a first approach via email for me not to be living in an assumption.

I have never took personally not getting a response before. I was committed to be friendly to the end. But after more than a day that my message was read, I was contacted and this time I can notice a chance. Like this persona has been through a lot lately but none the less very happy with the news I was coming and told me what would be a good present. On my last note, I said I am glad you are ok that you are doing fine. Reply was in line with over all feeling how I found this person. But I can tell how happy the news was of me going there next week and possible for a few weekends after that.

I told my friend Eddie, that this communication has made my whole year a good year. This person has it all: soul, boddy and brains. This is the kind of people I want to attract. For this and for what you are about to give me, thanks with all my heart.

Now buddy - you got me with this one - thanks

Sometimes, what's really cool, Romulo, is giving perfuse thanks for the good fortunes that befall others - no matter who they are - because, invariably, your joy for them will yield the same good fortunes for you.
Shoe-wee! The Universe


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I know, Romulo, because I'm always thanking myself for you... and every day that goes by, seems even better than the one before it.

I do thank the good and the bad. To me all is an experience and lesson to be learn. I had a wonderful talk to my friend Eddie this morning when I arrived home. I love doing this with people I care so much. I learn so much about myself.

This is me buddy - thanking you for all I got.

Could I apply that to all aspects of my life?

Does a rich person have to spend all their money, Romulo, to feel rich?
No. That's silly. They don't even have to spend a cent, do they?
Oh, you so have it made. Tallyho, The Universe
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Because, Romulo, it's the feeling that comes first.

There you go buddy, great analogy to make things easy to understand. Now question is: Can I apply that to all aspect of my life? For instance, love and human relationships?

I do not need to be loved in order to feel love. But it hurts when one is being treated like a object for someone else desire.

Friend Emma was upset about what happened last week. I have to give her credit, that woman love me and care for me. I know the problem goes deeper reason why I aske for her help. To tell you the truth I do not know why I chatted yesterday with SFO. I even gave me my cell number. It was something in his approach yesterday that felt different. Then again this is a death end. I will test human nature when while coffee I will check how clear he likes things to be. Teh confesion that I was found attractive did not make me feel any special. I am starting to realize that now. But is the persuing of someone they found attractive even though is a impossible what makes me so curious.

I feel rich - I feel love - I feel wonderful - Going home via Seattle, being having thoughts of those weekks when I worked there. I do not feel bad nor feel happy. Some how I feel anxious.

Later buddy and thanks

You know how to bring a smile on me

Straight from the new "Master's Coloring Book for Advanced Souls" . . .
"There's really no such thing as 'them,' Romulo; there's only you."
I added the "Romulo" part.
Magnetically yours, The Universe
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Fill in between the lines, Romulo, and just watch how everything changes.

Buddy, I was never good reading between the lines. I have decided to live my life free of assumptions. But you message definetly brought a smile on me. I guess I wanted an extra hour of sleep this morning. Maybe the transcontinental flight is kiiling. Maybe it is just this morning and it is nothing to be concern about. But your note as well as few things that happened this brings a smile to me.

Thanks buddy - feel pretty good here - I am doing incredible - I was wanted an extra hour of sleep but nothing serious - Once start snowing in Lake Tahoe - That will mean a weekend skiing and another one going home. That would reduce transcontinental by half. Tomorrows flight is going to be a challenge SFO - Seattle - MIA (I will take sleeping pills) good think Eddie is home in SOBE. I can not wait to see my good friend.

P.S. those thoughts that were going through my mind while getting dress this morning, please help me get ready off them. I just do nto want to attract that any more in my life.

interesting message - I was wrong to invite meeting in Boston

An old soul is always prepared to admit they might be wrong, Romulo, especially when they're not.
I think.
Older than the moon, The Universe
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Love you, Romulo

Buddy - I am not saying that I am onld soul. Actually, I found myself like a never ending project in which I learn new things each day.

In Spain, my people got crazy with invitation to Boston next Winter. I was just trying to get great minds together to get brainstorming ideas from them. But I will admit that the not sharing detail of our meeting got the this way. Then again, I want pure thoughts that have not judgement base on my thoughts. I think is best if I send book there and wait to see if Eddie and I can make the crossing of the Atalntic some thime next winter.

I love you too buddy - You got me with that.

OC is too close to LAX - Planning in making regukar stops in LA

Do you ever sometimes wonder, Romulo, if you shouldn't just come down to earth and settle for a bit less?
Excellent!!
Because that means you haven't.
Toodles, The Universe
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I have so much fantastic stuff in store for you, Romulo, I might have to make eternity last even longer to fit it all in . . .


Ok buddy what you are throughing at me is big - Yes the first part of your message has to do with one of the most difficult decision and learning experience I went through my life sofar and it happened last Thursday. I could not settle for less that what my heart wanted. I knew I could not force anyone to love me. So we said good bye.

You want to play with time and space - be my guess - I will ask you for things and you will do all to give them to me - I am happy with that arramgement so far - If you have to change time and space to accomplish that, so be it.

I realize I like the fact that the last flight for LA out of MIA leave at 8:10 PM - Which give me more time on Sundays at home. Also the first flight out of LAX to SFO gets me in office at 8:10 am. The direct flight is too popular - I kind of like the stop in lAX as well.

Now, you can see me but I cann't - You go a lot to OC - Like I said before you have probably moved on which why you needed to have control on the blocking. But you might get curious one day and want to see me in person. I was so curious about you that I went to DC. But then again we are 2 different persons. The only way you can really work on your relationship and have me as a friend too was by doing what Emma and El Tio do a lot of time, hook me up with a friend or someone you know. So I could be dating this person and leave you alone to work on your relationship and be a good friend at the same time. Problem with that, I believe me this is just the tip, I will not go on over analysing things, is that you do not know any one who can be compatible with me in what I think is the basic requirement for me to get to know someone. All of your friend that you have mentioned to me at one time or other are have the potential to become a good friend with me no more than that. That brings another question to mind how come you do not have any other type of friends when it comes to preferences in roles. But I will leave that until we meet again.

IWAL

reading a wonderful book plust Out issue for Nov

AA gave my seat so I have to spend th enight in LA. I think the last time I stayed here was when I used to commute from Australia and Miami. Kevin and I would spend at least 2 day here with his friends. Wow that was in 1999.

I read in plane the November issue of Out Megazine. I want you to read it to. If one day we meet again, I would like to know what you thought about it. I think you will find a couple of articles very interesting.

I also starting reading a very interesting book. It is called "The Long Tail" Why the Future of Business Is Selling less of More by Chris Anderson. It is very interesting. I also recommend it.

Here I am chatting with you when you do not even come here any more see what craziness is coming out of my head. Thinking that after giving you up, I can handle giving up smoking.

Neverthless, for 3 years you managed to become some very important to me. Plus your santera might be working over time now. I have had you in my mind all this time. But I can tell is different. Thanks for what you did for me.

Some how I get this feeling that I will not see you in airport in Boston but I keep asking myself would be at least a little bit of curious to see me from a distance without me knowing so can see if in a year I has changed much. It comes to mind but some how I think you have moved on. It always seem so easy for you. But all I told you is true and thanks for awaken those feelings in me. Learned a big lesson I think next time would not hold on for so long or get obssesive to win someone heart or make them see that I am worth their love.

IWAL

I know you are out there - I found a great quote

I keep getting this message whenever I follow an email to my list:

----- The following addresses had permanent fatal errors ----- allamericangay@aol.com

Those email we exchanged last Thursday can give you an idea that this was very hard for me. I hope you realize that because that will tell you how difficult was to give you up.

While we were exchanging email and you blocking every of my account. I did not have time to mourn my lost. I had the client breathing down my nacke at all time with question and last minute meetings. That night, I rush to airport thinking I was late for my flight when I found out it was delayed for 1.30 minutes. So I decided for once to have a seat down dinner before the long jurney home and then connected to the internet. I good friend from SOBE saw me in AOL and started chatting with me as I was going through all the emails we exchanged that afternoon. Then, I have to tell my friend that food was here so I needed to disconnet. Food was in the table for some time by know. But the true reason for disconnecting was me starting to cry on the AA terminal in SFO.

It was good to cry. I felt so tired after it. It felts like a lot of energy went to just that crying. I remember sleeping on the way to LA as I remember waking up when pilot anouced we were going to land in my city. All through the night, when every a thought of you, I had a smile and wishes of happiness for you were only coming to my mind.

IWALY please remember that...

'Perfect freedom is reserved for the man who lives by his own work, and in that work does what he wants to do.' R. G. Collingwood

Remember what I told you once - IWALY

Have you considered, Romulo, that in all my years as the Universe, I've never once worried - not even a little - about anything?
Kind of hard when you don't believe in limits.
Be happy - The Universe


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Does wonders for the skin, Romulo.

Buddy - when you put it this way is kind of hard not to miss the point. I will remember this next time I let myself fall into that mind set.

Remember this as I want you to remember what I told you once - There is only one Universe and the only Gods are us who have the power to create our reality - Please remember this when you feel victim of the circustances. Whenever you feel like that, a victim of the circustnace, remember I am the slave riding with you as you enter trimphant into the city after wining a battle. I will be wispering in your ear, you are a mortal, when at all times, I will be thoughing at you my best energy to let you know that you are a God who can create anything you want to in your own reality - IWALY.

IWAL please remember that

In the beginning, especially, the price of giving great love, Romulo, is risking that it won't be returned.
Until you understand, of course, that great love is always returned.
With interest, The Universe
Actually, nothing you might ever give, Romulo, isn't one day returned, and far more.

To think that wen you sent me this note - I was so depressed - Thinking that my love had not value or appreciation.

You were right buddy - Great love is always returned -

Please remember IWAL and thanks for all you have given me - You will be in my thoughts and heart

Of course there's an easier way to get things done, Romulo!

let me do them.
If you know what I mean

Yes I know what you mean buddy. I remember that time in Texas. The year was 1993. I could not handel the situation. I was going through a lot back them. Then I remember a motivational tell me to let things that are too big for me to handle to a greater power that can do it all.

It was the first time you show the misterious way in which you work. It was the first time you prove me that the motivational was right.

So here we go. You know I can not handel this. That is been a year for me trying in my own way how to cope with this. So I want you to take care of it for me because do not know what else to do.

Thanks buddy - I know you will take care of it for me.

Until you understand, of course, that great love is always returned

Wow - Buddy, this is it. This is the answer to all the thoughts that has been crossing my mind since last Wed.

I do not mind giving. I found pleasure and a good feeling overall when I do that. I am not very good in the receiving end. But I was hopping for help, consideration, empathy, etc.

But now I see it. The price of giving great love, that risk that we are all victim which it is not getting love in return is one that I am always willing to take with out any resetment. Because I am giving it. It comes from me. That makes me feel incredible.

But know I can be more at peace why I did not get any help, consideration or empathy to my situation and my humble request. Only great love would do such thing. Only great love will give such things.

I knew that the little bit of love based on condictions it was given at a price to high for me. I cost that I can not dare to endure any more in my life. So I hope my friend Emma one day understand that if I fly sole at least I am free of such condictions that has been in my life since childhood.

Thanks buddy, hard to stop tears from coming down - this is a great message - thanks

Especially, when who you want to be, Romulo, is happy, and hugable

You know buddy - Your message this morning could not be more appropriate - There are times that I notice I am not might be this hugable guy - I was told it was my intesity - The people that hold dear seems to be able to handle me in those situation - This are people for who I have incredble respect and admiration because I can honestly say they are successful in every aspect of life.

Now I notice that some can not even talk to me in the phone because of such intensity - I hold nothing against them - I realize I am not a gold coin for every one to love me - But I will be making the same mistake I made years ago in my first relationship if I allow those kind of person to bring down to their level - They are intitle to where ever they want to be and feel confortable at it. My choice is the outside my confort zone always seeking the challenge like the people I admire and are able to be in my presences.

Thanks buddy - this helps

Sure you said, "Wow!", Romulo?

Ok Buddy, I can tell you have been paying attention to what is going on in my life as well as the things that interest me the most now days.

Asking is my way of avoid drama by making assumptions. I acknowledge the fact that we are all different. If I am to asume people will react and behave one way, it is like me assuming they are all like me which is a mistake. None is as crazy, complex and intense as me. Well let me correct that, I have not met yet any one like that.

It is true I am learning a lot about me through everyone I become in contact with. I am learning new things that I would love to make them part of my reality. But the true will always will be the one people give me by their answers to my question than by me assuming.

I will always be asking you buddy. If you respond which you always do, it is your way of saying to me this is what I have experience but you are free to have your own experience. I will always be grateful to you for it.

You really have some interesting friends on this side, Romulo

Bussy, I know I have good friends in that side - starting with you. But what you said in todays message is very true. I have an analogie that I always tell the mother of my little brother. When things do not seem to work for you, meaning you are going through a lot of hardship, I tell her that is when I know that the good stuf coming my way is just around the conner.

Now, you gave me an idea. The relazation that I came into this weekend of being too intense therefore, this person in particular would never be interested in me even if there were not tides like the one in the present. And my sadness to the silent and not even a little bit of confort on saying that some how I meant something. That I was not this sexy guy good enough for a quicky in an afternoon in DC but a complex intesen being that would require a lot of effort to just be around him. The no confort and silent was understood. Loving someone else with that much passion would do that to a person. reason why answer to my note today about flight back was innocent maybe some guilt involve - who knows I have never was able to predict things or know what was going on in this person mind. But then again, I took an oath not to let assumption in my life any more, reason why I am so outspoken.

Not looking for any one in particular. Maybe while I was sort of involve in this for the last 2 years I was desparated for someone to show up so I could let this obsesion to go away. Now I am back to my old being. Finding singlehood a natural state in my life has always been the way I saw things. When the one that can handel complexity and intensity shows up welcome - I just do not want the other type to keep showing up, it is too much energy waisted, too much pain. But I guess I need to learn lesson - reason why they are showing up. But I did a major break through last week beside discovering that I was pushing on an impossible. I made one that it was not meant for me to stay away.

Looks aren't every thing. For a person like me who keep being judged as vain, I do not let looks to cloud my judgement on this matters.

Wow, Romulo, everything's been so working in your favor lately, huh?

Buddy, I know you know this but the effects to be without a client are going to be felt until the second week of Nov.

No complains here, I accept the outcome cause this is the path I have chosen for me. I need to thank you for this client. I asked you for another Whirlpool and you brought an improove version of the old one. This reafirm to me that I should have no dispair. That you were with me at all times.

Now, if you help me figure out and fix that other part of my life. Then I would be sayinng whoooooo.

It hurts either way. Loosing or winning are one and the same in this paradox. Just help me a give me the courage to walk away and let them be. I think that is best for all.

Thanks for this client - you were there all this time

Romulo, you've changed absolutely everything

Buddy, if I have changed, it is because it cames from within me to do it. I hope you like the changed me because I loving it more and more with the passing of the days.

Time and space my be something that I might not have a completly grasp of it. But I like the fact that I am inventing many things at each time in each space that my reality takes me.

The day did not started good. But I was able to turn it around. The whole process took lots of energy and I was tired by the time I got to my room and order something to eat. I was all day thinking that I have not shown sign to any one of my where abouts or how I was doing. I know you know who I had in mind in specifc. It was nice to know my hola note was answer in way that show me this person had me in mind all day as well. Knowing that it would be only because of a extremely busy day this person asked me how was going with client.

Some how the fact that I seem history repeating itself when it comes to client and the whole numbers of events that occured today, brings confort that I will be able to repeat history and build a trust account with this client like I did with Whirlpool. I have asked you many time in the last months for another Whirlpool to show up. You did as you said you will always do obey my desires.

I also was very happy that another trust account is also going to a healthy balance. I will do what ever is in my power to keep that account going deeper and deeper in the positive level. Past events which I called them mistakes then but were necessary for me to learn more about myself, to accept me and accept others. So I will probably see more of those moments come out. The one that give me the impression that I am superficial entity crossing one's path. In almost 2 weeks there is a trip schedule to NYC for which I am happy for both party and wish them save jurney. I might sound content which I am but only one person could tell I wish things were different. This is a good example of time and space buddy. For another time and space, my content would translate to infinite happiness. But remember this, for this definition of time and space, I am content with not regrets and not negative feeling toward any one. My love is extended to all now. Please remember that as well as the happines that the note brought to me knowing that trust account is going positive.

The reason eternity is so hard for most to grasp

Buddy, you bring a good point. I was just tell me my friend Emma that I learned from my trip to Europe not only true acceptance a love that infenitely unconditional. But also that I was affraid and thought I was not able to do something that was kind of second nature to me. Flying between Europe and American was a common thing as me going and coming from any client in the USA. Yes I have learned that I am affraid of flying. But I think is not being affraid of something any more. It is in not really know any more what is like. Therefore, I procastine on the unknown that will be coming bigger and more frighting as I keep avoiding to learn again what it was like.

Maybe because we have experience time as we know it so far and space as we have found it so far. That the big unknown that we knew and it was second nature to us when we were Gods that one day or space decided to have a human experince. Then we do not see what is out there in front of us. I told her try as much as you can to do it once again. Then you will discover what was second nature to you and crave for it at all times was abandon by you or forgoten for a while. But once you do that first step in experience it again, you will know how much you were missing it.

Romulo... I'm still here

Buddy, believe me, I know you are still here with me. Emma yesterday made a comment which is very true and I was 100% in agreement with her. It says in Spanish Dios aprieta pero no haorca. The fact that you sent this message today is very important and relavent to Emma's comments and how my situation was or still is at some degree.

I do claim responsibility for everything because it was my doing and none else. The moment I claim responsibility that is the moment that I am inpowering myself to take action and change things around. I would denie that a part of me wanted to go throuh the whole thing. It is when you think you do not have anything in the world when you discover the wonderful life that is all around you. Old friend and newone show me how much they do care for me. How much value they bring into my life. I might not be the same consultant in terms of my bank account to that consultant I was 10 years ago but I am a richer consultant now. Look all I got which did not take money nor power to get.

Thanks buddy - for being here.

is appreciating that age is so very meaningless

Buddy, I used to head celabrating my birthday because I could not deal with so much attention. Problem back then is that I used to think love was given on conditional bases. Now I understand why this last birthday was so special. Nor only because I spent it with the two most incredible people on Earth. Also because I got so many notes in which friends wrote beautiful messages telling me how much they appreciate me being in their life.

I can remembre that a few days before my birthday someone almost made me cry with a beautiful statement. It was the fact that this person was letting me know how much he likes this Romulo than the one I used to be 10 years ago, which he never got to meet. But I was moved by that nice comment.

But the truth is that this new Romulo does not look for recognition nor approval. This Romulo thinks and believe on giving love at all times. Regardless, if I get love in return. I just feel I need to overflow the Universe with as much love as I can give.

Now I understand why this birthday was so special and incredible. Now I know why I did not feel unconfortable with all the attentions and emails. I used to hate to think I was getting a year older. My vanity could not handle that. Now I get more compliments than before when I was a lot younger and less grey hair. I think my inner bauty is startung to develop. I thank you for it.

Yeah, Romulo, like a fish takes to water.

Buddy, you are so funny. I have heard the same phrase but in Spanish. This is the first time I hear it in English.

Do I want fame and all that money? Funny ten years ago I wanted all that to proof people that were given me a little bit of love that I worth it. Now days, I can see the trace of that old Romulo. Friend Emma was abel to see that. She says that my competitive nature push me to do such thing, to try to become the center of atention, to make someone see that I worth a little love when that person has been in love for the past eight years with someone else.

Now days, I just want to do what makes me happy and what brings value to others. I have discovered that is my true nature. Yesterday, while talking to Emma, the thought that Romulo of 6 years ago was coming back scared me. Glad my friend was able to tell me that not, I was not that one any more.

Now I would not mind the fame and the money as long as I do the things that makes me happy and brings value to others. Fame and money would the result from what I love doing and the value I bring but will not be he objective that push me to do those things. I guess that is what I need to have clear. They are bias product of doing what I love.

Thanks buddy - now I feel much better - if I can only fix that other part of me that is so competitive and persues things even when it is wrong to do so. Then I can say I have become the person that I dreamed to become some day.

the most powerful power tool ever

Buddy, It is true what you are saying - But it is also true that to reprogram ourselves to use this powerful tool effectively is not easy. Neverthless, thanks for the encouraging words. I will try harder each time.

Buddy - I am going to through the ball at your court

Which one do you think I below? of the many groups of people that you mention in your note today, I know I below to one. Now I have noticed you been a little over the negative side. Now my question is why or is it me the one that seems your comments that way. I love the email you sent me yesterday. It made me feel good. But just mentioning the other groups an dthe fact that some miss on the opportunity or choose not to gor for i, sounds negative on my end. Hubs, I think I told you what group a belong to. But I learned to accept people that see things different than me. So cheer up, I am in London after a wonderful time with the 2 people that I love th emost.

This is me buddy - Telling you that I am on your side ;-)

Do you have any idea of how much each one of them loves you?

Come buddy, you are on my side. Have you noticed the ecards and email I got yesterday. The messages of hope and love my people gave me. Plus you know how wonderful coming to visit my friend Emma and her husband who I call out of love El Tio has been.

In moments when things do not seem to go my way. In times of trial and difficulty is when I see the lights around me. It is when I notice how rich I am, how proud I am of the life that I have been living. This time around has been more poverful than any of the one I have gone through before. This time I around I was with my family in Mexico and Spain. They protected me and the made me feel safe so I can recharge for the battle.

Now do you remember our deal. It is September 14th. I have not heard or received an email from my buddy in DC. I want hos doughter to be as beautiful as her Mom, with the noble heart of his fathers and the intelligence of both of them. I want the mother to be alright and as beautiful and sweet as the night of her wedding. Remember that buddy, that is me asking for my dear friend.

To my Jefecita, I know you heard me in Mexico and I know you are with them now. Please, I implore you for the well being of mother and daughter. This is a good friend and a beautiful soul. I know that you and him selected me to take that message to Mexico city. You knew I could have never passed taking such a noble job. I told him that you like flowers and whe he and his wife go to you to introduce you their daugther; they will remember to bring you flower.

This is me asking you and know that you have heard me. Please let everything be alright. Thanks

Hey, once you're "rich," Romulo, what will you do? If you get my drift

Buddy, I already know that I am rich. Just look at the people you have put in my path. None can be this rich. So with this note I say thank you. I have got to get ready. Emma has a all day plan for the day my family claims I was born.

Thanks buddy.

If you say so, Romulo. If you say so.

Buddy, I can not help but think that you are telling me this in order to let me know how much the power of my thoughts have in the Universe. I also notice that people usually answer this way when they know they do not want to continue the argument.

Please do not give up on me. I like to have you around and the though of you given up is not one that I will be able to take or accept. You are being appreciated buddy. Keep up with me, things are looking up and now is when you need to take the credit for you constant support.

Always your friend

Wicked....

Romulo, I'm literally counting the days 'till our new business is ready! Whoohoo!

Buddy, This is what I like about you - You tell it like it is - Without feel any regrets or thinking anynone can take for a vaine person.

This weekend was one of the best I have had in a long time. Emma and El Tio were telling me that they were kind of nervous with my visist and the Poland, never seem to remember his name, since we some how did not click the day of their wedding. But I was sad when they came to say good bye last. Specially, Elizabeth who I got to dance that wonderful night we went to that dance club by the sea.

Now where El Tio and Emma took me to lunch today was just incredible. It was high end, high class area that I some how missed last time I was here. We had a wonderful time just the three of us. I can not help but love this people with all I got.

I am thinking very seriously in taking my business here. Nor only I have been with people I love but I seem to be very popular here. El Tio told me the nick name he gave me because of the number of people crusing me every where we go but then again they got me drunk during lunch. This time we started with Cerveza and then Sangria that was out of this world.

Thanks buddy, thanks for everything and thanks for given me this people.

Get back in the saddle and ride on, as fast as you can

No kidding - Wow - My friend Emma was right - Coming to Europe through London is the worst - For a little time, I could remember thos days when I used to land and go through terminal 2 - My driver would be waiting for me to have a cigarret with me. He used to like me. We could talk just about any thing. There was this brief moment that I could recall those days. But the mess that I encounter. I have to enter the country when I was not supposed to then they allow only one carry on. You know how much of a nerd I am now days. I travel with all sort of gagets.

But buddy, you can always count on me to get in that saddle as soon as you can say it. I think it was cute how you end your note.

So for every one - It seems I survive this crossing. I will keep on making it each time. The old Romulo of years ago who worked in London is not coming back but the one that was able to do the crossing and venture around the world still within me.

making those whacky finger horns over your head in your photos.

You are so funny. But yes I am aware of my friend in the unseen world. I also know that what I get to see if the tip fo th eiceberg.

Now, I hope you read this one. Making the long trip to Europe is not easy for me now days. I have became more scare of flying in my old age. But I am ready as I could be. Full of crazy thoughts that goes through my mind but the one I have not being able to get at all off, is you. Yes I am guilty that since we last chatted on Monday evening I launched a direct attack on you. But why can we call this an attack. I just express how I feel about someone that I met a feew weeks ago that I am looking forward to meet again and get to know that person better. You and I have know each other for so long. At the 3 quarters of the way I can tell you were always making me believe from the distance and through this media that something can develop from this. The number of fights we have had about this subject are endless. I do not want to fight any more. I do acknowledge this thing that someone connects me to you and won't allow me to venture far. But for my sake and your sake, I made a commitment this last time to really become a friend. To respect your relationship of 8 years which even to this days I admire and think it is a beautiful one because of the way you act when you are with him. I can give my love and friendship without any conditions or expectations. But it is obvious that by keeping it this casual you are either showing me that I am a threat to your relationship or you do not really see me as friend. There has been time in the last couple of month that I really needed a true friend. One that can pick up the phone and give a message of hope and care. I got emails or chats through the other media.

Thoughts cross my mind when I remember one time you went to Dallas and you mention knowing me. Was that done to making jelouse and make him appreciate you more or was I really view like the potential friend I could become and one day being introduce to him.

To tell you the truth I do not know what to think of the whole thing. Was I really being offered a friendship or am I threat to your commitment and relationship with Dallas. I could not be seem like a friend because friend offer in any way they can confort or just the attention to be heard. So I must be consider like as a threat then. Which brings to mind the thought that we my run into each other again and you probably want to pull another DC on me. Is that all I am good for it. That is the part that makes me the most sad. Nor only the thing that scares me the most since I have been offered a gig in Southern California and your constant trip to OC means for me to hide and not being able to really sit down like good friends over coffee without you trying to go beyound of what good friends are supposed to do in such occasions.

It hurts me to attack you. It hurst me that when I am over analyzing a situation with regards to Boston. I get my friend not being supportived or discourage me by saying I was being taking as a casual hook up. I made a promise to honor your and honor your feelings as I am here honoring mine. This is how I feel betray by someone that offered me a friendship and at the moement when I could not handel fleakiness that is what I have been offered. The years knowing you and big part of those years being fed the idea of an illusion that was not meant to be. Then agreen to friendship that has terms and it is not free to express the true love between friends.

Sorry, I could not help on thinking about all this. Trips like the one I am about to take has that effect on me. But I will cross the Atlantic one more time alone for the sixth year when before I used to do with someone that was not even good company to help carry the lugage or do a simple transaction on foreigner ATM. But I am sorry if I hurt you with my attacks. I was hurt for the conditions imposed to a friendship in which I was given my love with out condition even hopping some day I can be introduced to Dallas.

For you buddy, I am sorry I went this route. I had this burning inside all night long as the time to make that crossing that you know gets me this way come closer. But I do appreciate you being on my side kepping me going like good friend always do to each other.

ase don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about

Funny how you said this, call me crazy but I think what you are saying to me is true. All things in my life might not be working or are the way I wish them to be. But I can hear the trumpets and hrons that you are talking in your email.

It is amazing what you have been teaching me this time around. I take fool responsibility that is me who ask for this and enduce this on myself. At the end of the day, I am enjoying this. The experiences are helping me to build my character. I am also seem in the darkness all the light that I have around me. I thank you for it. This is from the bottom of my heart.

No. We're talking bigger than snappy, new Ringtones, Romulo. Way

Buddy, I do believe in your words. I feel like I needed to go through what I am going through. I learning so much about me and the people around me that I feel I could not learn any other way.

I know my time in the sun is just around the conner. But I needed this like I am often looking back at those time in which I tested myself anf found that I learned so much and recognize the abundance that is available for all of us.

I would not change any thing if you ask me. The email that Boston sent me with regards my plans to come for a visit is a proof of that. I can tell now that my crossing path and that wonderful night we spend together had more meaning that just two persons crossing path and never see each other again. I have been appreciated and I have been desired. It has been long since the last time someone made me feel that way.

With this buddy, I am telling you how much I appreciate all that you have given me and how grateful I am that you are continuing given me all I ask for.

Life reflects back 060901

This is a good message buddy, thanks. Now you are giving me a push to keep going. I was just discussing this with my Carioca friend 2 nights ago. He is such a beautiful soul that he truely worries and care for me. I do not know what I have done to deserve this but from deep within my heart I thank you for all that you have given me. For the pleasent surprise visit of a dear friend yesterday. For the Carioca and all that is around me because in moments as dark as this one, I can always see the light that is always around me.

Think about me, Romulo... xo

Buddy, if there is someone who is always in my thoughts, that would be you. I can not help but think that your answer sounded insecure. The way you said "At least that's what I think"

To be honest, I care less what people think of me now days. I have been thinking lately like I usually do when I find myself in the same situation I am in right now. That there are two ways of look at my decision to go independent. If one look at my bank account back when I was in Siebel, that person might say - are you crazy!!! - But doing what I love without having to lie or keeping the truth from client, being honest with myself and the world out there, it is a amazing experience. No having that judge on top of me all the time, feels like paradise.

This is me telling you that I am ok - that I still wish another Whirpool eager to learn and uncovering the secrets of these wonderful application with me, is all I want - plus that person in Boston ;-)

Always thinking of you buddy

Wicked

Kind of makes you want to go out more, huh, Romulo?

You are right buddy. I think I have been a estranger to the world outside. So after speaking with my good friend Emma, I have decided to keep plans to go to Europe a week from today. I just hope I can make the long jurney, London, Zurich and Barcelona in one try.

I will leave London open. Who know maybe by then I get back that adventure spirit I used to have and finnaly spend 2 day in a city thatI love and I have not visit since 1998.

So thanks for the note and thanks for the wonderful day in SOBE

Whatever you decide

Buddy, your message in your note sounded to business like, you are trying to get a message to me that I know. I can not help but being hard on myself for allowing things to get to me. Then again being hard on myself, is me working against myself. Therefore, I just going to acknowledge that I have been giving it my best and keep moving in the direction that I have chosen for myself.

Now, I can tell you that you were more effective with the motivational of today. I remember how in the past I was always looking for outside factors to determine my happyness. Now days I can be in hell but still being able to laugh and share good moments with my friends. A few minutes, the thought that I induced this on me came to my mind. Yes I accept responsibility because I could have avoided it. Yes thoughts of what happens last xmas and how happy I was with so little made me realize how much I had probably was the reason why I did not stop what is happening now. Just like last xmas, I am realizing how much I have. How important I have become to the people that I have made a differences in their life. I have also realize how others can still hurt even thought I am not in my best to defend myself nor in any conditions to roll up with the punshes they are giving me.

I am not going to question that nor I will judge what is good and what is evil. Happines to me is this, to have so little but still feel I have so much. I thank you for it.

Was that all right, Master?

Buddy, you called me master and some how all humans have a problem with such title. But if all I need to do is to accept this title to be able to feel like the master of my own destiny and feel that I have control as well as to take responsibility where I found myself at this moment, so be it. As your master I will work harder on keep positive thoughts and realease good energy out into the Universe, you are bound to give meall the good that I ask. So know I know. I am not justifying anything to anyone. My reality is proof on what I believe. Only those that are able to notice that are the one that seek my company and make place for me in their life. These are the same people that without me asking has been there were I need to talk or just out fustration needed the security of their presences in my life. So as a benevolent Master, I thank you for that.

Consider carefully and thoughtfully what you are willing to accept. For whatever it is, you will most certainly have

I hear you loud and clear. I knew I can count on you. Therefore, here I go. I will offer all the goods that I know I can bring them and ask in return all that made me the person that I have chosen to be and the path that I have decided to follow.

Thanks buddy.

Don't let the dazzling heights you aspire to, Romulo, scare you from getting started.

Buddy, Thanks for your words of encouragement. Last night while in the phone with my dear friend, he reminds me how important is not to dewl on what is happening or in the circustance in which I find myself.

Yes I am guilty for letting it get me to this level of fustration. Yes since I have gone independent almost everyone has taken advantage of me. That does not mean I will change my way and therefore, not to give my trust any more. But some how I found myself with not tolerance to how fleaky everyone has been. It is like when I lost my dear friend Mark all the chance for me to find people that real were gone with him. I have endure worst but each time someone is not being true or try to take advantage of me, reminds me of what I lost.

All I wanted was to do what I do best. They are always trying to force me to be a permanent employee. It is only in certain projects and certain role that a bring real value. I can not be used a technical hired hand to keep building on a design or idea that neither brings vakue nor is done following the highes standard whcih are the only means to be successful.

Friday, has been the worst of all days but some how you do show me how you balance yourself out. I grateful for the people you have put in my path. The love and caring that they have shown me is unvaluable. You always manage to do that and some how I am able to see that so at the end I look at the positive.

I thank you for all. I know that you will bring to me the permanent position where I bring more value. I am shooting for big blue. They have the chance to develop with me the finest Siebel Analytics practice if all they are saying in that ad is true.

I find difficult to keep going if my work is not bring value. Money does not get me out of bed any more. Doing what I love and sharing my knowledge so that at the end client can enjoy the benefits of an application that they can enhance on their own is what makes me hapy. My Mark is gone and my friend is right. Please let him have peace that I will try not to missing as I go through lies and false promises. Because at the end we will prevail like we have always being able to manage.

Grateful more than ever for all your gifts and expect you to let only good things in which I can do my best work to come my way.

Turn me ON, Romulo

Buddy, you asked me for and since we have this partnership in which I ask and you experience what it is to be this crazy latino at time. I will not going to let you down. I have 3 good pipelines. One is west coast, other one is Midwest and the other is the in the middle of the plains. The west coast went cheap on me but they acknowledge my value and went through a route that you know I can not refuse most of the time, the challenge. The midwest comes from out of no where a recruiter in Miami of all places. He accepted the rate and I could feel I can trust the guy. The other one, I got late at night from my fellow consultant from Michigan that is now working in LA. He is refering me to this recruiter. All client are well know and I know for a fact that they are in the same position Whirlpool was when they came to me.

The west coast seems like chanllenge since we have 2 consulting firm and a client that I do not think is taking ownership. Just the fact that there is that many people and they are coming to get me tells me that this people are lost. My friend that got me in Siebel worked at that client while I was working in Mexico. He said that I can call him today at 3:00 PM to find more about what kind of mess this people are building here when that project should have been completed at least a year ago.

You message is loud and clear. I was guilty in several ocasion on just focusing in what was not working in my life. I remember these nice ladys that work in the supermarket, how with their smile and kindness remind me to change my thoughts. I thanked them for it, they were very gratefull.

I know he most probably would read this note. I hope he sees the correlation of your message and what I wanted him to be aware with our little incident. If I go to the West Coast, the thought of runing into him when he goes to OC was through my mind at all time. We will be less than an hour drive from each other. I want you to be awared of it. Also if I go to the Midwest, I know you will be visiting one or both city in the near future. I saw your profile park there one night last week. Whatever happens, I stand behind my word of honoring you and respecting you. I will treat you and love you like the dear friend that you have become to me. I hope you can see me like that one day.

Buddy, this is for you, because you never left my side. I had moments of weakness but I am learning not to be too hard on myself. What worries me is that when this happens a year ago, I remember being so sure that nothing could harm me because what I have tried to send out there is good energy. This time even though I know that what I have been given out is good energy. Nevertheless, I had my doubts which I never did before. I think it is because back then I was ready at any time to sell my soul and go with Big Blue or someone similar in oder to survive. This time I knew that could not take that option. Because I know I would sabotage myself in the interview. I can not seem too be able to lie or at least keep all details to myself any more. I can not be that consultant, I was once.

Thanks for all your are giving me. Making the crossing of the Atlantic seems like a big chanllenge as well with new projects starting so soon. I guess what I would do is what I used to do in my young age. Go to Europe for the weekend to celabrate my dear friend birthday and comeback to work on Monday. I did then, I can do it now. I have more grey hair now than before but my friend deserve everything good that you through her way.

how the physical manifestations and experiences of one's life hinge so much on their day dreams.

Buddy, here I am burning the midnight oil. I could not stop working and researching Oracles website after a friend left my place last night. Then I saw your email and my mind when on a trip in which I review my past and examine my present. I have to tell you that you are using a vocabulary that is new to me. I had to look up the word hinge in order to make sense and verified that you were talking of what I thought you were talking to me.

I remember those dreams I had back in Houston when I was working in that Oil company and I first met Kevin. I wanted to show to my father and the world that I was worth of the little love I was given. I dreamed of being someone in demand who one day will got to work in Venezuela but under an American company; I dream of companies fighting over me and paying high prices for my services; I dreamed I was going to travel the world looking for the next mount Everets; I dreamed I was going to be considered in my field as a respectatble guro in my area of expertise. The most incredible thing is that i got to do all that. I remember one time on my way back from a get together at the house of the VP in charge of Asia-Pac on what was called North Sydney. We were crosing the Harbor bridge and Sydney could not be more beautiful that night. I got my head out of the car, almost my whole upper buddy and said out load to everyone "I am the king of the World"

I will not go into specific what I have made me change my dreams. i will just describe what I consider now days a good dream. I dream of being among people who love me and value my precense in their life, just like this past weekend in Mexico. I dream of working at a client, together client team and me uncovering the secrects of Siebel Analytics. At the same time, I want to see how the team is showing me how much are their learning from me as I will always tell them when how much I learn from them. I dream I could come to care for somebody. To give my love without any expectation in return. I am not going to lie to you. That last experience in Boston a month ago, left in my heart and mind the posibility that I could care deeply for this person. Sometimes, I get scare because the same thoughts I had back in Houston come into my mind in which I make a promise to thise person of showing the world and all its wonders. I did that before and I do not want to do that any more. I just want endless night like that night we spend together in which one kiss was all I needed to give it all I got.

Those are my dreams lately. My values have changed. I am happy with what I value now days. All those dreams has come already. I am hopping I keep having them over and over again. because nothing fills my heart with more joy like the warm welcome in Mexico and what some of my friends in the USA showed me before I left; or working in Whirlpool, when together we were uncovering the secrects of Analytics; finally that weekend in Boston; my friend was so loving and caring and then that final night for which I missed my flight. I want all that over and over.

Yes I have been dreaming of all this for some time. I want them with my whole heart.

Romulo, it's easier to fall in love when you're busy

Buddy, I guess none knows me better than you do. You words make a lot of sense to me.

I always tell people that I perform my best when I am in an environment that is very busy and demanding. It is like when I sky. I have more control and ski my best when I go as fast as I can. It is in my nature to push myself all the tima outside the confort zone.

Now I am taking your words in the context of everything I love and I have passion in life for. I have noticed that no everyone feels confortable having a person like me as a partner. I remember back in 2002 when I went to visit Emma in Barcelona, she was thinking the same way about herself. Then a year later she surprised me with the news of having met El Tio. I remember I was too protective of my dear friend at the beginning. But once she brought him over to Miami for me to meet him every one fell in love with the guy.

Each time I see El Tio, the more love I feel for him. It is hard not to love the guy. He is honest, loving and sweet. I told my friend Emma once that she got good taste in Cars as well as in men.

So with this in mind, I thank you for your words and I will keep my heart open to every opportunity that comes my way. It could be another challenge at work or maybe meeting a person that could feel confortable having a crazy latino around. In any ways, it is always nice to know that you are out there watching over me. Thanks

Assistance-Program designed to subtly prepare you for something even better.

I do agree with you buddy. I remember I used to tell the mother of my little brother that when things seem not to be going in one's life is because something really good is around the conner coming your way. I guess I figured then that is the way you balance yourselve out.

Thanks for the note.

to change absolutely everything, is think differently

Buddy, that I know. I would never change this weekend in Mexico for anything in life. I would never change the fact that I am a total different person that I was before. That I can not be that consultant that travel around the world, making that much money but not leaving anything behind for which he can feel free proud.

Yes, I like to have a client right now. Yes, I have been thinking that the kind of client that I would like to have again is another Wirlpool. That is what I have been thinking all along since I left Detroit. I could not continue in the Detroit project. It was like working in another consulting firm or Siebel for that matter. Therefore, I am honest to recruiters, staffing company and consulting firm when I tell them that if the client is not in the same frame of mind like Whirlpool was, there is little value I can bring to a project. The best case was CGI in Boston. I was honest to the guy. But he and his firm had in mind to staff 6 consultant in the project. No way, we needed half of that from client staf to be successful in first phase and show value. I remember him telling me that he think working with a company with that frame of mind, him and I were able to change things around and be successfull. I think I heard that before from the same firm in Canada. No wonder they asked Siebel not to send me back.

I know what it takes to be successful at this. I know that requires to follow a methodology and for client to take ownership of project. To have or perform less than what I just mentioned is asking for trouble and setting myself for failure.

I am throughing out there all the good energy. I recall the circustance in which I got Whirlpool. I keep telling myself that another Whirlpool will show up. I know there are more Whirlpools than these other kind of cases for which I want to stay away. I know I just need to find the way to get the middle man out of the way. Cleint in Boston wanted me and felt confortable with me as I did with them. It was the interest of CGI to staffed 8 consultants. Where do they get this idea that they need 8. What methodology are they following? I can recall all my sources and what I based my road map. Now where does CGI comes with that number and how or what start schemas to implement first?

I was not judging you if you ever read this. I try as carefull as I could to make a point. But like I told the my buddy "when the student is ready, the teacher will apear" I have not problem having a superficial relationship with you. I would not make the channel in which we met responsible for it. Because to me it seems what you want and I would not and have not right to change that. But in the future, I think is best if we stay away from comparing one's life with the otherone's. You were right in telling me that I am lucky. I feel and I am lucky. I just did not like the context of your statement and I was honest communicating that to you. But you turned it around and thought I was judging. So less stay way from the cause of my reaction and you thinking I judge you because I do not. I care less what you do. Honestly, I have not answer not I will answer your note because you missed completly the point and I am at the end of the rope. If you decide not to speak to me ever again. At least it would be refreshing since this time is you and not me the one that comes to such conclusion. This will tell me that I have learned my lesson. I can keep going from now on with my mind clear that I was indeferent to what someone thought or did to me. That I offer my love uncondictional and I found in return ideferences or taken the wrong way or what ever you want to call it but one thing I know it is not love in return but that is not the point because I gave mine no matter what.

I do want to change things. I want good energy coming to me. I want people who make contribution in my life as I make in theirs. I miss Mark. I want that kind of people to come my way again. I want another Whirlpool. I want to make valuable contributions to projects as well as people life. Guess what I want the same in return. I want the kind of frame like the one I had in which we could spend the whole night disucssing a subject not matter is the subject was me and a short coming that needed to fix. that is a contribution. Because it was on a Sunday afternoom more than 3 years ago, that I was given the key to open every door of the Universe and the only one present who thought I was being read by my friends is a person that I never thought he was at the same level of these friends. Never undesrtood why he was part of that group.

Buddy, you know this is me telling it like it is but still with my heart full of love. I know you know that.

The Daily Motivator - For the best

Buddy, you could not be more right. I missed my flight on Monday morning. Then AA for the first time in 10 years, could not load my luggage. I did not take personally any of them. Missing the flight and then AA not being able to load my luggage were my false. Some how I refuse to spend more time that is necessary in an airport. Funny how that was the why Emma used to be and I was the way she is now.

The flight felt longger too. I guess not being traveling for a while does that to me. This make me think of the TransAtlantic crossing. I would love for my dear friend Gaby to be able to come with me. But it would be in another occasion that I would have my two ladies for myself.

Wow, this was the first time that I see from the airplane the approaching to the Mexican Gulf Coast. I got the same feeling I used to get on my first years in Houston when we used to go for xmas to Venezuela. Then the city was as beautiful as that afrternoon 2 xmas ago when I came to spend xmas with what I consider now more than ever my family.

Thanks buddy, I needed to be among family - I needed the warm and security that they provide. Thanks for this from the bottom of my heart.

There will always be people, Romulo, who think you're a target, who wish you'd be satisfied, or who want you to control you.

Buddy, I guess you read my email in which I wrote comments for which Denver can feel that I am attcaking him. I also reply to one of his email in which I am telling him something that I heard which is when the student is ready the teacher will appear.

If I would have to go with the emotions that his comments and the way that at time he behave toward me, I have to be honest that they are not plesent. According to all I have been reading, listening and watching, this is a signal that the energy he is projecting is not good. I think this is the reason why I have try unsuccessfully to stay away. Because in reality, I do not want to attract that kind of energy. But some how I can not keep my distance. I call this my learning experience which I have given a lot of thoughts since I wrote those comments in the email about NYC. If I am able to focus on give all the positive to this matter regardless of the emotions that this person enduce on me with that kind of behaviour and comments, I can honestly say that I am walking in the path in which I want to take my life.

But at time it is hard for me not to believe that this person is abusing with this kind of behaviour. I have noticed as well that this most of the time happens when someone enters my life. That was one of the reason why I did not say any thing before about what happened in Boston. But I do remember a conversation in which I was told that nothing would make that person happy than to hear that I have found someone who I can care about it.

I still think that this person allow fear to drive his life. You closing thought said that a good sign that this person choose to be near. That is another statement that I have my doubts. Since I have been the one coming back and accept this person's terms for a friendship which limits contact through email only. If I am consider a friend, I would think as I friend he would allow all channel to be open. Therefore, minimize the miss understing that seems to get us in trouble. I said fear drive him because of that. Because he fears considering me a friend when he does not see me as such. I do not think I am being consider a friend that one can introduce to this person people in Texas.

But buddy, at the end I am keeping my word of given all my love uncondictional. I would be firm if I notice abuse and do what you would want me to do which is to inform of the abuse and this time keep my distance forever like I have done with my family and other people that were once part of my life. I acknowledge the fact that you are bring it the subject as a good sign and I hope this person believe ince and for all that you are talking to him. Maybe is Grandmon pushing for this and you keeping me comming back so I do learn my lesson.

Decide for yourself

The Universe is talking. So I recommend you listen carefull. Because he or she just reafirm me that I am going in the right direction in terms of my business and life overall. Since it is a well known fact, that I apply every idea a found worth trying in all aspect of my life.

Remember this is full of love and I stand by what I wrote to you "when the student is ready, the teacher would appear" Is up to you to take all the good that I am throughing out there with not condictions of expectation. I do not believe what you have sent my way is based out of love. I think is more out of fear. But then again that is my opinion and you do not have to accept it. Remember like any of my other thoughts this one is based out of love. Which is what I promised you when I said that I will always honor you and respect you.

I am to you buddy, thanks for being there and let me know that I am going in the right direction. Because I might not have a project and things might not look promising but it is all because of th quote and motivational which is something I learned to value in my life.

Wow - you were not kidding with your note yesterday

But I show you my appreciation and how grateful then as I am having those feelings right now. First the day started by enjoy the small simple things in life. I have only being in a Wal-Mart only once before, but going with my carioca friend and putting our MP3 ons was just incredible. Then I started to get all those calls about open positions. I could not handle cell, email and lan line all going on at the same time.

Then that wonderful news from my dear friend who has been reading all this time found out that I was going to his city and that I will pay my respect to la jefecita, that he asked me to ask for his unborn child and wife. I am asking now like I will ask when I am in front of her again on Sat. Please let her have the beauty of her Mon, the brains and soul of his father. As well as, I am anxious to recieve the pictures he would say he would send me and telling me that mother and child are doing great.

Then my carioca friend was moved by this that he thanked me for allowing him to be my friend when is I who is forever grateful.

As night fell, I drove to FLL to reconnect with a dear friend that I have not seemed in almost a year. I was hunger for the piece and positive energy that always come my way when I am in his presents. Then driving down wanted to stop at Carioca friend and give him a movie he lend me plus an incredible library I came accross that I want to share with him.

Now it is late and I am tired. But I was moved by emails from my Babe in SOBE. He had done such an incredible job in going over not one but two of my websites in order to help me improve them. I can tell that love had motivated this dear friend to go this far for me.

To be honest, I am not concerned about Emma and Denver. My dear Emma is being the Virgo that she is, that she is trying to make everything perfect for El Tio and my visit to Mexico. When she does not have to do a thing, because you know pretty well that what got me so positive and happy is my going there and being around her and the beautiful people she has brought into my life.

With Denver, I know he has a good heart. I know trying to learn about me by just reading my notes, specially with my accent, is not going to give him the clear picture of who I am. He has to let go of the fear because he knows pretty well that he is made out of love. I know he would get it and know he will know that I mean not harm. becasue through these years he has come to learn another reality through interacting with my craziness and made changes in his life that reflect so. Like they say in conversations with God, we are all going to the same place and the target is so big that does not matter if I take the East and he taske the west. I just ask for him to be kind and take my note with not harm like he learn to take the one in which I was attacking him. Because this one is not different than those other. It is as full of love like the other one.

Thanks for the day - wow

when you act as if your greatest dreams have already come true

Buddy, how I can not be gratefull. I am going to see my people in Mexico who are like family to me. Just driving this morning, I realized the incredible relationhsip that I has built over the years with my friends. Just the act to stay in a work on multimedia technology and spend the time together, or simple going to Walmart and do some crazy shopping together, or havimg breakfast in David's Cafe and just be with each other.

Just this morning I realize how much I have changed. The lady in the cash register was laughing and jocking with me. Just last week the people from the carshop and the insurance company seem to enjoying my company.

I am bless. Because just tonight, I was going back in memory lane with my friend Emilio and talk about Mark. How lost I was those days; how unworthy of anything I felt then; then he just came into my life and unconditional show me that he care. He made me feel worthy. He was a beautiful soul. I have not come to terms with his departure since I have not look for someone to replace him and that it was how Emilio and I started to talk about him. He was telling me about this Brazilian woman that is book until end of days but he could get her for me.

None can replace that love I felt. I still remember when he told me "Romulo, you are a real person, that show real feelings; I like that in you" Mark you were brave, loving and kind. I will always carry you in my heart.

Thanks buddy and take care of my boy for me ok ;-)

"Yes, you can still have it all, no matter what others in your life might think, say or do."

I used to the think that chasing a life that is always pushing me outside my confort zone and a meaningfull relationship with another human being was impossible. I used to think that we have to give up somethings in order to persuit what we value most in life. Despite the fact that I feel old to make the crossing of the Atlantics, I still enjoy skiing as fast as I can and feeling the rush of adrenaline through my body. Most people never gets the contractdiction that I might be at times but if that one person does, it would be wonderful.

So I will keep up on chasing the next mount Everets to conquer which is what fuel me with the knowledge that one day I would be able to share my whole being with another person. Then I would not think of myself as one that was meant to walk alone in life. So with this in mind, I am letting you know that I want to move forward on this. I would not mind going up there instead of coming to SOBE. I love visiting New England speacially in Fall.

P.S. Thanks for the beautiful morning in SOBE. Your friend w...

When you play your life out in the palm of my hand?

Interested thoughts you bring to me this morning. My answer to the first one is no, there is not such things as mistake at any time one's life. My believe is that we are all learning through experience which is the only way the soul gets to learn. It is always a new learning experience how can we say it is a mistake when we are learning? I know at time we can be frustrated and said such thing.

Now your closing statements are very interesting. I learned through friends a year ago the concept that we can have several soul mate. Spiritual beings like us, who live forever, has a pretty good chance of having multiple soul partner through multiple life experiences. It is the logical conclusion. But we think of partner, we must used the concept literally. Must people think it means the same thing as life partner or your significant other. In my case, I have indentified one that it is my closest friend. I know, she will come back from her fabulous vacation in Los Cabos and remember that she has a needed friend in Miami. I was just kidding on this.

Buddy, thanks for everything and thank you for this past weekend. It was totally different from the previous one. I was so lonely and lost then but now I know I have my people (Boston and SOBE) who keep bringing blessings into my life.

Next Saturday - God willing I will be in Mexico City

Buddy, makes senses for me to go to Mexico City. Nor only I am dying to see Emma, Gaby and Eltio but I can pay my respect like I did the last time I stayed in the same hotel. I know that each time I stay in Lomas Verdes with Emma, we hardly have time. In my last visit in march, i wanted to sist Emma Senior and have my favorite tacos and we did not have time for either.

But I love going to Mexico. It reminds me of a time when I used to have a family and country. Now my country is this one and my family is all over the world. But I got thank you and it is one of the main reason why I think I should go and pay my respect because what I experience today it was like the good old days. Friends getting together for dinner and chatting, no point in fixing miss thing computer. That is a mess. But you gave me the opportunity to offer my old laptop with not interest taken in both side but the desire to help one another. Just like that weekend I did not have power after the hurrican or like that New Years Eve. It is a good feeling. I remember walking toward the GYM feeling incredible because of it. So I will go and see my two ladys on Friday and on Saturday my jefecita. Thanks buddy

don't ever settle for less than what you really, really want

Buddy, I guess you are right. All my life I have settle for less thinking I am not deserving of much. I have settle for the little love people can offer me. I have settle for projects that were not the one I was after. That is all change. I could have taken any project by now but the true is that another Whirlpool has not shown and that is what I want. I could have been in a relationship and I tried unsuccessfully to get in to 2 that were not exactly the best for me.

It is time I recognize that I deserve better. It is time to acknowledge that I am as good as every one elese and better than most. Not more settling just for the fact to have a pay check or someone to count on when things get rough.

This is me buddy, taking a stand and asking what is rightful mine. I deserve to be in project where I can make a contribution, where I bring value to the client and in term bringing rewarding satisfaction to myself for making that contribution. I deserve a partner that sees in me the devine holly trinity and expect from me nothing but my unconditional love as I expect the same for that person.

a reflection of what lies within

Buddy, I am here because of all the experiences I have lived in my life. Some of then were very hard to go through, but some how I keep them close to my heart. Othere were plesant reminders of how wonderful this experience can be. If I have to live those years again, I would not have them any other way.

I am as good as every one else and better than most. I am happy to be here and being able to share with all this wonders. Thanks buddy.

The way forward

Buddy, I get the message - Thanks for picking up at moment like this when one can find difficult to practice what I preach - Good to always get a message refirming me that you always there watching over me and fullfilling all my desires. So lets make things interesting, lets get my brain to work in helping a client implement Analytics the right way - That always make me feel good because my primary purpose in every implementation is to bring value.

the illusions in your life - good, bad and ugly - thrive on attention

Buddy, I know what you are trying to say but at time is not simple to achieve it. For instance, I think I might be getting the cellutis again. My friend Emilio try to persuate me I was not while having breakfast with me. But yesterday, I could notice the redness and sourness in the area. This morning as I was getting up, I was telling myself that it was all an illusion which was getting stronger the day before because I was given too much attention.

To be honest, at this time I can not afford to get t his. I feel like too many bad things in a row are happening to me. Then I think about the things I have through before and tell myself I strong enough to go through anything that might come my way. Then I think of that important lesson in Arizona. The Universe always try to remain in harmony by keeping the balance on what we percieve as good or bad. Then I say to myself, a lot of good things might be just around the corner on their way to come to me then.

I do miss my friend Mark. It is hard to look for someone to replace him, not in my heart but in his duties around my apt. I feel at times someone can give me a hug and tell me things will be ok. Emma is a good friend that keeps my spirit high but I need to let her enjoy her time off in Mexico. I made a promise to go and visit the Virgin on that Sat when she departs for Spain and I stay by myself in Mexico. Most likely Gaby will be busy in th emorning so I can do like that last time I stay un the Marriott in that beautiful day in which I saw Mexico city so beautiful and I went to pay my respects and that promise I made a year before when I remember that I was working in the country for a month and I did not go once to see her. That was the time you show me the way you work. You always find the perfect solution for things. Therefores, I will not give too much thoughs of what might be happening and remember that morning when you show me you wonders in Mexico City.

Ok buddy is between you and me

Since Emmas is the one that sort listen to me talking about what is going on in my life because I will ot call what I do complaining. Now it is your time to hear me. I just got word from the body shop and to put a new top for my car is going to be 2,000 Dollars. Now my question is the following: This is the third time since I moved to SOBE that this has happened to me. I think you remember the first time what during xmas time back 1997.

I am not going to say that the one that did this is evil. I think he has not evolved enough and needs light to guide him. I hope me taking this third time this way does not disrupt that process for him. But my question is th efollowing, are you trying to tell me that I should quit on convertibels? are you trying to tell me that I should quit having a car after all I do not drive or need a car much plus all my claim has been either this or people hitting me and never leaving a note.

My answer is that I enjoy driving this car. Today when I was going over the cause way, I think I was doing 100 Miles per hour, I was not wearing a shirt and I could hear the wind and enginen making that noise of high speed. Then I could feel how this car stick to the road, giving absolute control over the whole experience.

I think I got my answer. Regardless of any thing, I will keep this car. This experience is too wonderfull to live without it. Thanks buddy, you did good ;-)

Whose day shall we make today

Ok buddy, I know that you and I are one. You are experiencing through me what it is to be Romulo, the human and most of the time not easy to take Romulo. I am you because I have the power to create, just like you made me in your image. So what day shall we make?

I said lets go for one in whihc you get to experience the little thing whihc I am starting to find ficinating in life and most of my life I over look them. I also say lets make it challenge and create things. I want to close deals that are in the pipeline so I can get back to where I really feel in my element, a high pace environment in which there is always a new challenge, a new problem to solve, a new opportunity to learn.

I believe, you and I would be happy with that kind of a day. You will get to experience every thing that makes Romulo this complex and sometime biggest contradiction to most people. I get to do what I love, to feel the rush and achieve fullfillment by applying my brains and exercising my buddy.

Thanks Buddy, you have made my day.

Wow, was that you, Romulo?!

Buddy, thanks for your note, I know it was not secret for you that this weekend I felt a little lost. I am saying lost becuase feeling down or depress is not in my vocabulary any longer. You know my reasons for feeling this way. I did all I could to bring myself back again and I can say I did. But at times I felt a needed a hug or hear my friend Emma's voice.

The good thing is that yes at time I called on you and thanked you like I am doing it now for every thing I have. I know that everything is there for me. Just liked I learned the true meaning of that quote from Barbara S. "A the time of commitment the Universe conspires to assist you"

Thanks again for everything, I will keep on going this way because it is like the quote from Wiston C. "I am a optimist because it seems to be the only choice we get..." No exactly his own words but you get my message. I know that my thoughts become things so I will always try to make them good one.

Once again thanks buddy - now I through out the the though for him to come and visit from Boston. He did not respond to the message but in my last one I told him not to feel responsible but I was honest how he made me feel therefore I want the chance to have that feeling again so he is welcome in SOBE. I am counting on him to take me on this one. At the end, would SOBE be a good choice for weekend retreact during the cold winter. Never mind that New England looks so beautiful when snows but it is SOBE and me after all. A little push from you is very welcome.

Your own magic

Some how I think you send this one just for me. Yes someone tried to break into my car and tore the top. Yes, I was told it was going to cost 2,000 Dollars to fix. But some how, I kept a good spirit while I was in the dealer working and eating at the same time. Then when I stop in the electronic store to return something that was not significant. This little baby was smiling at me. I guess El Tio will have his laptop, just like Emma proposed when she came in March. Good computer, 1GByte of Ram and Pentium M full loaded.

Buddy, I can not have it any other way. I have to have darknest in order to appreciate the light. One experience is in relation to another one. I have never had a problem with it. It gives me my references point to discover what feels good and what feel less good but at the end still good.

Now, if Emma would call. I do not want to interrup her vacation in Los Cabos. But today, I thought of her so many times. I hope I can make it to Mexico in 2 weeks. I want to eat Tacos Al Pastor and see Gaby as well. Emma would have enough of me for her real birthday. That is if she has not fixed me in with one of her new friends she just told me she met not to long ago. There we go ago. Blind dates set by Emma and El Tio. There are harmless at the end, any ways.

Does that ever happen to you?

You know buddy, it happens to me all the time. Sometimes, I forget that a condiction that I was told about back in 1986, when people were not supposed to live for more than 2 years back them, totally forget about it. That is just one case of me being in the same situation like you.

Now on a good note, two friends that I love deeply just thank me for the movie I gave them. I was not looking for gratification but in the way this two beautiful souls express their gratitute made me feel so good for sharing with them all the good things that comes my way. Their comments were so deep in gratitute which let me to believe together we will encourage each other to create our own Universe and be the beings that you had in mind for us to be from the beginning of times.

I know that the one I bought the book and movie thanked me that same night. But I have to hear it like I hear these two. I know he can create the Miracle that I would love for him to create by Oct. He just had to believe it deeply with all he got. Just like he had changed his life for good and now he is the best example of good citizen, he needs to use all that strength on this one. Because we all need him with us.

Thanks for these wonderful presents and for letting me be the channel to communicate this truth obout ourselves.

The Secret" - in American or European DVD formats!

Buddy, I have run into a few of those old soul in this experience. I have always admire that quality in them. I am not worring much now days. Nevertheless, I have my moments as you can see from last week. But at the end, you always come to the rescude and send me a message through whatever channel that seems will be ok.

I have distributed the movie to a few. I gave original to that friend in SOBE I told you about. At the beginning, I black mail him with the Music I got in P Town. But I really wanted him to watch. It did make me feel good to see. With regard to the rest, I just hope the do not wait until they hit rock botton to look for enlightment. I will make copy for my people in Mexico, NC and Spain. Well, you know me, I preach this so much that I give copy to almost every one I run into.

We have an obligation to share the good things in life. My friend who I still miss but little by little and learning to move on taught me that. In the good note, I was able to find someone to do the job. I know he would not be him but I got a good feeling when we chat on the phone as I told him that I conduct business thinking that we are all good therefore, I have not problem given them a trust account with a good balance. It is up to people to either make withdraws or deposit more.

Thanks for being there for me buddy.

I kind of see it like this...

Buddy, I could not agree with you more. I watched movie "The Secret" and I was moved by the testimony of the people in it.

I have distributed the movie among my clossest friends. I hope they take the opportunity to se once more that we are creators here and not victims of circustances like we used to think.

It is like I have told friends all along, you will only get to the surface when you hit rock botton. So I thank you for being there and always providing me with a word of encouragement. I am loving this experience that is Romulo.